ROAD TO 200- DAY 3

Good morning

Well I’m a little late with this post so my apologies. Long story short, yesterday was an intense 30 minutes.

I got off of work, from 3:30 until 4, I was locked in a 30 minute Walk Away the Pounds sequence. I was a little nervous at first because I was just starting back and I was only doing 10- 20 minute videos.

Finally, I got up and I said:

“Gabby, you can do this. Push yourself a little bit.”

So… I started off great. Then about the 20 minute mark, I could start to feel myself getting tired. Instead of stopping (like I used to do), I kept it up for the full 30 minutes. Sweating, and breathing hard, I did my victory dance, drank my water, and took a relaxing shower.

That’s when my body was telling me that I needed sleep. The game plan was to complete my assignments for the week, that I have time to focus on my paper (this is how I normally do things for Week 05) of class. Well, let’s just say that once I sat down in my comfy chair, I was yawning more than I was reading. So today I will complete my assignments.

The rest of the day, Dad and I watched movies, and had a small daddy-daughter moment. Unfortunately, he giggled when he caught me dozing off in the chair. That was my cue to go to bed.

This is how tired I was:

  • 9:10PM- Jared texts me to do a zoom call
  • 9:25PM- Missed duo call from Jared
  • 11:10PM- Jared texts me back again to call him

I missed them all. πŸ˜–πŸ˜–πŸ˜– So, later on, I got to call Jared to let him know I’m ok and that I’m alive, and see what’s going on with him. Sorry Jared πŸ€—.

Lesson for yesterday: Exercise can improve your sleep. I got seven hours and did not wake up until my alarm went off. So one reason I now enjoy working out: I get better sleep 😴😴😴😴

Alright y’all, I’ll check in with you all later on. We’re on Day 4, let’s keep up the good work. 😊

Until next time…

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FINALLY LETTING GO OF THE PAIN

Good morning

So woke up this morning and journaled for an hour. I wrote down about everything from my past. The bad thing, most of those things I realized that I was carrying with me as I got older.

Some of you may not know, but I was bullied growing up. From elementary school to high school, I was the main target of bullying. I had past relationships were toxic relationships filled with nothing but mental and verbal abuse.

Long story short, after writing four pages of what was bothering me and holding in these emotions, I felt better and then asked myself these questions:

  • Are these experiences and emotions the root of my physical and mental health issues?
  • Am I eating my emotions?
  • Why is it easy for me to walk around like nothing is wrong and hard for me to express these emotions when they occur?

I’m shocked that’s it’s taken me to get to my late 20’s to realize that feeling these emotions and holding them in for so long is the cause for my overall health. I guess my weight was screaming the answer to me the whole time, I just didn’t understand back then.

Now I know, I need to continue to work on practicing my coping methods and learn how to check my emotions. I don’t think to ask myself:

  • How are you?
  • What are you thinking about?
  • Are you drinking water?
  • Are you sleeping well?
  • How’s your diet?
  • Are you taking your medicine?

I don’t stop and check on myself to make sure I’m ok. So I just wanted to post this to say take time to check your emotions so they don’t spiral out of control. Learn how to express them so you’re not holding them in. If you don’t know how to do that, try journaling or talk to a professional that can help you and guide you in the right direction.

Don’t worry, I’ll be ok. I just wanted to get that off my chest and share this with you all.

I’ll check in with you guys later on. 😊

Until next time…

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YOU ARE GOD’S TEMPLE

Hey everyone πŸ‘‹πŸΎ

I’m back. Earlier this morning, I had my quiet time. But due to my migraine earlier, I rushed through it. But I was able get some takeaway from it. The verse of the day is from 1 Corinthians 3:16:

“Do you not know that you are a temple of God and that the Spirit of God dwells in you?
-1 Corinthians 3:16 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/1co.3.16.NASB

After reading that verse, it gave me time to reflect over how I view my body and the changes it went through this past year.

The summer of 2018 was when I was notified I developed Type 2 Diabetes. For that was a wake-up call so I got on it. I cut out soda and sugar completely, I cut back on eating a lot of dairy, I was working out three to four times a week, and increased it to six days a week. I lost 12 pounds last year, and I had more energy, and less stress. I was happy.

October 2019, I got sick and then January of this year, I got sick again (chronic seasonal allergies back to back). I fell off track, and then March, I adapted to a new lifestyle of working from home (still love working from home by the way).

It’s was a struggle at first from March until now, but I’m making slow steady progress. But the verse reminded me that my body is a temple, it’s God’s temple and I need to take better care of it because God loves me and cares for me.

Lesson for today: Your body is important to God, your health is important to God, YOU are important to God because you are God’s Temple, His spirit dwells in you. πŸ’–

Until next time…

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WHAT DOES BIPOLAR 2 LOOK LIKE?

Good morning

So some of you may know this, and some may not, but I suffer from Bipolar 2 Disorder. Now before I go any further on this post, you’re asking yourself this question:

What is Bipolar 2?

Well, according to WebMd, Bipolar 2 is a disorder that has more depressive episodes than manic episodes.

β€œHowever, in bipolar II disorder, the “up” moods never reach full-blown mania. The less-intense elevated moods in bipolar II disorder are called hypomanic episodes, or hypomania. A person affected by bipolar II disorder has had at least one hypomanic episode in his or her life. Most people with bipolar II disorder suffer more often from episodes of depression. This is where the term “manic depression” comes from” (2020)

Now that I’ve given the verbal definition, let me give you a visual. Let’s take today as an example. I had a migraine yesterday due to my “monthly gift 🎁” arriving, so I took medicine. But from that evening until now, my migraine lingered.

It’s subsided now, but during that time, I was moving slower because I didn’t feel good. It was like I woke up like a zombie. And to be honest, these are the times when my depressive episodes kick off, because I get migraines, I sometimes get cramps, I’m tired for the entire weekend, and not because I didn’t get enough sleep.

If you ever seen “Inside Out”, I’m the little blue woman, minus the tears, for like 4-5 days during my cycle. I’m sighing, and I zone out… a lot!

Thank goodness I keep a journal and a blog because the thoughts that go on in my mind on days like this will shock you. It would probably be easier if I can draw it…

Future art project in the making???

We shall see. ✨

Just wanted to share this little tidbit with you so you all can get to know me better.

Until next time…

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Reference:

Bipolar II Disorder (2020, Apr 14). WebMd. Retrieved from https://www.webmd.com/bipolar-disorder/guide/bipolar-2-disorder#1

BACK IN THE GROOVE- UPDATE

Good morning

So earlier this month, my new starting weight was… 286!

Well…

As of today, thanks to cutting out sodas, changing up eating habits, more sleep and exercise, I’m down eight pounds. I’m back where I was last year of 278. πŸ₯³πŸ˜ŠπŸ₯³πŸ˜ŠπŸ₯³πŸ˜ŠπŸ₯³

KEEP IT UP!!!

Mom said she’ll come over and we’ll walk around the complex, and Dad said we’re going to start jumping rope. I was a little thrown off at first because I would expect this coming from Mom, but he’s been supportive of me getting healthy again and also getting back into his routine even though the gyms are still closed due to COVID.

For Mom and I, it’s been the same struggle. One of the local community centers is still closed until further notice since the pandemic started. The other one, has opened up the water park and skatepark, but not the main building where the gym and workout equipment is.

So, it’s been a struggle for everyone, but we’re making it work. I’m going to continue to keep you all updated on my journey. I still have a long way to go, but I’m going to keep it up to stay healthy.

Until next time…

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THANK YOU SO MUCH

Good morning

In the midst of all the sadness from yesterday and reading the Word (that is important), I forgot to say thank you to you all for the 102 followers!!!!!

This is motivation and inspiration for me to continue to write and create more posts and stories for β€œThe Gabby Diaries.” I shared my blog with my classmates in the course I’m taking now, and thanks to their words of encouragement, just like you guys, it’s the boost I need to keep doing my best to blog and engage with everyone. So again, a HUGE thank you 😊😊😊😊😊!!!!

Ok, it’s time for me to be productive and brainstorm some more ideas and work on my projects.

Until next time…

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MONTHLY REFLECTIONS: JUN. 2020

Good evening πŸŒ™

I hope everyone is ready for a good night’s sleep. After today, I know I will. Just wanted to share my insights on the month of June.

We are six months into the year of 2020, and we’re still remaining positive during these uncertain times. At the beginning of the month, I was off to a rocky start of getting back into my workout routine. From an earlier post, I recall calling UberEats my friend and my enemy. Well, my last order was on the weekend of Father’s Day. For the past few months, sushi and potstickers have been my guilty pleasure for a night or weekend of self-care. Two bites, and Dad was hooked just like me.

I told him that I would order some for him as the other part of his Father’s Day gift (Part 1 was the connecter for headphones for his iPhone). So, that Saturday afternoon, when he woke up from his nap, I surprised him with his own platter of a California Roll and Potstickers as we sat up and watched the film “2012.” I think we’re the only Father/Daughter duo that watches movies like Twister, Collateral, and all kinds of documentaries on Netflix.

Note to Self: Watch Athlete A this weekend, it looks like a GOOD one

Anyway, June was a month of learning. Every week, I’ll find myself rewatching tutorials on filming on a budget by Shameless Maya and how to edit using iMovie and Premier Pro- I think I’m saying that one right. I don’t know I keep watching these videos. Maybe my mind is telling to try YouTube???

Speaking of learning, Mid-June was a moment of learning more about myself through journaling again. I started my 30 Day journaling challenge on the 17th, and it’s now the 29th, 13 days so far, YAY!!!!!

But the past few weeks have taught me so much more about myself. More cons than pros, things that I need to work on and improve. So the month of July will be the month of GOOD HABITS. June was a month of LEARNING & LETTING GO. I’m so excited, I can’t wait!

Ok, it is now a little past 10:30, time for me to take my meds, climb into bed, and get some sleep.

Until next time…

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P.S.- Currently listening to “Count Me In” by Switch, a great song to end a productive day 😊

MENTAL HEALTH & QUIET TIMES

Good morning

For the past few nights, I’ve been getting back into my reading. The first night was amazing because it was like God was guiding my hand where to start reading in the Bible. This was Monday night.

Tuesday night was a little bit of a struggle because I was easily distracted. But even last night, He showed me what I needed to read. I wanted to post this on Monday, but fell asleep, and then when I went to post it yesterday, I didn’t know what to say. But here I am. Here are the scriptures I read if you all want to do some reading on your own:

05|25|20:

  • 2 Chron. 34: 29-31
  • Matt. 14: 21-23
  • Psalm 119: 97-105
  • 1 Peter 5: 7-8
  • James 5: 16

05|26|20:

  • Phil. 2: 13
  • Prov. 13: 3
  • Prov. 15: 28
  • Prov. 25: 18
  • 1 Cor. 13: 4
  • Psalm 101: 3
  • 2 Tim. 3: 12-15
  • Deut. 2: 7
  • Luke 11: 1
  • Psalm 143
  • Deut. 30: 15-20
  • Matt. 25: 14-30
  • Luke 12: 48
  • Prov. 23: 18
  • Phil. 4: 6-7

Another thing I started doing is intermittent fasting. I started at 8PM on Monday night and finished at 12PM the next day on Tuesday. I drank tea and water for most of the day, but it felt good that I wasn’t in a rush to make a meal or eat. I took my time eating and I was satisfied. So, I did it again last night, starting at 8PM, and just counting down until noon today.

Since I’ve been working from home, I imagine myself, spending my mornings in my War Room (still need to get on that), drinking my fresh cup of coffee or tea, and just spending my entire morning, having quiet time with God, until I’m ready to start working. The more I imagine it, the more I feel it will become a reality.

I’m still practicing my other passions too like writing and sketching. If I keep this up, I’ll be closer to becoming a freelancer in no time.

Well, time to get the day going. Happy Wednesday or β€œWindsday” in my Winnie the Pooh voice πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

Talk later….

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WEEK 03: STICKING TO A ROUTINE

Good evening πŸŒ™

So here is my update for the week:

  • Monday through Thursday: worked, created a series of #self-care playlists, sketched, went walking with Mom, and continued with schoolwork
  • Friday- worked for part of the day, rested due to a migraine, spent time watching a documentary with Dad, and slept most of the day
  • Today- spent time with Mom running a few errands, came home and worked on my outline for class this week, and ended the evening doing a little more sketching, and watching Dr. Pol

My self-care routine will take place tomorrow since my goal for tonight is to get enough sleep. So my to-do list for tomorrow:

  • Enjoy my quiet time before starting anything
  • Take a shower and wash my hair
  • Give myself a Mani/Pedi
  • Work on my paper until its finished, spell-checked, and submitted
  • Enjoy the remainder of my Sunday

Well, that’s my weekly update. I’ll continue to keep you guys posted on my many adventures, rambles, and more. Stay safe and healthy, and have a blessed night!

Until next time…

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#SELF-CARE 101: HAIR DYE STAINS & ADULTING IS 50/50

Good evening πŸŒ™

So woke up thus morning around 8, relieved to learn that I took vacation from work. Today was going to be a day of slow and steady relaxation, productivity of spring cleaning, and just sitting back thinking about…. Things. Woke and got into the groove of binge watching Criminal Minds on Netflix. After taking care of errands, I deep cleaned my living room, disinfecting everything, wipe down surfaces, and putting things away.

Then, it was time to take care of me. I decided to try out Overtone, an all natural hair coloring system. I got the color Ginger, and started the process. I wore my gloves, took out a glob, and went to town on my hair, saturating it with the beautiful reddish-brown hue. In the midst of equally distributing the color, my glove broke on my left middle finger, causing the color to stain it. Then, I played the waiting game of letting the color sit for 15-20 minutes. Once I let it sit, it was time to rinse. Cue the OH SHIT!!!!!

As I’m standing in the shower, slowly rinsing the color out of my hair, I look to see my hands turn orange, and almost 1/2 of my bathtub turns a light yellow 😨😨😨. I go through my hair, seeing the issue, that maybe I put a tad too much color in my hair. Taking my time and enjoying the rest of my shower, I got out and dried my hair, only to see it turn to a deep burgundy. That’s a start…

Then I continued binge watching Criminal Minds until Dad came home. We hung out for a little while, had a little heart to heart, until it was time for him to go to work.

So here is what I learned from today…

  • Dying your hair will ALWAYS require gloves- the good ones
  • Wash/Rinse color out in KITCHEN sink to prevent stains
  • Ask Mom to assist in hair coloring process
  • It’s ok, you’re learning and trying new things
  • I DID IT BY MYSELF FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!

Well I hope everyone is still staying safe and healthy through these times. Hopefully you got a few laughs from this one. Time to call it a night.

Until next time…

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WEEK 02: PROCRASTINATION

Good evening all πŸŒ™

I’m back with another weekly update for the month. Good news, school is still going strong. Bad news, procrastination kicked my ass…AGAIN!!!!

  • Sunday- Finished my Week 03 paper, prepared for Week 04 of school, and prepared outfits for this week and the following week.
  • Monday- Came into work, with my new humidifier, and finished up one of the tasks I wrote down on my check-list. Later that night, went to rehearsal with Mom and came home and crashed.
  • Tuesday- Almost panicked because one of our assignments for class was to do an interview with someone from another country. Problem? I didn’t know anyone personally that moved from one country to the USA. So, instead tried to work on the second discussion post instead for the week.
  • Wednesday- Emailed my instructor about the assignment and found a work-around, and then emailed my Auntie later that evening for her help. And procrastinated for the rest of the evening after eating dinner with Mom and Dad. (Procrastination Day 1)
  • Thursday- Ordered Imo’s pizza for Dad, which led to a Pizza party at my apartment with my parents yet again. And in the midst of this, watched the Aaron Hernadez documentary on Netflix while trying to work on my second discussion post for the week. Long story short, watch really good shows and docu-series over the weekends, off days, vacation days, and sick days. (Procrastination Day 2)
  • Yesterday- Went to work, finished one project, and went to Bread Co. with Mom to celebrate the homegoing of one of her classmates. I wanted to be there for her and I was glad to see she had a good time talking with other classmates from her school. Then, ended the night watching Flint Town on Netflix, and stayed up late nursing a migraine, watching the series, and then watching Mighty Ducks on DisneyPlus. (Procrastination Day 4)
  • Today- Continued watching Mighty Duck, and rewatched the Aaron Hernandez story, and stayed watching Netflix for the entire evening, and now currently watching Philly the Kid as we speak (Procrastination Day 5) and enjoyed binging on Imo’s again with Dad.

Long story short, procrastination has been my struggle. Struggle with health, school, even work at times. Some how, it just sneaks up on me and dominates me. During my doctor’s visit, I mentioned that growing up, procrastination has been my best friend. The problem, I try not to let it be, but obviously, I need to discipline myself more. It’s crazy how I went from extremely beast mode last year to just being stuck. I need help getting out of this funk.

But that’s the thing about a new week, it’s like a fresh start to trying to form new habits and breaking old ones. I’m trying, it’s hard but I’m trying. Don’t worry, I’m hanging in there.

Until next time…