A DAY IN THE LIFE- UPDATE

Good evening.

How are you doing? Hope everyone is enjoying their evening and had fun yesterday with World Mental Health Day.

My week has been great. Class is still fun, however I was shocked to find that my teacher didn’t give me a critical thinking question during my discussion post for this week. Also, I’m entering my final week of class, this journey is going by so fast. But I’m enjoying it. Hopefully, he’ll respond on Monday, I enjoy those questions now.

Health has been going good too. Thanks to Trulicity, my blood sugar is under control, and I’ve changed up my eating habits. I realize that I get thirsty in the mornings, so having my water bottle next to my bed has been a game changer. I’ve gotten better sleep on the weekends, still trying to get my full eight during the week, work in progress but that’s ok. I’ve been looking over my tracker and the only thing I still need to work on is a skincare routine.

During my health journey, I’ve noticed my face becoming more oily than usual. It’s time to create an effective skincare routine, continue to drink my water, and take better care of my skin. Also, I noticed I haven’t been good at taking my vitamins, so starting tomorrow, it’s back to taking the multivitamin, Life’s Fortune.

So some things have changed:

  • Better and longer sleep
  • Increased water intake
  • More cooking
  • Less eating out/less over-eating
  • More exercise

And here are the things I’m going to incorporate:

  • Take multivitamin
  • Start skincare
  • Do more journaling

I’ve been reading, and that’s helped with my screentime. But, I still manage to come back and endless scroll. Overall, this past week has been a good week.

Ok y’all, the medicine has kicked in and it’s time for me to call it a night. Sweet dreams!

Until next time…

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MY NOTION HABIT TRACKER

Hey everyone.

I’m back with another post. This time, I wanted to talk about my habit tracker. So the last time I talked about tracking habits, I was using the app Fabulous. Unfortunately, I decided to uninstall the app off my phone because I found myself not using more than I should have. But, I found a solution that has helped me since I returned from my weekend at Mom’s house.

For the past few months, I’ve been hooked on using the Notion app for… everything. I created a personal account, and an account for me to work on my passion projects. On my personal account, I created a page to track my habits, for the remainder of 2020 into 2021. I decided to create the habit tracker on Notion because I check Notion every day. I remember watching videos on YouTube, and I was helping a friend of mine figure out what was the best software to use when it came to creating databases. I told him that I would test out Notion and that maybe, he could use it for one of his projects. I’ve been hooked ever since.

I added a few screenshots here of some of the habits I started tracking. I started the tracker on Wednesday and that’s the good thing about me creating the tracker. If I feel like I’m overwhelming myself with too many habits, I can tweak the tracker to what works best for me. I felt like the Fabulous app, even though it was a great app, it was hard for me to really personalize it to my liking. Now, I’m not saying don’t use the app.

If you all are already using the app, and it works for you, keep using. I’m just sharing what’s been working for me so far. Plus, it’s not a full week yet, it’s only Day Three for me using this tracker, and if it takes 21 days to form a habit (I think I said that right). So, I tune back in with you all next Wednesday and then after 21 days, I will share my results on how this habit tracker has been working for me.

Hopefully, this post inspired you to either create your own tracker or if you’re curious, look into an app that fits in with your schedule. The important thing to remember is that you’re starting. Stay posted on “The Gabby Diaries.”

Until next time…


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MENTAL HEALTH UPDATE

Good morning.

We’re back to Friday, and it’s a little bit of cloudy start here in St. Louis, MO.

But that’s ok, it’s still going to be a beautiful day. Today’s post is going to be an update on my mental health. So rewind back to my doctor’s visit on September 24th. If you’re new to the blog, and would like to check out the post, click here. That day, was not only a wake-up call for me to get my physical health in check, but it was also a wake-up call that I needed to keep my mental health in check.

Sure, I watch my favorite self-care influencers, and videos of adorable puppies most of the day on YouTube (that will never go away until I get a fur baby of my own). But I’m still asking myself “Is it enough?” Well, fast forward to this week. There were some days that were mood boosters. For instance, Week 03 of class went awesome and I got the highest grade on both my discussion post and my rough draft for my final project, so I still have 100% in the class. I’m really enjoying my journey with Ashford, and taking these online classes because I love taking the time to engage with my teachers and my peers, whereas before I was so shy and nervous about saying anything in the posts because I was scared of what people would think of me.

Then, there were moments that caused my mental health to drop. As you know, I’m taking Trulicity over the course of three months to manage my diabetes. Long story short, I was stressing out because the pharmacy was taking forever to get my prescription ready. I was scared that I was going to have to wait longer than a week to get it. I think I had two mini panic attacks. Then, Mom reminded me yesterday to not let these things stress me out. It’s amazing how she can’t even hear it in my voice that she knows I’m stressing over the little things. But, I have it, and I’ve taken my pen so I’ll give you all an update on how that has been working out for me.

So, here is what I’ve learn about myself when it comes to my mental health:
• I worry about the things that I CAN’T control
• I don’t worry about the things that I CAN control
• I worry and stress too much which causes unhealthy habits to flare up
• I don’t capture the things that causes these triggers in time

Here is what I need to work on:
• Take time to understand what my anxiety feels like
• Catch my triggers
• Write these things down in a brain dump, mind map, or blog post
• Practice replacing negative thoughts with positive thoughts

If I can rate my mental health over the past few weeks, on a scale of 1 to 10 (10 being awesome, 1 being horrible), and I’m being completely honest with myself here, it’s been at a 7. I say a 7 due to the events that took place and the way they made me feel, but thanks to me getting back into working out again, the feeling doesn’t last long, and I’m focusing on other things again. I hope you all enjoyed this morning’s post, tune in next week for another mental health update.

I’ll check in with you all later.

Until next time…

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A BLESSING IN DISGUISE

Good morning.


I’m back after being away for four days. I spent the weekend at Mom’s again, due to having to do laundry, and spending some time with her and my niece, Haley.


Yesterday was a bit of a rocky start. Woke up, and my stomach decided to plan my morning out for me. 😖😣🤤🤢. Long story short, I knew I wasn’t going to make it through the work day.


After sleeping on and off until 10, I stayed in the front room and indulged in YouTube videos from Morgan Tracy J, Kaylin Nicholson, and watching reruns of adorable puppies 🐶 that I can watch all day. Most of the morning, I started planning things out for my Passion Projects, as well as knocked out my responses for school.


Then, I relaxed until five, and stayed in the zone for school until 11:30 last night. But, I think my stomach being upset was a blessing in disguise because it gave me time to relax and rest before I started taking on the daunting tasks of work and school. Also, I got to spend time with Dad once he got off of work.


I’m ok, and my blood sugar has been ok. I checked it today, and it was at 116 before eating which isn’t bad. It can (and will) be better so I’m still working on it and I’m in good spirits.


Just wanted to let you know that even when you don’t feel good, take that as a good thing. Your body is telling you that you’ve been working hard this week, and you need a break. Let’s take time to rest. So take advantage of those moments to either take things slow or just sleep all day. It’s ok, your body needs it. 😊


It’s Week 04, and I need to prepare myself for class soon. I’ll check in with you all later.


Until next time…

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MENTAL HEALTH & THE COMPARISON GAME

Good afternoon

Hope everyone is enjoying themselves on this lovely Hump Day!

Just thought I share with you something I’ve been dealing with that ties in with my mental health and I also thought it would make a helpful blog post.

As you all know, I announced that I started a weight loss series on this blog. Long story short, this journey is and has been a rocky one. One of the reasons being… I play the comparison game WAY TOO MUCH! I have days where I can browse on social media just to browse or I found an interesting article to read. Sometimes, I’ll find an image I like and give it a heart. But most times, I fall victim to the unforgiving game of “Compare Yourself to This” or “Compare Yourself to That.” Just a few minutes ago, I was on Pinterest, scrolling endlessly, when I came across a short Tik Tok video of a young lady who filmed her face as part of her weight loss journey. She started off from 165 and got down to 105. I was happy because it did motivate me to sit down and really think about what triggers me to have moments of binge-eating or excessive snacking. But then, I started asking myself those dreaded questions.

How can I lose weight like that?

How can I stay motivated like she did to get those results?

The questions kept filling up, to the point where I was tearing up and on the verge of a MAJOR breakdown. But then I reminded myself “Gabby, stop playing the comparison game!” I literally looked out my bedroom window, and yelled it out as if someone could hear me. But I was doing it, yet again. Every time I get into some kind of rut or spurt of motivation or whatever kind of moment, and I see something or someone that is doing much better than what I’m doing right now, I play the comparison game. And the outcome, the comparing process wins. It never fails, when I let the comparing process win, it takes me a long time to figure out how to overcome from that moment.

I wanted to share with you all that this game, it can affect your mental health severely if you don’t put a stop to it. It’s hard to bounce back from it if you let it consume your everyday life. The comparison game can even cause you to feel trapped, and that’s a horrible feeling, especially for someone with a mental illness.  I think that’s what happened to me, and today was the final straw. This is something that is taking control of me, and I don’t like it. It’s DEFINITELY time for a MAJOR wake-up call.

So, starting today, in everything that I do, if I have to make a special alarm or multiple sticky notes around the apartment, I’m reminding myself that I’m doing just fine on my journey, and that I’m not going to compare my Day 1 to someone’s Day 100. I’m going to keep doing the best I can in everything I do.

Ok, I’m going to take a break, collect myself, and check in with you all another time.

Until next time…

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ROAD TO 200- PLANS FOR SEPTEMBER

Hi everyone!

So Road to 200 in August was a bit of a rocky start. But, it’s ok, I’ve took away some things that can help me improve for the month of September. Here is what I learned for the month of August.

IT ALL STARTS WITH YOU– In the past, learning that I developed Type 2 Diabetes was my Wake-Up Call. In the beginning, Mom and I would work out together every day, whether it was going on a walk, or going to the recreation center. She was with me every step of the way. Once I got my momentum going, there were days where she couldn’t workout with me due to work or she wasn’t feeling good. This is when I started to learn to have more confidence in working out by myself. After a while, I had to tell myself that “you need to do this for you.” Don’t worry, that’s still the motivation now with Dad, there are days where he forgets to go jump rope with me, or he’s too tired after getting off of work. I’ll either follow a video on YouTube, or I’ll do something else. As long as you’re moving, that’s all that matters.

YOU ARE WHAT YOU EAT– Good news, I am eating healthier. The bad news, I’m not eating enough according to my calorie intake on Fitbit. My plan is the 2500 calorie plan if I’m correct. I’m retraining myself to eat smaller meals throughout the day instead of three regular meals or one big meal. I tried fasting and to be honest, I was fasting for all the wrong reasons. This week, I’m eating cleaner to prepare myself for a four-day cleanse. I got myself “The Urban Remedy” book earlier this year, so that will be my guide to what to do and what not to do during my cleanse for next week. Don’t worry, it’s only for four days, so I will be careful since I am diabetic. But yes, cleaner, leaner meals to help me feel better and more energized. Also, I’ve been keeping up with my food diary because it really helped me realize which foods work for me and which foods do not work for me. 

STRETCH YOUR BODY– That’s still something that I either forget to do or don’t do enough after working out. I’m learning from my yoga book that it’s important for me to incorporate yoga into my routine. For instance, I work up refreshed and not tired this morning, but I could have made time to fit in a Yoga session. But, since I didn’t do one this morning, I will do one tonight before I go to bed. It helps reduce stress and anxiety, and those are things that I’m trying to improve on with my mental health. So, stretch your body to open up your mind, your body, and your soul.

BEING ACCOUNTABLE– The other reason I created this series was to be accountable to for working out and living a healthier lifestyle. In the past, I never asked anyone to hold me accountable for anything…until now. I’ve had this conversation with my friend Jasmine, my Dad, and now you all, my readers. If you want to share with me your journey to 200 pounds or whatever your goal weight is, just leave a comment down below. So, being accountable can help you get things done in a timely fashion.

STAY POSITIVE– Create a workout playlist that has positive, upbeat tunes. Wear your favorite outfit to feel more confident when you’re working out, create a vision board of where you see yourself a year from now, write down your health goals for the week, the month, and for the year. Whatever you do, do all of this with a smile, and a reminder that starting is the biggest accomplishment you completed when getting back on your health journey.

Ok my lovely readers, I hope this post gets you motivated, inspired, and encourage to start taking care of yourself. Even though these look like uncertain times, this is the time to turn things around and inspire others to become the best versions of themselves. See you all later!

Until next time…

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ROAD TO 200- DAY 6

Good morning

The update you’ve all been waiting for. After hours of wrapping up assignments for Week 05 and starting on assignments for my new class, I was able to fit in 20 minutes of Walk Away The Pounds.

Unfortunately, I did not put my Fitbit back on after washing dishes earlier that day, which made tracking my workout a little difficult. So, I had to put in my information by hand with an estimate on how many calories I burned.

Woke up this morning with an upset stomach and a migraine. I blame the weather change due to the last few storms we’ve had. But I’ll take it easy today until Dad gets home. I think I’ll practice some yoga today.

It’s been stressful for the past few days. I guess because I get frustrated that I let my weight get out of hand since Mid-October of last year. It’s harder for me to lose the weight this go round than it was last year.

I’ll figure it out, once I’ve been consistent enough to just do it on my own. Don’t worry, I’m not beating myself up, I’m staying positive because the motivation is still there. Like everything else in my life, I’m trying to find a balance in maintaining a healthier lifestyle.

Maybe I need to invest in a personal trainer for a while? Or take classes for overall health? It can benefit me to improve myself mind, body, and soul….

*BRAINSTORMING PROCESS ACTIVATED*

Got to do this for myself right? 😊🤩😍🥰

My migraine is subsiding but, I’m so tired now. I think I’ll take a little breather today before getting into school. At least I’m paying more attention to my body and my mood when I’m not feeling well.

So Day 6 is finally complete. Check in with you all later for today- Day 7.

Until next time…

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WEEK 01 REFLECTIONS

Good morning

So I just wanted to share what I learned during my first week of working out:

  • PROS- more motivated, more energy, better sleep, improved mood, more water intake
  • CONS- eating habits were not 💯 and I did not complete a full week 😤😤😤

Hey, you live and your learn right? It was the first week, I still have the rest of August to go. Today is jump rope and walking. After I get off, it’s go time. I’m glad that I got through four days last week. I wanted to go for five, but my body told me to rest.

This week’s focus: focus on healthy eating, and switching up my routine. So Week 01 is in the books and we’ll focus on Week 02. Alright, it’s Monday, time for motivation.

Until next time…

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DAY IN THE LIFE- UPDATE

Good evening

So, recapping the last week. I completed four out of six days of working out. Today was my original rest day, but due to being sick and last night’s storm, today was a MAJOR recharge day.

I slept until 10 and Mom came over. Turns out, we’ve been suffering from sinus headaches this week. And we both slept horrible last night. For most of the day, I hung out with her since I had to get my hair braided, and I hadn’t seen her house since she moved.

Week 05 of school ends tomorrow, and I have to post my introduction for my new class by Tuesday. The pressure is on because I’ll be using the camera more in my new class. Wish me luck, I hope I do well.

This week, I’m going to create a yoga session as well as start jumping rope with Dad. Our jump ropes came today so I think I’ll kick off my week with that and alternate with other workouts. Mom and I had our heart-to-heart about my health. She’s proud to see me get back on my feet.

Day 6 will be tomorrow since I’m on crunch time for this class. Not to mention preparing for my new class. Ugh, the pressure. But next year, I’ll graduate so it will all be worth it. 😊🥰😊🥰😊

Ok, I’m going to chill with Dad for a bit before going into tunnel vision. I’ll see you all in the morning.

Until next time…

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ROAD TO 200- DAY 4

Hey everyone

Hope you all are enjoying this lovely Thursday evening.

Just stopping by to announced that Day 4 is complete. 😊

Another day of the 30 minute Walk Away The Pounds video. This time, my energy level was maybe at 80 percent, which is not bad. But you know how you feel energized one day working out, and then the following day like you’re going to pass out? It was like that, like my body was ready to give out any minute.

Not to mention that at the time I’m writing this post, I haven’t eaten anything yet. So, I think I’ll make myself a light snack before bed or make myself some tea.

But, yep, four days down… so many more to go. And this is just the beginning.

For now, time for bed.

Until next time…

ROAD TO 200- DAY 3

Good morning

Well I’m a little late with this post so my apologies. Long story short, yesterday was an intense 30 minutes.

I got off of work, from 3:30 until 4, I was locked in a 30 minute Walk Away the Pounds sequence. I was a little nervous at first because I was just starting back and I was only doing 10- 20 minute videos.

Finally, I got up and I said:

“Gabby, you can do this. Push yourself a little bit.”

So… I started off great. Then about the 20 minute mark, I could start to feel myself getting tired. Instead of stopping (like I used to do), I kept it up for the full 30 minutes. Sweating, and breathing hard, I did my victory dance, drank my water, and took a relaxing shower.

That’s when my body was telling me that I needed sleep. The game plan was to complete my assignments for the week, that I have time to focus on my paper (this is how I normally do things for Week 05) of class. Well, let’s just say that once I sat down in my comfy chair, I was yawning more than I was reading. So today I will complete my assignments.

The rest of the day, Dad and I watched movies, and had a small daddy-daughter moment. Unfortunately, he giggled when he caught me dozing off in the chair. That was my cue to go to bed.

This is how tired I was:

  • 9:10PM- Jared texts me to do a zoom call
  • 9:25PM- Missed duo call from Jared
  • 11:10PM- Jared texts me back again to call him

I missed them all. 😖😖😖 So, later on, I got to call Jared to let him know I’m ok and that I’m alive, and see what’s going on with him. Sorry Jared 🤗.

Lesson for yesterday: Exercise can improve your sleep. I got seven hours and did not wake up until my alarm went off. So one reason I now enjoy working out: I get better sleep 😴😴😴😴

Alright y’all, I’ll check in with you all later on. We’re on Day 4, let’s keep up the good work. 😊

Until next time…

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FINALLY LETTING GO OF THE PAIN

Good morning

So woke up this morning and journaled for an hour. I wrote down about everything from my past. The bad thing, most of those things I realized that I was carrying with me as I got older.

Some of you may not know, but I was bullied growing up. From elementary school to high school, I was the main target of bullying. I had past relationships were toxic relationships filled with nothing but mental and verbal abuse.

Long story short, after writing four pages of what was bothering me and holding in these emotions, I felt better and then asked myself these questions:

  • Are these experiences and emotions the root of my physical and mental health issues?
  • Am I eating my emotions?
  • Why is it easy for me to walk around like nothing is wrong and hard for me to express these emotions when they occur?

I’m shocked that’s it’s taken me to get to my late 20’s to realize that feeling these emotions and holding them in for so long is the cause for my overall health. I guess my weight was screaming the answer to me the whole time, I just didn’t understand back then.

Now I know, I need to continue to work on practicing my coping methods and learn how to check my emotions. I don’t think to ask myself:

  • How are you?
  • What are you thinking about?
  • Are you drinking water?
  • Are you sleeping well?
  • How’s your diet?
  • Are you taking your medicine?

I don’t stop and check on myself to make sure I’m ok. So I just wanted to post this to say take time to check your emotions so they don’t spiral out of control. Learn how to express them so you’re not holding them in. If you don’t know how to do that, try journaling or talk to a professional that can help you and guide you in the right direction.

Don’t worry, I’ll be ok. I just wanted to get that off my chest and share this with you all.

I’ll check in with you guys later on. 😊

Until next time…

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