WOMAN VS FOOD

Good morning

I know yesterday was supposed to be Day 5 of “Road to 200.” Well… here’s what happened.

After I got off of work, I developed a migraine so I took some medicine for it and took a nap. When I woke up, I was ok. Mom called and asked if I wanted to tag along with her to my brother’s house. To get out the apartment, I said yes.

We stopped at this BBQ joint because she hadn’t eaten anything. Here is what we ordered: 2 Shrimp Taco Meals (3 tacos for me and my brother each) and a BBQ dinner combo for Mom. Long story short, we watched HGTV and ate our food until it was time to go.

Late last night, I ate my last taco as a snack. Hours later, I went to bed. Between 1AM to 7AM, I’ve been stuck in the restroom. I think you know where I’m going with this. 🥴🥵🤢😷.

Today would be a redo of Day 5. But due to tummy trouble, today will be a rest day. Don’t worry, I’m still keeping a positive disposition. 😊😊😊 But today, it’s soup, tea, water, and my comfy blanket.

I’ll keep you all posted. Today’s lesson: it’s ok if you have a sick day or two, as long as you get back at it. So tomorrow will be Day 5, and the journey will continue.

Stay safe and stay healthy ✨

Until next time…

❤️

FINALLY LETTING GO OF THE PAIN

Good morning

So woke up this morning and journaled for an hour. I wrote down about everything from my past. The bad thing, most of those things I realized that I was carrying with me as I got older.

Some of you may not know, but I was bullied growing up. From elementary school to high school, I was the main target of bullying. I had past relationships were toxic relationships filled with nothing but mental and verbal abuse.

Long story short, after writing four pages of what was bothering me and holding in these emotions, I felt better and then asked myself these questions:

  • Are these experiences and emotions the root of my physical and mental health issues?
  • Am I eating my emotions?
  • Why is it easy for me to walk around like nothing is wrong and hard for me to express these emotions when they occur?

I’m shocked that’s it’s taken me to get to my late 20’s to realize that feeling these emotions and holding them in for so long is the cause for my overall health. I guess my weight was screaming the answer to me the whole time, I just didn’t understand back then.

Now I know, I need to continue to work on practicing my coping methods and learn how to check my emotions. I don’t think to ask myself:

  • How are you?
  • What are you thinking about?
  • Are you drinking water?
  • Are you sleeping well?
  • How’s your diet?
  • Are you taking your medicine?

I don’t stop and check on myself to make sure I’m ok. So I just wanted to post this to say take time to check your emotions so they don’t spiral out of control. Learn how to express them so you’re not holding them in. If you don’t know how to do that, try journaling or talk to a professional that can help you and guide you in the right direction.

Don’t worry, I’ll be ok. I just wanted to get that off my chest and share this with you all.

I’ll check in with you guys later on. 😊

Until next time…

❤️

MONTHLY REFLECTIONS: AUG. 2020

Good evening

Hope everyone is enjoying this Sunday. Just wanted to share today’s Verse of the Day as well as what my goals are for the new month.

So what will August have in store for me?

PHYSICAL HEALTH 💪🏾- Dad and I are starting our week off right, and taking time during the week to workout together. Mom said she’ll still come over so we can all workout together. Still researching to see what’s the ideal weight for me after I reach 200 pounds. Project Road to 200 starts now.

MENTAL HEALTH 🧘🏾‍♀️- I’m improving on taking time to listen to my body. But August, I want to work on checking my emotions. Through journaling and writing, I think I’ll be able to have a better understanding of why certain triggers occur or why do I find myself stuck in a never-ending cycle. It’s time for me to really start the healing process.

BLOGGING 💻- I’m proud of myself for sticking with my blogging. Currently planning and creating content, all while taking in special notes from my current class. I’m acing this class at the end of this week. “The Gabby Diaries” is still going strong, let’s keep it up!

FINANCIAL 💰- NO SPENDING CHALLENGE has started. Only buy what I need, not what I want. Ultimate goal is to create an emergency fund for a rainy day, or a tropical storm. Plus, it’s better to learn how to live on less and save more right?

CREATIVE PROJECTS 🎨- Blogging was the start of it, but 2020 is still a year of learning and improving on my crafts. I love art and I love learning new things. So August, I’ve got some projects I want to share with you. More to come on “The Gabby Diaries.”

Well, that’s what August looks like for me. So let me take some time to take care of myself and prepare for all the wonderful things I have in store.

Until next time …

❤️

JOURNALING

Good morning

Just wanted to share with you all my progress of journaling. Back in June, I told myself that I would start back healthy habits that I used to do in the past.

I decided to journal for 30 days. As you can see, we are on the last day of July. So I think I hit past the 30 day mark.

This yellow leuchttrum 1917 has been my best friend since June 17th. Inside, the pages are filled with orange or red colored ink (I lost some good pens during this journey). Also, she enjoys Lisa Frank stickers and Yogi tea quotes.

It made me smile when I first started writing and decorating it because it brought back memories of when I was little, picking up a plain notebook, and creating a collage cover for the front.

Now that I’m older, I enjoy treating myself to more nicer journals like this one. I think journals will be the only thing I’ll continue to invest in for myself since I enjoy writing so much.

I think I’ll pick up practicing Bullet Journaling again. Last year, I kept a journal filled with designs for layouts and trackers. Now, I want to create one for the year of 2021.

I guess that’s the good thing about “the monthly gift 🎁.” I may get tired, but I notice that’s when I have the most creativity. Crazy right?

Let me know in the comments if any of you keep a journal, and what you guys like to write in your journal.

Happy Journaling (or BuJo-ing)

Until next time…

❤️

MONTHLY REFLECTION: MAY 2020

Good afternoon

So we have come to the last day in May. Another month of working from home and other things. Here are my words for May:

✨REST

✨BALANCE

✨PASSIONS

✨DISCIPLINE

✨DETERMINATION

✨POSITIVITY

I’ve been persistent with my meditation. This morning, the scriptures taught me some things about myself and the times we are living in. Then, I tuned into InTouch Ministries where today’s message talked about meditation on courage. Here are my notes from this morning:

Finished my final paper for Week 05, and posted my introduction for my fifth class. I’m still on a roll with school, I have a feeling that I’ll continue to pass each class with an A or A- until graduation. I can’t wait and my date could change at the rate that I’m going.

One thing that I’ve indulged for the entire month is California roll and potstickers. Drunken Fish has been my friend at least five times this week alone. But I can’t help it, I love sushi, and it’s so delicious. But I need to start back on my health journey.

Time to get down, no pain, no gain.

Well, time for me to change some things around in the apartment. Hope everyone enjoys the rest of this beautiful Sunday.

Until next time…

❤️

HOUSE HUNTING FOR MOM

Good evening

So started the day off with some quiet time and reading. Then made myself another yummy B.E.L.T for breakfast, and then started working on my paper for this week. After that, I went over Mom’s house as we started on the adventure to find her a new house.

The first house we looked at, it was Mom’s dream home. As we walked inside, right away there were parts of the house that needed work. Luckily, my brother Reggie came with us to give us the details of how much work the house needed.

Long story short, Mom’s dream home was not meant to be. So we looked at more homes.

After spending most of the day with Mom, she is still hopeful that she’ll find a house for her to call home. I came home to work on schoolwork and my paper for this week. I’m glad I’m off Monday so I can relax.

Just finished eating my California Roll from Drunken Fish. Its one of my favorite treats to eat on a Friday or over a Holiday Weekend. I brewed myself a fresh cup of TAZO Passion tea. About to ensure the evening with some Dr. Pol, then call it a night soon.

Hope everyone has a great holiday weekend.

Until next time…

AN EVENING OF SELF-CARE

Good evening

So, I’ve been taking it easy for the past couple of days. I’m still keeping up with school, as well as improving on my passions. Today was just one of those days where even though I tell myself that things are going to get done, I end up taking things slow.

After work was over, I walked over to Mom’s apartment to enjoy dinner with her, followed by browsing on Zillow for houses. She has her boxes ready for packing so the process will be starting soon. She’s so excited, and I can’t wait for touring some of the homes with her tomorrow. After driving around to the different locations, we grabbed ice cream from Doozles and came back to my apartment to hang out, watching YouTube, playing Candy Crush Jelly, and informing my aunt in California the news.

I ended my day with a little self-care by cooking myself a B.E.L.T (Bacon, Egg, Lettuce, and Tomato), curled up on the couch with my snack and iced water, and just finished watching Ratatouille on Disney+. Its quiet since Dad is at work right now, but tomorrow, I’ll find him right here on the couch in the morning.

Well, time for sleep. Tomorrow will be a busy day and I need all the rest I can get.

Until next time…

MENTAL HEALTH & FRIDAYS

Hey guys and gals!

Happy Friday and all that comes with it. And I know we’re all excited for the 3 day weekend coming up. If any of you are off to a head start, congrats to you. 👏🏾🥳✨💖

So, started my morning off right and made me my favorite breakfast: Oatmeal patties with Avacado spread, and an egg sunny-side up. Instead of a nice cup of coffee, I brewed a nice cup of TAZO passion tea ( if you haven’t tried this flavor, I recommend it- so yummy). Then, I turned on the Bible app, and listened to today’s message.

All this week, I have a routine of applying anything positive to start my day off right. Even if things don’t go well at first, I’m still in an upbeat mood to do the things I love later on as well as my schoolwork after the work day is done. The other thing I’m going to do a little later is take me a quick nap so I can feel refreshed for tonight and for the weekend.

Alright, let me get back to my day. Talk to you guys later…

💖

WEEK 03: STICKING TO A ROUTINE

Good evening 🌙

So here is my update for the week:

  • Monday through Thursday: worked, created a series of #self-care playlists, sketched, went walking with Mom, and continued with schoolwork
  • Friday- worked for part of the day, rested due to a migraine, spent time watching a documentary with Dad, and slept most of the day
  • Today- spent time with Mom running a few errands, came home and worked on my outline for class this week, and ended the evening doing a little more sketching, and watching Dr. Pol

My self-care routine will take place tomorrow since my goal for tonight is to get enough sleep. So my to-do list for tomorrow:

  • Enjoy my quiet time before starting anything
  • Take a shower and wash my hair
  • Give myself a Mani/Pedi
  • Work on my paper until its finished, spell-checked, and submitted
  • Enjoy the remainder of my Sunday

Well, that’s my weekly update. I’ll continue to keep you guys posted on my many adventures, rambles, and more. Stay safe and healthy, and have a blessed night!

Until next time…

#SELF-CARE 101: GIVING 50% IS OK 👌

Good evening 🌙

Happy Friday, hope everyone is staying healthy during this time of quarantine. Today’s post is about self-care and work. Let’s rewind back to earlier this morning…

  • Time: 5:30AM
  • Mood: Irritable, Nauseated, and Tired- all due to an upset stomach, followed by a migraine that felt like my head was going to explode, NOT A GOOD START ON A FRIDAY, OR A WORK DAY!!!!😖😡🤬🤯

Got up and took medicine, and laid on the left side, while putting ice cubes on the right side of my face. I woke up to the buzzing of my alarm on my Fitbit, washed my face, brushed my teeth, got my morning started for work, and my head slowly started to subside…until I started on my work, my migraine comes back with a vengeance. 😈😈😈

I feel my mind being my cheerleader, as I try to push through and do my work. But my body was giving me the signs to throw in the towel. I broke out in a sweat, my stomach was still upset, and I squinting at my screen trying to do simple tasks, only to look away, rubbing my temples for relief. My co-worker even could tell that I wasn’t my cheerful self through texting her, so when I explained what was wrong, she told me to get some rest, and feel better.

Most situations like this, I’m fighting through an entire day with a throbbing headache at work, only to feel drained at the end of the day. Today, I worked for 5 hours, and called it a day. And… that’s ok. For the first time, it felt good to just remind myself of that. After I finished what I could, I sat in my comfy chair across from Dad, ate a little food, and the next thing I knew, I woke up with him giggling at me:

  • Me: What happened?
  • Dad: You fell asleep 😴
  • Me: What did I miss?
  • Dad: You didn’t miss anything, I didn’t bother you
  • Me: How long was I asleep?
  • Dad: About an hour, you looked like you needed it 😂

In the past, if I had a migraine at work, I felt like I was weak for wanting to call it a day if I knew I couldn’t function. Now, if my body is showing me that I’m not feeling good, I’m going with my gut and giving my body the rest it needs. My last therapy session, my doctor told me that days like that, it’s ok to have those days. Whether you work for a half day or you call in, don’t beat yourself over not getting work done because you don’t feel well.

So, Self-Care 101- it’s ok to give 50% for the day. If you don’t feel well, just relax and get some rest. Good news, my migraine is gone and I’m going to make myself some tea, drink some water, and have a peaceful evening.

Hope everyone has a good night’s sleep 😴 and enjoy your weekend. Stay safe and stay healthy.

Until next time…

❤️

WEEK 02: CREATING A ROUTINE

Good morning 🌞

I sit here in the comfort of my living room, watching another episode of Criminal Minds, waiting the arrival of my Doordash order for myself and Pops (he wanted Arby’s). Earlier, went out for a walk with Mom, talking about how its been like working from home, our grocery lists and how to prepare to get them, early spring cleaning, and my hit/miss experience of coloring my hair.

After our walk, I browsed on Pinterest for inspiration for approaching my self-care routine, which has also been a hit/miss experience lately. The question I keep asking myself and been asking myself all week is:

“What helped me the most when I was on top of my routine in the past?”

This week, I did a few things to start. I’ve gotten back into the habit of listening to audiobooks. I finished “Their Eyes Are Watching God” and will start “Queen Sugar” next week. Books like these help me stay creative. It helps with my imagination and keeps me sane and calm. Things like this is what I need for my self-care routine. Pinterest is a great way to destress just by looking at the pictures and reading the posts.

So today, I’m just going to take things easy, see where the day takes me, and what activities I can get into to get me back to the old me from 2019. I laugh thinking about how I told myself that 2020 was going to be the year for me. Guess we were all telling ourselves that, and now, 2020 is telling us to stop doing things so quickly, stop doing things by yourself, and just enjoy the moment. God is showing us that 2020 is the year of changes, the year of making things right.

Well, I’m going to continue to read, reflect, and…wait on my Doordash for today. Stay safe and healthy you all, and stay positive 😊✨🌹💕

Until next time…

#SELF-CARE 101: HAIR DYE STAINS & ADULTING IS 50/50

Good evening 🌙

So woke up thus morning around 8, relieved to learn that I took vacation from work. Today was going to be a day of slow and steady relaxation, productivity of spring cleaning, and just sitting back thinking about…. Things. Woke and got into the groove of binge watching Criminal Minds on Netflix. After taking care of errands, I deep cleaned my living room, disinfecting everything, wipe down surfaces, and putting things away.

Then, it was time to take care of me. I decided to try out Overtone, an all natural hair coloring system. I got the color Ginger, and started the process. I wore my gloves, took out a glob, and went to town on my hair, saturating it with the beautiful reddish-brown hue. In the midst of equally distributing the color, my glove broke on my left middle finger, causing the color to stain it. Then, I played the waiting game of letting the color sit for 15-20 minutes. Once I let it sit, it was time to rinse. Cue the OH SHIT!!!!!

As I’m standing in the shower, slowly rinsing the color out of my hair, I look to see my hands turn orange, and almost 1/2 of my bathtub turns a light yellow 😨😨😨. I go through my hair, seeing the issue, that maybe I put a tad too much color in my hair. Taking my time and enjoying the rest of my shower, I got out and dried my hair, only to see it turn to a deep burgundy. That’s a start…

Then I continued binge watching Criminal Minds until Dad came home. We hung out for a little while, had a little heart to heart, until it was time for him to go to work.

So here is what I learned from today…

  • Dying your hair will ALWAYS require gloves- the good ones
  • Wash/Rinse color out in KITCHEN sink to prevent stains
  • Ask Mom to assist in hair coloring process
  • It’s ok, you’re learning and trying new things
  • I DID IT BY MYSELF FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!

Well I hope everyone is still staying safe and healthy through these times. Hopefully you got a few laughs from this one. Time to call it a night.

Until next time…