SURRENDER YOURSELF TO GOD

Good morning.

We’re back to Monday.

Hope everyone enjoyed their weekend. Mines was filled with the sounds of lo-fi music from ChillHop on YouTube, and spending time with Mom at her house. Today, I wanted to share with you what I learned during my Quiet Time today. This morning, the sermon from the Bible App talked about surrendering yourself to God. The Verse of the Day, comes from Proverbs 3: 5-6.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5‭-‬6 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/pro.3.5-6.NASB

I smile because when I started my faith walk, that was the first scripture I memorized. Not to mention, growing up I remember my late grandmother, Grandma Beverly, loved reading the book of Proverbs, and that we would have our conversations about reading the bible so that scripture will always be special to me. But, it’s special to me now because the topic talked about surrendering yourself to God. This is something that I feel like I’m still struggling with or that I’m not doing right.

I guess it goes back to my anxiety about certain areas in my life. I’ll pray to God about the issues, only to sit up and worry about them a few weeks later. When it comes to a bad habit I’m trying to kick or making a difficult decision, I go to a different source instead of seeking the Word. For a while now, I notice when I sleep, I become restless for most of my sleep. At first, I just thought I was trying to get comfortable. But over time, I learned after watching a sermon from Dr. Charles Stanely, that being restless is God’s way of trying to speak to me.

The only problem with that, I’m still not sure at times what it is He is trying to tell me. Friday, last night, and this morning, I’ve been dealing with a little pain in my body. I’ve been asking Him to heal me, but I understand He is trying to tell me to focus on my health. This is His way of speaking to me, through restlessness and through pain. I know the pain won’t last forever, but I know that He’s telling me that He loves me and cares about me enough to want me to do something about it. Not only that, I think this is way of telling me to surrender everything in my life to Him.

I’m trying not to overthink it, but maybe I need to write these things down, pray over it, and leave them to Him. I keep having anxiety about these certain areas in my life that they are affecting my health and wellbeing. When I was at Mom’s house, I wasn’t too stressed, but I wasn’t comfortable either. Most of it due to sleeping on the futon I gave to her when she moved. Important fact to you all: do not invest in a leather futon- THEY ARE NOT COMFORTABLE AT ALL!!!!

But to sum everything up, if there are things that are weighing you down or you need to get off your chest, surrender yourself to God, trust in Him, and He will take care of everything in your favor. Just watch Him work, I know I will.

Well, time to get the day started, and prepare to finish off Week 05 strong later on. Check in with you all later.

Until next time…

❤️

BE STILL, KEEP THE VISION, & LET GOD BE THE FIRST NOTIFICATION

Good morning

I hope everyone enjoyed or are still enjoying their labor-day weekend (if you have more days off than Monday). What better way to kick off this week than with a Quiet Time post from me. Today’s lesson talks about being still, keeping the vision, and relearning how to listen. The readings for the lesson comes from the following:

  • Exodus 14:14
  • Habakkuk 2: 1-3
  • Isaiah 50: 4-9

Let’s begin with this morning’s story. The reading can be found in Exodus 14:14

The Lord will fight for you while you keep silent.”
Exodus 14:14 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/exo.14.14.NASB

To start, the reading shows us Moses leading the Israelites to freedom. Pharaoh and his army are in pursuit. The people of Israel at this point are terrified, confused, and anxious because so many thoughts are going through minds, from being put back into slavery to dying out in the wilderness. But Moses assures them that everything is going to be ok.

It made me think about what I’ve been going through the past two weeks. I’ve been battling with a shopping addiction that I can’t seem to kick for the past 3 years now, but it’s kicking my butt in my finances. I eat healthy, but when my groceries dwindle in my fridge, and there’s nothing left to cook, I retreat to UberEats for breakfast, lunch, and dinner until my next paycheck comes in. Also, when I work out with others, I’m motivated to keep going, but when one person falls off the bandwagon, I fall off as well. Finally, I’m working hard on turning my passions into my dream career, but I have moments when I ask myself am I meant to do this, why am I even doing this, or is it even worth it?

After reflecting over these past two weeks, and going through the lesson, I learned that I need to be still. It seems whenever I have these moments in my life, God is constantly reminding me to be still and that He is fighting my battles for me. God reminds me to be still, however I’m too hard-headed to listen. Yesterday, after I stressed over my assignment for Week 04, I used the rest of my day to rewire my thinking. I woke up today feeling well-rested, not tired, and ready to start my day not worrying about anything. So, if I continue to practice being still, I’m reminded that God is fighting my battles for me, taking the burden off of my shoulders so that I can have less stress and more peace.

The next readings come from the Bible plan, “7 Habits to Develop Spiritual Growth.” The first reading is found in Habakkuk 2:1-3.

I will stand on my guard post And station myself on the rampart; And I will keep watch to see what He will speak to me, And how I may reply when I am reproved. Then the Lord answered me and said, “Record the vision And inscribe it on tablets, That the one who reads it may run. For the vision is yet for the appointed time; It hastens toward the goal and it will not fail. Though it tarries, wait for it; For it will certainly come, it will not delay.
Habakkuk 2:1‭-‬3 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/hab.2.1-3.NASB

In Day 1, it talks about keeping the vision. It goes in depth about how we make resolutions, and that making resolutions are good, but persevering in them are better. Habits are powerful and create a model that determines how we’re going to live our lives. Developing good habits gives you the means to keep good resolutions. For me, in the past, I’ve created good resolutions, which is why I want to develop good habits. The problem is that I have trouble sticking with these good habits.

When I read verse 2 of the scripture, I created a note on my phone of the good resolutions and good habits to stick with for the rest of this year going into next year. Then, I created an alarm to remind to look at those goals everyday so that I know what I’m working towards. It was like God’s way of helping me answer my own question. The next step was for me to take it to Him so that He can help me pursue these things that are good. Whenever things get hectic in my life, I forget to pray over these things in order for them to become reality. So the first habit to develop spiritual growth is to keep the vision before your eyes by writing down your resolutions and refer to them regularly.

The next readings come from Isaiah 50: 4-9.

The Lord God has given Me the tongue of disciples, That I may know how to sustain the weary one with a word. He awakens Me morning by morning, He awakens My ear to listen as a disciple. The Lord G od has opened My ear; And I was not disobedient Nor did I turn back. I gave My back to those who strike Me, And My cheeks to those who pluck out the beard; I did not cover My face from humiliation and spitting. For the Lord God helps Me, Therefore, I am not disgraced; Therefore, I have set My face like flint, And I know that I will not be ashamed. He who vindicates Me is near; Who will contend with Me? Let us stand up to each other; Who has a case against Me? Let him draw near to Me. Behold, the Lord God helps Me; Who is he who condemns Me? Behold, they will all wear out like a garment; The moth will eat them.
Isaiah 50:4‭-‬9 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/isa.50.4-9.NASB

In Day 2 of the plan, it talks about how we let ourselves get swept up by the everyday things BEFORE taking time out to know God. If this settles over time, the feeling of “Losing our first love” can happen. I don’t know about you guys, but I can relate to this so well. I write things down in my planner, and having Quiet Time is at the top of my list. As the day goes on, and I do the other million and one things, I let that time slip through my fingers. I keep saying I’ll do it tomorrow, but tomorrow comes every time, and I never do it. I struggled with this for a while most of last year, and part of this year too. There were times God got my attention through me getting sick to tell me that we needed to spend more time together.

Any relationship we’re in, in order for it to grow, we have to take care of it. We have to look after it every day, prioritize it. The first notification to pay attention to is from the Lord.

So, the second habit is to dedicate the first 10 minutes of your day to God. When you start with 10, it will increase to 20 minutes, then 30 minutes, and then an hour. The more time you spend with God, the closer you’ll feel drawn to Him.

Well, another inspiring morning Quiet Time in the books for you all. I’ll check in later. Remember to be still and let God fight for you, keep your vision, and let Him be the first notification you get in the morning.

Until next time…

❤️

STRONG IS NOT WRONG & RESTORE ME

Good morning

It is now Wednesday, and I thought it would be a good idea to share with you all a bit of encouragement this morning. Here are the readings for today:

  • Eph. 6:10
  • 2 Corinthians 1: 3-8
  • James 1: 2-4

Let’s start with “Strong is Not Wrong”:

The scripture for this lesson comes from the Verse of the Day, Ephesians 6:10:

“Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of His might.
Ephesians 6:10 NASB

For this reading, I learned that when we feel weak, we find our strength from God and that we need to remember to be humble. The lesson applies to Christian Women, but I feel like it applies to people that deal with mental health as well. You’re going to have moments, even days when you feel weak. But we need to remember to find our strength in God. It says in the Bible, that Christian Women are associated with weakness rather than strength, but the truth is that they were called to be meek, not weak. The same goes for people battling mental health, we live in a society where individuals with a mental illness are seen as weak, when really we were called to be meek, not weak.

Now, before I go further, let me clarify what the word meek means. In the reading, meek is defined as strength under control. The Bible says that Jesus and Moses were meek, not weak. The same goes for Esther, she was meek, not weak. The meek are the humble that understand their strength comes from God.

This life requires strength, as we live longer, life gets harder. Living Godly in a Godless culture requires more strength than anyone can muster on their own, but we’re not alone.

This stuck out to me because there were times when I felt alone and that no one could understand what I was going through. The more I read the Bible, and the more time I spent with God, I realized that I wasn’t alone, and also, I noticed that there were other individuals like me in the world, living with a mental illness.

Now, for Day 1 of “Restoration” by Lecrae:

“Restore Me”

The scriptures for this lesson are from 2 Cor. 1: 3-8 & James 1:2-4:

“Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
James 1:2‭-‬4 NASB

“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction so that we will be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. For just as the sufferings of Christ are ours in abundance, so also our comfort is abundant through Christ. But if we are afflicted, it is for your comfort and salvation; or if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which is effective in the patient enduring of the same sufferings which we also suffer; and our hope for you is firmly grounded, knowing that as you are sharers of our sufferings, so also you are sharers of our comfort. For we do not want you to be unaware, brethren, of our affliction which came to us in Asia, that we were burdened excessively, beyond our strength, so that we despaired even of life
2 Corinthians 1:3‭-‬8 NASB

For this reading, I learned that God is not surprised by our trials and our pains. We live in a broken world, fueled by sin.

In the midst of the pain, God DOES NOT abandon us. God uses that pain to develop perseverance and make us mature believers. Pain and suffering are essential ingredients to growth and maturity in our faith.

Back in 2011, before I got saved, I was going through some things that I should have never gone through. Things that made me feel like I was worthless and that I was always going to be a screw-up. Now, I know that I don’t have to feel that way because God is always with me, and as long as I’m reminded of that, I will be ok. We need avoid boiling Christianity down to a suffering existence, but instead, we are encouraged to look to our suffering through the lens of faith. When we experience hardship and see the brokenness of our world’s systems, we are encouraged to consider it joy. As citizens of God’s Kingdom, these are reminders that our hope is beyond fulfillment, but our hope is in Christ.

Conclusion: God knows we’re not strong, so He makes us strong. Our Hope, is the hope made fully mature in us that has the power to change the world. We do not despair in hope.

I hope my Quiet Times are helping you through whatever struggles you’re facing. Let me know if you enjoy my Quiet Time posts, and I’ll continue to encourage you and give you some insight to start your day off on the right foot. I’ll check in with you all later on.

Until next time…

❤️

AM QUIET TIME

Good morning

Today has been a peaceful morning. I woke up and had my Quiet Time. It started with a story you listen to at anytime of the day in the Bible app. The topic talked about facing trials in our lives and how God redeems hard seasons. The Verse Of the Day comes from James 1: 2-3.

Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance.
James 1:2‭-‬3 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/jas.1.2-3.NASB

What I learned from this is that no matter what trials I’m facing, God is pulling me through them. It tests my faith and shows me how far I’ve come in my faith. It also taught me that with God’s Help, I can do anything.

Then, I started reading the Bible Plans I picked out based on the things that were really bothering me lately. Those things were: my finances, my spiritual journey, and spending more time with God. Here are the plans I’m doing if you all want to take a look for yourself on the Bible app:

  • Awakening
  • Finding Your Financial Path
  • 21 Days in God’s Word

If you don’t have the Bible app, I highly recommend you download it on your phone or whatever device you use the most. I wanted to share with you all my Quiet Time notes and what I learned this morning.

AWAKENING- the first day of this plan goes over why the Bible is important and how over time, we lose our passion to spend more time with God and read the Bible. I learned that my biggest obstacle to building a stronger relationship with Jesus is fear. I’m constantly worrying about the unknowns and not being good enough in life. I’m scared of failing and disappointing God. I know, I sound like a broken record but I think my Bipolar kicks in when I experience moments of doing very well. So today, I learned to ask God to help ignite that passion in me to spend more time with Him.

21 DAYS IN GOD’S WORD- This plan talked about challenging yourself with reading the Bible. There are many reasons for reading the Bible: it gives us peace, it offers us wisdom, it guides us and guides us in the truth, it helps us overcome challenges, and it encourages us to live God’s way. Today, I learned that the Bible is important in my life and that it can impact my life if I turn to it and turn to God more.

FINDING YOUR FINANCIAL PATH- Money is something I still worry about and I still struggle with. For the first day, I learned that if I continue to worry about money and constantly think about money, I’m turning money into my God, I’m praising money instead of praising God, I’m worshipping material things instead of God. So I need to turn over these feelings and thoughts and my finances to Him and let God take control of that.

Here are the scriptures for today from the readings:

  • Psalms 119: 111
  • Matthew 9: 9-13
  • Matthew 19: 16-26
  • Romans 12: 11-12
  • 2 Timothy 3: 16-17

After my Quiet Time, I feel peaceful, I feel light. I opened my planner and did not feel stress. I made myself some lemon water. And I am enjoying my morning. Mondays and Tuesdays are my slow days, I’m not going to rush and stress myself, I’m going to take my time and enjoy being in the moment.

So, I’m going to continue enjoying this feeling. And I will be back with you all later today. Have a great morning!

Until next time…

❤️

A DEEP MOMENT DURING QUIET TIME

Good morning

Started my morning with quiet time. Today’s Verse of the Day comes from 1 Peter 3:12.

It talked about God sees us doing right and He sees us doing wrong. It gave me something to think about, like have I really used this time of Quarantine wisely? Am I doing the right things, especially during these times? During the devotional, there’s a moment of Guided Prayer. This is the time to reflect on what I learned from the scripture.

I took time to journal and answer these questions:

Here is my journal entry from the Journey app:

Overall, I’m not doing ok.

I still get stressed about work because I’m not doing things right, when I try to ask for help, no one listens or pays enough attention to me to offer it. When I mess up, I feel like everyone is still judging me, thinking I’m a stupid, fat, lazy employee who only cares about the things she enjoys other than work. I feel like I’m still trying to be something I’m not. I don’t like the person I’ve become when I can be something better. When I try to do what is right, I continue to mess up and have multiple setbacks. I feel like God is looking at me, shaking his head because I’m not taking care of myself, I’m not thinking of others, I’m acting selfishly and spending my money unwisely. I’m constantly eating and forget to check my sugar. I’m always tired most times because I have moments of depression and it takes me a long time to get out of it.

Lord, I’m constantly thinking that I’m going to lose this job before I’m able to start pursuing my dream career. I’m afraid that I’m not strong enough or prepares enough to help others like myself that have a mental illness. I’m scared that I’m going to mess up helping Jared with his passion project. I’m scared to not think about what others think about me, I’m not a risk taker because I’m scared of failure. I feel like I’ve felt so many times, I’m stuck and don’t know which path to take or I’m choosing the right path. I constantly worry about Mom and Dad. I worry about my own life while others worry about what is happening to this country. Lord, I’m worried that I’m not making a difference in the world and I should. I’m upset because everyone has someone, and I’m going to be alone. Lord, I’m falling apart. Lord, I’m a mess…

God’s presence is changing me because He is helping me understand that it’s okay to have these feelings, but it’s important to know where to go to share these feelings. He wants me to come to Him more and learn to trust Him when these thoughts come to mind. His peace and love are calming me down, He’s helping me shed tears to let go of these feelings and the pain I feel. He keeps telling me to slow down to pay attention to Him and what He’s trying to tell me to do. He gives me rest, and watches over me as I sleep. He wakes me up so that I can get the day started off right with Him. He shows me that He loves me by helping me get through the good days and the bad days, He cares about me enough to listen to my thoughts and feelings, even if I don’t say anything. God loves me and cares about me because He sees me trying to do right, trying to be good, practicing reading the Bible and praying more. God sees that I’m trying to focus my attention on Him.

I AM A CHILD OF GOD.

I AM HIS GIRL. ❤️

So today, I’m going to be quiet and think about all this. I’m ok, this morning was off to a rocky start. A rocky start for all the right reasons. I needed to talk to Him today, and I also needed to be still and listen. I feel better, but I know I got some things to really think about.

Let me sit back and relax, and calm myself down.

Until next time…

❤️

GODLY MEDITATION

Good afternoon

Well we’re now into Sunday, and I just finished listening to InTouch Ministries. Today’s sermon talked about the power of Godly Meditation. It’s a series so be sure to go to the website or app, and check out the sermon. It’s the perfect way to start the day.

While I’ve been working from home, I take time out of my day to read the Bible app, and read the verse of the day. But as Dr. Charles Stanley was preaching, it made me think, am I really taking time out of my day to meditate like I should? After looking through my notes, the answer was clear to me. Meditation is something that I need to work on.

I think for most us, meditation is something that we want to improve on, especially during these hard times. We need meditation to help us calm down from our anxieties, and keep our minds, bodies, and souls at peace. If we don’t practice meditation, those things are only going to effect us negatively in the future. I should know because of my health right now, and I’m working on it.

So, I wanted to share my notes with you guys if that’s ok, in case anyone needs help getting back into their reading, or if someone needs a boost of inspiration and motivation for the day or the week. Start with the first screenshot on the top-left and take a look:

If someone needs to read this post, just pass it along to your family and friends.

Well, that’s all for the moment, I have schoolwork to finish up, and a paper to finish writing.

Until next time…

❤️