FINALLY LETTING GO OF THE PAIN

Good morning

So woke up this morning and journaled for an hour. I wrote down about everything from my past. The bad thing, most of those things I realized that I was carrying with me as I got older.

Some of you may not know, but I was bullied growing up. From elementary school to high school, I was the main target of bullying. I had past relationships were toxic relationships filled with nothing but mental and verbal abuse.

Long story short, after writing four pages of what was bothering me and holding in these emotions, I felt better and then asked myself these questions:

  • Are these experiences and emotions the root of my physical and mental health issues?
  • Am I eating my emotions?
  • Why is it easy for me to walk around like nothing is wrong and hard for me to express these emotions when they occur?

I’m shocked that’s it’s taken me to get to my late 20’s to realize that feeling these emotions and holding them in for so long is the cause for my overall health. I guess my weight was screaming the answer to me the whole time, I just didn’t understand back then.

Now I know, I need to continue to work on practicing my coping methods and learn how to check my emotions. I don’t think to ask myself:

  • How are you?
  • What are you thinking about?
  • Are you drinking water?
  • Are you sleeping well?
  • How’s your diet?
  • Are you taking your medicine?

I don’t stop and check on myself to make sure I’m ok. So I just wanted to post this to say take time to check your emotions so they don’t spiral out of control. Learn how to express them so you’re not holding them in. If you don’t know how to do that, try journaling or talk to a professional that can help you and guide you in the right direction.

Don’t worry, I’ll be ok. I just wanted to get that off my chest and share this with you all.

I’ll check in with you guys later on. 😊

Until next time…

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MONTHLY REFLECTIONS: AUG. 2020

Good evening

Hope everyone is enjoying this Sunday. Just wanted to share today’s Verse of the Day as well as what my goals are for the new month.

So what will August have in store for me?

PHYSICAL HEALTH πŸ’ͺ🏾- Dad and I are starting our week off right, and taking time during the week to workout together. Mom said she’ll still come over so we can all workout together. Still researching to see what’s the ideal weight for me after I reach 200 pounds. Project Road to 200 starts now.

MENTAL HEALTH πŸ§˜πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ- I’m improving on taking time to listen to my body. But August, I want to work on checking my emotions. Through journaling and writing, I think I’ll be able to have a better understanding of why certain triggers occur or why do I find myself stuck in a never-ending cycle. It’s time for me to really start the healing process.

BLOGGING πŸ’»- I’m proud of myself for sticking with my blogging. Currently planning and creating content, all while taking in special notes from my current class. I’m acing this class at the end of this week. “The Gabby Diaries” is still going strong, let’s keep it up!

FINANCIAL πŸ’°- NO SPENDING CHALLENGE has started. Only buy what I need, not what I want. Ultimate goal is to create an emergency fund for a rainy day, or a tropical storm. Plus, it’s better to learn how to live on less and save more right?

CREATIVE PROJECTS 🎨- Blogging was the start of it, but 2020 is still a year of learning and improving on my crafts. I love art and I love learning new things. So August, I’ve got some projects I want to share with you. More to come on “The Gabby Diaries.”

Well, that’s what August looks like for me. So let me take some time to take care of myself and prepare for all the wonderful things I have in store.

Until next time …

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DAY IN THE LIFE- UPDATE

Good evening

So we’re now in August. July, what did you teach me?

Let’s reflect on that shall we:

NO SPENDING JULY– I caved and did not reach the final day of July to use my VISA, but I’m getting a little better at watching my spending now. July might not have been a no spending month, but I took time to prioritize my finances and I can always have a redo, August- BRING IT ON!!!!!

***Financial Discipline is now activated***

HEALTH– Well, I at least accomplished two days of working out, but due to my “Monthly Gift 🎁,” I decided to take things slow until tomorrow, and try to do some yoga in the AM. Baby steps? I’m still taking them, and that’s ok. But, I’m coming up with a special project I’m working on starting Monday. Keep your eyes open people.

WORK– I’M STILL WORKING FROM HOME!!!!! Enough said on that.

SCHOOL– I’m starting my final week of class, and will start a new class the following week. Wow, five weeks go by in every class so fast. April 2021 is right around the corner. I also got invited to “sit in” a roundtable discussion on Wednesday that talks about Delta Alpha Pi (the Honors Society I was invited to), and learn more from others on the issue of students with disabilities attending colleges and universities, and how we’re changing that narrative in a positive way.

Note To Self: read article to prepare for Roundtable discussion.

FRIENDS– My friend Jasmine is doing fine, her wrist is healing and got a new car. I had a deep discussion with my friend Jared about life and working on future projects. We are all working on ourselves, improving on our art, and we’re still figuring out how to be able to hang out once all of this COVID stuff is over. We’re keeping high positive vibes all around.

FAMILY– Mom is settled in her new home, Dad is settled over here with me, keeping me company. Everyone is making sure that I’m ok, and we’re all starting to work on our health together. I need all the motivation and inspiration I need. Project Healthy Family in the works.

Well, I have rambled enough. I’m hungry after staying glued to the computer for hours. Think I’ll make some ramen, and call it a night. Yes, I said Ramen, but hey, I’m a girl… with cramps… and craving ramen.

Ugh, one more day to go.

Good night readers, love ya’

Until next time…

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JOURNALING

Good morning

Just wanted to share with you all my progress of journaling. Back in June, I told myself that I would start back healthy habits that I used to do in the past.

I decided to journal for 30 days. As you can see, we are on the last day of July. So I think I hit past the 30 day mark.

This yellow leuchttrum 1917 has been my best friend since June 17th. Inside, the pages are filled with orange or red colored ink (I lost some good pens during this journey). Also, she enjoys Lisa Frank stickers and Yogi tea quotes.

It made me smile when I first started writing and decorating it because it brought back memories of when I was little, picking up a plain notebook, and creating a collage cover for the front.

Now that I’m older, I enjoy treating myself to more nicer journals like this one. I think journals will be the only thing I’ll continue to invest in for myself since I enjoy writing so much.

I think I’ll pick up practicing Bullet Journaling again. Last year, I kept a journal filled with designs for layouts and trackers. Now, I want to create one for the year of 2021.

I guess that’s the good thing about “the monthly gift 🎁.” I may get tired, but I notice that’s when I have the most creativity. Crazy right?

Let me know in the comments if any of you keep a journal, and what you guys like to write in your journal.

Happy Journaling (or BuJo-ing)

Until next time…

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GAURDING YOUR HEART

Good morning

So today, I just wanted to share what I learned in my moment of Quiet Time. The topic talked about “Gaurding Your Heart” and the verse of the day was Proverbs 4: 23:

β€œWatch over your heart with all diligence, For from it flow the springs of life.” -Proverbs 4:23 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/pro.4.23.NASB

The pastor directing the sermon for the morning, asking the question “What are we consuming?” Thinking about it, most times, I’m consuming things that make me feel good and that’s ok. But, I’m learning that I need to consume more of God. I watch a lot of YouTube and social media and Netflix, but I don’t consume enough of God’s Word, time with Him, and time in prayer.

Starting today, I made a reminder for myself to consume in the Word, and in good things. 2020 is still a year of learning for me. And I’m learning so much about myself everyday. I’m not perfect, I have flaws, and that’s what makes me special. πŸ₯°

Ok, it’s time for me to go. I’ll leave with you this scripture as well as Phil. 4:8 and Matt. 6:33 for you to indulge in:

β€œFinally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.”
‭‭-Philippians‬ ‭4:8‬ ‭NASB‬‬
https://www.bible.com/100/php.4.8.nasb

β€œBut seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.”
‭‭-Matthew‬ ‭6:33‬ ‭NASB‬‬
https://www.bible.com/100/mat.6.33.nasb

Until next time…

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MENTAL HEALTH & QUIET TIMES

Good morning

For the past few nights, I’ve been getting back into my reading. The first night was amazing because it was like God was guiding my hand where to start reading in the Bible. This was Monday night.

Tuesday night was a little bit of a struggle because I was easily distracted. But even last night, He showed me what I needed to read. I wanted to post this on Monday, but fell asleep, and then when I went to post it yesterday, I didn’t know what to say. But here I am. Here are the scriptures I read if you all want to do some reading on your own:

05|25|20:

  • 2 Chron. 34: 29-31
  • Matt. 14: 21-23
  • Psalm 119: 97-105
  • 1 Peter 5: 7-8
  • James 5: 16

05|26|20:

  • Phil. 2: 13
  • Prov. 13: 3
  • Prov. 15: 28
  • Prov. 25: 18
  • 1 Cor. 13: 4
  • Psalm 101: 3
  • 2 Tim. 3: 12-15
  • Deut. 2: 7
  • Luke 11: 1
  • Psalm 143
  • Deut. 30: 15-20
  • Matt. 25: 14-30
  • Luke 12: 48
  • Prov. 23: 18
  • Phil. 4: 6-7

Another thing I started doing is intermittent fasting. I started at 8PM on Monday night and finished at 12PM the next day on Tuesday. I drank tea and water for most of the day, but it felt good that I wasn’t in a rush to make a meal or eat. I took my time eating and I was satisfied. So, I did it again last night, starting at 8PM, and just counting down until noon today.

Since I’ve been working from home, I imagine myself, spending my mornings in my War Room (still need to get on that), drinking my fresh cup of coffee or tea, and just spending my entire morning, having quiet time with God, until I’m ready to start working. The more I imagine it, the more I feel it will become a reality.

I’m still practicing my other passions too like writing and sketching. If I keep this up, I’ll be closer to becoming a freelancer in no time.

Well, time to get the day going. Happy Wednesday or β€œWindsday” in my Winnie the Pooh voice πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

Talk later….

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A RELAXING DAY OFF

Good evening

It is much later since the last time I blogged. I spent part of the day, reviewing what needs to do be done for Week 05. Then went over Mom’s to help her move around furniture and pick up my laundry (can’t wait until I can get a new washer and dryer).

Came back and did a few changes to the blog as well as change the theme on my tumblr page. Then I was journaling…until I fell asleep on the couch πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚. I didn’t realize it until my phone fell on the floor. Then for the remainder of the evening, Dad and I have been watching movies on Netflix and talking about sneakers.

Overall, today was a much needed day of rest and relaxing for both of us (he’s sleep on the couch as we speak πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚).

Well, I’m going to enjoy the rest of my evening and then call it a night.

Until next time…

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01.09.20

Good evening πŸŒ™

Today was…HECTIC!!!

The good news…I got into work early enough to pick up where I left off on my project. Even better news…I finished it before leaving for the day. Came home and went to get groceries with Mom, and then came home to warm up some this yummy chicken dish she created yesterday.

Took a little time today during work to write down some of my to-do’s for tomorrow and for next week. I’m smiling from ear-to-ear, looking at the stack of notebooks, pens, pencils, and highlighters sitting on my table. Mom told me to just take a deep breath, say a prayer, and stay focused. So, this is how 2020 is going to start off, with my nose in the books…

…well virtual books…

Ok, time for me to get some beauty sleep 😴

Until next time…

01.07.20

Good evening πŸŒ™

I’m back and ready to learn, recharge, and gyst 😊

I am glad to announce that I am πŸ’― from this past week. After spending days in my living room, on the couch, drinking tea, orange juice, and taking multiple medicine and vitamins, I was able to get back on the grind and back to work.

I still giggle when I look back at the week before. Here I was, prepared to have an epic birthday week, doing things I’ve always planned on doing, making big moves, getting off to a fresh start in the new year. Then, it hit me full force, I think I went through at least 2 full boxes of Kleenex, and 7 portable packets of tissues that were originally meant to last me in case of a slight emergency. πŸ€§πŸ˜·πŸ€’

To play things safe, I’m still eating Ramen noodles for lunch, and drinking mostly hot water with lemon juice, and a variety of teas: Detox, Green, and Passion. More exciting news, I am now a full time student, going after her BA of Arts & Science in Communication Studies. Classes start next week on Tuesday, and even better, everything is online. That was one of the things that worried me, how my work schedule would affect me going to school. But thanks the wonderful world of technology, it can be done.

So birthday gift for myself? An abundance of office supplies to keep motivated and upbeat. Colorful notebooks, pens, pencils, highlighters. Like I’m a little kid again, staying in the office supplies aisle in the store. You could shopping for hours and I wouldn’t move from that spot. I’m so excited and anxious at the same time, but more excited than anything. 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍. Let’s see, 2020 is off to a pretty good start so far…

Sorry for rambling. Time for me to settle in for the night. Pleasant dreams 😴😴😴😴

Until next time…

01.01.2020

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!

πŸ₯³πŸ₯³πŸ₯³πŸ₯³πŸ₯³

So first post in 2020…

Great way for me to kick off my new year and birthday week (it’s tomorrow 😊😊😊😊😊). The last time I chatted, I had just did the following:

  • Purchased WordPress for a year
  • Got my Domain legit (thegbdiaries.com)
  • Started brainstorming my goals for 2020
  • Reflecting on the past week of 2019- mostly spent with family and work, and the remainder of it on my couch due to a cold πŸ₯ΆπŸ€§πŸ₯΄πŸ˜΄πŸ€’πŸ˜·

Overall, 2019 for me was a year of learning, learning new lessons, learning from mistakes, trying to learn new habits that can help me with my health and lifestyle. One of my habits that I’m still continuing in 2020 is writing. 2018 to 2019, I started back writing, from taking small notes at work, to now journaling through both the Journey app and my Passion Planner. Anytime a thought or idea comes across my mind, I just have to get it down on paper…

Like I just did this very moment 😊

Well, that’s all my brain and my body can handle for today. I’m 89% better than I was 2 days ago, so tonight I need all the rest I can get. Just keep your eyes and fingertips ready, there will more to come in 2020…

Until next time…

2019 so far…

Well goodbye to June and hello to July. We are now 6 months into the year of 2019. Here are my reflections of the past couple months, what I’ve learned, goals to achieve, and dreams to turn into reality:

  • January to March- Kicked off the year spending a few days at my Aunt’s house and played with my baby cousin. Also, kicked off my health journey by writing down goals, dreams, and such. Experienced some digestive issues mid- February, but had a healthy talk with my doctor about life overall 😊
  • April- was kicking major ass in my weight loss journey, and hung out with my best friend for an insane weekend, only to suffer from a sinus infection the following week, which helped me learn to listen to my body, and to just take my time to recover and get back on track
  • May- did some MAJOR decluttering due to practicing the Konmari method, learning to purge what I don’t need, and cherish the things I have 😍😍😍😍 and spent Mother’s Day with my mom and Dad since my Grandmother had passed away
  • June- practiced NO SPENDING ON VISA month, which was going great until it was time to splurge πŸ˜£πŸ˜’πŸ˜­πŸ˜Œ so still learning to adult with my money and still staying on the straight and narrow for my health journey

And we are now in July…. 😱😱😱😱😱

This year is going by SUPER fast, so today on the first, I made the best of it. After work, Mom and I both went outside for a walk session. Even though I was a little winded, we both did really well on our walk. Came home, blasted some tunes while I took a nice shower, and binged watch some YouTube 😊😍😊😍😊. But overall, I’ve fallen off a few times with my health….but that’s ok. I haven’t fallen completely off where I can’t even get back into the swing of it all. I’m still positive, upbeat, and happy being happy and healthy.

Well, that’s it for today. Need to get something’s together for tomorrow. Just wanted to pop up and say hey since things were busy for me this past month. Hope everyone is enjoying their night.

Until next time…