Good morning.

Happy Friday!

I just took my second Trulicity pen treatment for the week. I called Mom and told her about my experience. So the first pen, it left me feeling sore due to injecting the solution in my thigh- NO GO FOR ME!!!!

This round, I did the next injection in my belly (where there is more meat- 😂😂😂) and it didn’t hurt, and it was a lot easier for me to handle. Further in the conversation, she brought up that she told Nana about my news. Long story short, my health is impacting my grandmother.

It had me thinking, wow, I’m not the only one affected by my current health issues and decisions. How I take care of myself affects everyone. The last person I ever wanted to be affected by this was my grandmother because she’s a diabetic. It’s bittersweet because I’m glad to know that she’s concerned, but now I feel like that’s another person I’ve let down.

Don’t worry Nana, I’ll make you proud. I say all of this to say that your overall health is not just a personal matter, it’s a family matter as well. If you don’t have that support group within your family, start today. Sit down with your parents and loved ones, let them know how your health is, and figure out ways to keep each other positive and encouraged.

If you’re just starting on your health journey, create a plan. Write down your struggles, your goals, and what you want to get out of this experience. Do it together as a family so you can keep each other accountable.

Well, time for me to get work done. I’ll check in with you later.

Until next time…


Good evening

Just wanted to give you an update on how things have been in my life. Let’s start with health:

I’m starting over on “Road to 200” due to things spiralling out of control due to stress, over-thinking, fear, laziness, and feeling overwhelmed…

All of these things while keeping a smile on my face…

Eating patterns were…horrible for the most part. Dad and I both came to the conclusion that we have to do better. So I took time to edit my goals for my health and taking my time slowly changing my unhealthy habits. Tomorrow will be the official Day 1, where I’m not only being honest with you all, but with myself as well as I face the good, the bad, and the ugly of being unhealthy during a pandemic.

Work is…work. I’m going through the motions. I get up, do the same thing over and over again. Still not feeling fulfilled, but mature because I know it’s a responsibility to keep a job, pay rent and bills, and be an adult. But, I say no more.

I aced my media writing class, and probably had some issues with my video submission for my week 1 discussion board. Not to mention, I have to write 3 proposal letters for my writing assignment, only having 1 completed so far. For the past few days after the video disaster, I’ve constantly been overthinking about how I’m doing in this class, and it’s causing me to feel stressed and overwhelmed. Tomorrow, I’ll come back fresh, and rethink how I can approach future writing assignments.

Due to class, work, health, and life, I took a small hiatus from the blog to prioritize some things. Long story short, I need to better time-block my day. I have my planner out where I can see it, I’ve made my intentions for the week, and wrote down action plans to get more accomplished. For now, I need to get some sleep since I didn’t sleep well last night.

I’ll leave you all with this peaceful Verse of the Day, found in Zephaniah 3:17.

The Lord your God is in your midst, A victorious warrior. He will exult over you with joy, He will be quiet in His love, He will rejoice over you with shouts of joy.
Zephaniah 3:17 NASB

Until next time…



Good morning

Started my morning with quiet time. Today’s Verse of the Day comes from 1 Peter 3:12.

It talked about God sees us doing right and He sees us doing wrong. It gave me something to think about, like have I really used this time of Quarantine wisely? Am I doing the right things, especially during these times? During the devotional, there’s a moment of Guided Prayer. This is the time to reflect on what I learned from the scripture.

I took time to journal and answer these questions:

Here is my journal entry from the Journey app:

Overall, I’m not doing ok.

I still get stressed about work because I’m not doing things right, when I try to ask for help, no one listens or pays enough attention to me to offer it. When I mess up, I feel like everyone is still judging me, thinking I’m a stupid, fat, lazy employee who only cares about the things she enjoys other than work. I feel like I’m still trying to be something I’m not. I don’t like the person I’ve become when I can be something better. When I try to do what is right, I continue to mess up and have multiple setbacks. I feel like God is looking at me, shaking his head because I’m not taking care of myself, I’m not thinking of others, I’m acting selfishly and spending my money unwisely. I’m constantly eating and forget to check my sugar. I’m always tired most times because I have moments of depression and it takes me a long time to get out of it.

Lord, I’m constantly thinking that I’m going to lose this job before I’m able to start pursuing my dream career. I’m afraid that I’m not strong enough or prepares enough to help others like myself that have a mental illness. I’m scared that I’m going to mess up helping Jared with his passion project. I’m scared to not think about what others think about me, I’m not a risk taker because I’m scared of failure. I feel like I’ve felt so many times, I’m stuck and don’t know which path to take or I’m choosing the right path. I constantly worry about Mom and Dad. I worry about my own life while others worry about what is happening to this country. Lord, I’m worried that I’m not making a difference in the world and I should. I’m upset because everyone has someone, and I’m going to be alone. Lord, I’m falling apart. Lord, I’m a mess…

God’s presence is changing me because He is helping me understand that it’s okay to have these feelings, but it’s important to know where to go to share these feelings. He wants me to come to Him more and learn to trust Him when these thoughts come to mind. His peace and love are calming me down, He’s helping me shed tears to let go of these feelings and the pain I feel. He keeps telling me to slow down to pay attention to Him and what He’s trying to tell me to do. He gives me rest, and watches over me as I sleep. He wakes me up so that I can get the day started off right with Him. He shows me that He loves me by helping me get through the good days and the bad days, He cares about me enough to listen to my thoughts and feelings, even if I don’t say anything. God loves me and cares about me because He sees me trying to do right, trying to be good, practicing reading the Bible and praying more. God sees that I’m trying to focus my attention on Him.



So today, I’m going to be quiet and think about all this. I’m ok, this morning was off to a rocky start. A rocky start for all the right reasons. I needed to talk to Him today, and I also needed to be still and listen. I feel better, but I know I got some things to really think about.

Let me sit back and relax, and calm myself down.

Until next time…



Good evening

Don’t worry, I’m alive

This thing called life is just…

Where do I start. First let me continue to promote that I LOVE WORKING FROM HOME!!!! However, I’ve come to the permanent conclusion that Uber Eats is my friend… and my enemy.

I think for maybe 5 weeks straight, Uber Eats was my best friend, especially Starbucks. Oh the joy of trying my first Matcha Green Tea, a new experience, but a delicious one. And their cake pops?!?!?!? The Unicorn and Birthday Cake have been my best friends. And as delicious as these treats were, my weight and blood sugar numbers showed me the ugly truth.


*cue the dramatic violin music*

And Amazon???? I dare not dive into the deep rabbit hole of purchases I’ve made over the period of Mid-May to Mid June.

Long story short, June has been a VERY rocky start.

But that’s ok…

There’s always a comeback story right? Lately, I’ve been binge watching YouTube videos of how to create videos, and how to edit videos. From Monday until this morning, Shameless Maya has been my go-to for those videos. And it got me thinking the big question… Should I take a leap?

My sister-in-law has a channel (unfortunately, I do not know the name, I just found out this information like a minute ago), but I had the conversation with my Mom, and she asked me if I became a influencer, what would I create or what sponsors would I have?

I told her my honest truth, before the sponsors come, it starts with me. If I go down that path, my niche would be mental health and the things that come with it- lifestyle, self-care, self-love, journaling, medication and meditation, my journey, etc. And for me, it’s going to take practice, just like I’m learning with blogging, it’s still taking me practice to be consistent.

I figure if I can browse on Amazon and UberEats for a HUGE chunk of my day, I can put forth the same effort with my passions. So, ending the night on a positive note, I’m not giving up.

I’m going to keep working at it until I get it right

Until next time…