FINALLY LETTING GO OF THE PAIN

Good morning

So woke up this morning and journaled for an hour. I wrote down about everything from my past. The bad thing, most of those things I realized that I was carrying with me as I got older.

Some of you may not know, but I was bullied growing up. From elementary school to high school, I was the main target of bullying. I had past relationships were toxic relationships filled with nothing but mental and verbal abuse.

Long story short, after writing four pages of what was bothering me and holding in these emotions, I felt better and then asked myself these questions:

  • Are these experiences and emotions the root of my physical and mental health issues?
  • Am I eating my emotions?
  • Why is it easy for me to walk around like nothing is wrong and hard for me to express these emotions when they occur?

I’m shocked that’s it’s taken me to get to my late 20’s to realize that feeling these emotions and holding them in for so long is the cause for my overall health. I guess my weight was screaming the answer to me the whole time, I just didn’t understand back then.

Now I know, I need to continue to work on practicing my coping methods and learn how to check my emotions. I don’t think to ask myself:

  • How are you?
  • What are you thinking about?
  • Are you drinking water?
  • Are you sleeping well?
  • How’s your diet?
  • Are you taking your medicine?

I don’t stop and check on myself to make sure I’m ok. So I just wanted to post this to say take time to check your emotions so they don’t spiral out of control. Learn how to express them so you’re not holding them in. If you don’t know how to do that, try journaling or talk to a professional that can help you and guide you in the right direction.

Don’t worry, I’ll be ok. I just wanted to get that off my chest and share this with you all.

I’ll check in with you guys later on. 😊

Until next time…

❤️

MONTHLY REFLECTIONS: AUG. 2020

Good evening

Hope everyone is enjoying this Sunday. Just wanted to share today’s Verse of the Day as well as what my goals are for the new month.

So what will August have in store for me?

PHYSICAL HEALTH 💪🏾- Dad and I are starting our week off right, and taking time during the week to workout together. Mom said she’ll still come over so we can all workout together. Still researching to see what’s the ideal weight for me after I reach 200 pounds. Project Road to 200 starts now.

MENTAL HEALTH 🧘🏾‍♀️- I’m improving on taking time to listen to my body. But August, I want to work on checking my emotions. Through journaling and writing, I think I’ll be able to have a better understanding of why certain triggers occur or why do I find myself stuck in a never-ending cycle. It’s time for me to really start the healing process.

BLOGGING 💻- I’m proud of myself for sticking with my blogging. Currently planning and creating content, all while taking in special notes from my current class. I’m acing this class at the end of this week. “The Gabby Diaries” is still going strong, let’s keep it up!

FINANCIAL 💰- NO SPENDING CHALLENGE has started. Only buy what I need, not what I want. Ultimate goal is to create an emergency fund for a rainy day, or a tropical storm. Plus, it’s better to learn how to live on less and save more right?

CREATIVE PROJECTS 🎨- Blogging was the start of it, but 2020 is still a year of learning and improving on my crafts. I love art and I love learning new things. So August, I’ve got some projects I want to share with you. More to come on “The Gabby Diaries.”

Well, that’s what August looks like for me. So let me take some time to take care of myself and prepare for all the wonderful things I have in store.

Until next time …

❤️

JOURNALING

Good morning

Just wanted to share with you all my progress of journaling. Back in June, I told myself that I would start back healthy habits that I used to do in the past.

I decided to journal for 30 days. As you can see, we are on the last day of July. So I think I hit past the 30 day mark.

This yellow leuchttrum 1917 has been my best friend since June 17th. Inside, the pages are filled with orange or red colored ink (I lost some good pens during this journey). Also, she enjoys Lisa Frank stickers and Yogi tea quotes.

It made me smile when I first started writing and decorating it because it brought back memories of when I was little, picking up a plain notebook, and creating a collage cover for the front.

Now that I’m older, I enjoy treating myself to more nicer journals like this one. I think journals will be the only thing I’ll continue to invest in for myself since I enjoy writing so much.

I think I’ll pick up practicing Bullet Journaling again. Last year, I kept a journal filled with designs for layouts and trackers. Now, I want to create one for the year of 2021.

I guess that’s the good thing about “the monthly gift 🎁.” I may get tired, but I notice that’s when I have the most creativity. Crazy right?

Let me know in the comments if any of you keep a journal, and what you guys like to write in your journal.

Happy Journaling (or BuJo-ing)

Until next time…

❤️

YOU ARE GOD’S TEMPLE

Hey everyone 👋🏾

I’m back. Earlier this morning, I had my quiet time. But due to my migraine earlier, I rushed through it. But I was able get some takeaway from it. The verse of the day is from 1 Corinthians 3:16:

“Do you not know that you are a temple of God and that the Spirit of God dwells in you?
-1 Corinthians 3:16 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/1co.3.16.NASB

After reading that verse, it gave me time to reflect over how I view my body and the changes it went through this past year.

The summer of 2018 was when I was notified I developed Type 2 Diabetes. For that was a wake-up call so I got on it. I cut out soda and sugar completely, I cut back on eating a lot of dairy, I was working out three to four times a week, and increased it to six days a week. I lost 12 pounds last year, and I had more energy, and less stress. I was happy.

October 2019, I got sick and then January of this year, I got sick again (chronic seasonal allergies back to back). I fell off track, and then March, I adapted to a new lifestyle of working from home (still love working from home by the way).

It’s was a struggle at first from March until now, but I’m making slow steady progress. But the verse reminded me that my body is a temple, it’s God’s temple and I need to take better care of it because God loves me and cares for me.

Lesson for today: Your body is important to God, your health is important to God, YOU are important to God because you are God’s Temple, His spirit dwells in you. 💖

Until next time…

❤️

GAURDING YOUR HEART

Good morning

So today, I just wanted to share what I learned in my moment of Quiet Time. The topic talked about “Gaurding Your Heart” and the verse of the day was Proverbs 4: 23:

“Watch over your heart with all diligence, For from it flow the springs of life. -Proverbs 4:23 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/pro.4.23.NASB

The pastor directing the sermon for the morning, asking the question “What are we consuming?” Thinking about it, most times, I’m consuming things that make me feel good and that’s ok. But, I’m learning that I need to consume more of God. I watch a lot of YouTube and social media and Netflix, but I don’t consume enough of God’s Word, time with Him, and time in prayer.

Starting today, I made a reminder for myself to consume in the Word, and in good things. 2020 is still a year of learning for me. And I’m learning so much about myself everyday. I’m not perfect, I have flaws, and that’s what makes me special. 🥰

Ok, it’s time for me to go. I’ll leave with you this scripture as well as Phil. 4:8 and Matt. 6:33 for you to indulge in:

“Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.”
‭‭-Philippians‬ ‭4:8‬ ‭NASB‬‬
https://www.bible.com/100/php.4.8.nasb

“But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.”
‭‭-Matthew‬ ‭6:33‬ ‭NASB‬‬
https://www.bible.com/100/mat.6.33.nasb

Until next time…

❤️

MENTAL HEALTH & TAKING BREAKS

Good evening!

I hope everyone had a great Fourth of July weekend. I know I did, I took today and yesterday off from work. With that being said, I thought this would be a great post.

So, Gabby, why did you decide to extend your three day weekend to a five day weekend?

To be honest… I needed a break!

It all started last Monday, I woke up later due to a rough night of sleeping with an intense migraine that did not subside until 3AM. Yes, I suffer from chronic migraines, but they only get severe when it’s “My Monthly Gift” (I know, T.M.I- my apologies). This was one of those moments.

So, after suffering from a migraine, trying to balance a HUGE workload, and wrapping up my final week of my previous class, I started feeling overwhelmed, to the point that I walked away from my workstation for five minutes, rubbed my eyes and my face, screamed in a pillow, and started back working again- yes, IT WAS INTENSE!

On Tuesday, I requested the time off. At first, I was questioning my decision: Should I do this? Do I deserve it? It took an hour phone conversation with my friend Jasmine to help me realize that I needed to do it:

“Gabby, you’re one of the most creative people I know. You’re working a job, and taking classes to pursue something bigger and better. You’ve reached a point where you’ve done nothing but work, work, work, that you forgot to take time for yourself. It’s ok, you deserve this time off. Enjoy it!”

And that’s what I did.

Friday started off with journaling, reading, and spending the rest of the day with Mom as we enjoyed “Hamilton” on DisneyPlus (IT WAS AWESOME!!!). Not to mention, I received the IDEAL INSPIRATION BLOGGER AWARD, which was not only a highlight to my day but the inspiration I needed to keep blogging. Saturday and Sunday were spent cleaning and decluttering parts of my life, while Monday and today were spent trying to recharge and rest after a weekend of “My Gift”- migraine is slowly starting to subside now.

Long story short, this taught me that it’s ok to take breaks, whether it’s an extra two days to a three day weekend, or a week to just get away from it all. It’s a reminder for me that I still need to slow down sometimes. I should write a mantra or manifesto for myself involving BALANCE and SLOWING DOWN.

Question for the evening: Have you had days or weeks that overwhelmed you to the point that you needed to take a break? If so, what did you do?

Ok, sorry for rambling. Just thought I put this out there and share this with you all. I’m going to try and read or listen to an audiobook to help ease my migraine…. or just sleep 😴

Until next time…

❤️

MONTHLY REFLECTION: MAY 2020

Good afternoon

So we have come to the last day in May. Another month of working from home and other things. Here are my words for May:

✨REST

✨BALANCE

✨PASSIONS

✨DISCIPLINE

✨DETERMINATION

✨POSITIVITY

I’ve been persistent with my meditation. This morning, the scriptures taught me some things about myself and the times we are living in. Then, I tuned into InTouch Ministries where today’s message talked about meditation on courage. Here are my notes from this morning:

Finished my final paper for Week 05, and posted my introduction for my fifth class. I’m still on a roll with school, I have a feeling that I’ll continue to pass each class with an A or A- until graduation. I can’t wait and my date could change at the rate that I’m going.

One thing that I’ve indulged for the entire month is California roll and potstickers. Drunken Fish has been my friend at least five times this week alone. But I can’t help it, I love sushi, and it’s so delicious. But I need to start back on my health journey.

Time to get down, no pain, no gain.

Well, time for me to change some things around in the apartment. Hope everyone enjoys the rest of this beautiful Sunday.

Until next time…

❤️

MENTAL HEALTH & QUIET TIMES

Good morning

For the past few nights, I’ve been getting back into my reading. The first night was amazing because it was like God was guiding my hand where to start reading in the Bible. This was Monday night.

Tuesday night was a little bit of a struggle because I was easily distracted. But even last night, He showed me what I needed to read. I wanted to post this on Monday, but fell asleep, and then when I went to post it yesterday, I didn’t know what to say. But here I am. Here are the scriptures I read if you all want to do some reading on your own:

05|25|20:

  • 2 Chron. 34: 29-31
  • Matt. 14: 21-23
  • Psalm 119: 97-105
  • 1 Peter 5: 7-8
  • James 5: 16

05|26|20:

  • Phil. 2: 13
  • Prov. 13: 3
  • Prov. 15: 28
  • Prov. 25: 18
  • 1 Cor. 13: 4
  • Psalm 101: 3
  • 2 Tim. 3: 12-15
  • Deut. 2: 7
  • Luke 11: 1
  • Psalm 143
  • Deut. 30: 15-20
  • Matt. 25: 14-30
  • Luke 12: 48
  • Prov. 23: 18
  • Phil. 4: 6-7

Another thing I started doing is intermittent fasting. I started at 8PM on Monday night and finished at 12PM the next day on Tuesday. I drank tea and water for most of the day, but it felt good that I wasn’t in a rush to make a meal or eat. I took my time eating and I was satisfied. So, I did it again last night, starting at 8PM, and just counting down until noon today.

Since I’ve been working from home, I imagine myself, spending my mornings in my War Room (still need to get on that), drinking my fresh cup of coffee or tea, and just spending my entire morning, having quiet time with God, until I’m ready to start working. The more I imagine it, the more I feel it will become a reality.

I’m still practicing my other passions too like writing and sketching. If I keep this up, I’ll be closer to becoming a freelancer in no time.

Well, time to get the day going. Happy Wednesday or “Windsday” in my Winnie the Pooh voice 😂😂😂

Talk later….

💖

HOUSE HUNTING FOR MOM

Good evening

So started the day off with some quiet time and reading. Then made myself another yummy B.E.L.T for breakfast, and then started working on my paper for this week. After that, I went over Mom’s house as we started on the adventure to find her a new house.

The first house we looked at, it was Mom’s dream home. As we walked inside, right away there were parts of the house that needed work. Luckily, my brother Reggie came with us to give us the details of how much work the house needed.

Long story short, Mom’s dream home was not meant to be. So we looked at more homes.

After spending most of the day with Mom, she is still hopeful that she’ll find a house for her to call home. I came home to work on schoolwork and my paper for this week. I’m glad I’m off Monday so I can relax.

Just finished eating my California Roll from Drunken Fish. Its one of my favorite treats to eat on a Friday or over a Holiday Weekend. I brewed myself a fresh cup of TAZO Passion tea. About to ensure the evening with some Dr. Pol, then call it a night soon.

Hope everyone has a great holiday weekend.

Until next time…

AN EVENING OF SELF-CARE

Good evening

So, I’ve been taking it easy for the past couple of days. I’m still keeping up with school, as well as improving on my passions. Today was just one of those days where even though I tell myself that things are going to get done, I end up taking things slow.

After work was over, I walked over to Mom’s apartment to enjoy dinner with her, followed by browsing on Zillow for houses. She has her boxes ready for packing so the process will be starting soon. She’s so excited, and I can’t wait for touring some of the homes with her tomorrow. After driving around to the different locations, we grabbed ice cream from Doozles and came back to my apartment to hang out, watching YouTube, playing Candy Crush Jelly, and informing my aunt in California the news.

I ended my day with a little self-care by cooking myself a B.E.L.T (Bacon, Egg, Lettuce, and Tomato), curled up on the couch with my snack and iced water, and just finished watching Ratatouille on Disney+. Its quiet since Dad is at work right now, but tomorrow, I’ll find him right here on the couch in the morning.

Well, time for sleep. Tomorrow will be a busy day and I need all the rest I can get.

Until next time…

MENTAL HEALTH & FRIDAYS

Hey guys and gals!

Happy Friday and all that comes with it. And I know we’re all excited for the 3 day weekend coming up. If any of you are off to a head start, congrats to you. 👏🏾🥳✨💖

So, started my morning off right and made me my favorite breakfast: Oatmeal patties with Avacado spread, and an egg sunny-side up. Instead of a nice cup of coffee, I brewed a nice cup of TAZO passion tea ( if you haven’t tried this flavor, I recommend it- so yummy). Then, I turned on the Bible app, and listened to today’s message.

All this week, I have a routine of applying anything positive to start my day off right. Even if things don’t go well at first, I’m still in an upbeat mood to do the things I love later on as well as my schoolwork after the work day is done. The other thing I’m going to do a little later is take me a quick nap so I can feel refreshed for tonight and for the weekend.

Alright, let me get back to my day. Talk to you guys later…

💖

MENTAL HEALTH & WORKING FROM HOME

Good morning

So lately, there has been so much going on since the last time I blogged. I’m now into my second month of working from home, I’m improving on sticking with a schedule and slowly trying to create a routine for myself. I’m getting better sleep, and I’m not stressed about work as much as I used to be. The only thing that is worrying me is the current situation of cities trying reopen. In the past couple of weeks, I’ve noticed more and more people not wearing their masks or practicing social distancing. I read stories of people that have contacted COVID-19, and their experience with the illness. And now, we have some people that also sick with the virus and it’s hitting close to home because it’s some of our members in the church.

All the while, I’ve been trying to get my physical health in order, while my mental state has been the same. I try not to worry or stress about the what-ifs in life, but now, poured all my time and energy into my online classes (currently in Week 04 of my fourth course as we speak). Also, I’ve continued to practice my art by sketching almost everyday or at least fill up one page during the week, as well as listened to positive podcasts and watched uplifting YouTube videos on how to be more productive, how to overcome failure, different things that put me in a positive mood or helps me feel creative to work on my passion projects. Earlier this month, I focused so much on my paper for class, that I forgot to post anything for the first couple weeks of May.

I’ve started listening to this podcast called SOUL ARTISTRY. It’s hosted by two artists: Alejandra and MOJO. If you can, look up the podcast and listen for yourself, they are awesome to listen to during these hard times. Also, I listened to InTouch Ministries, and they talked about creating a Believer’s War Room. During this time, my faith has been tested and there were multiple occasions where I was thinking negative, and not falling through on my plans, my projects, and my goals for the year. Now, I’m learning to stay positive by starting my day off by talking to God, or just listening to Him. My mental health is improving and staying strong and positive during this time. My friends are even motivating me and checking up on me while I’m working from home and are cheering me to get closer to my goals and dreams.

After all these things took place over a period of a couple of days, I’m learning that I need to keep the faith and know that everything is going to be alright and that I will make it to my dreams and goals on time. I’m going to get to where I want to be in life.

Until next time…

❤️