MONTHLY REFLECTIONS: OCTOBER 2020

Good morning. ☀️

It is now Tuesday.

I wanted to go over my goals for this month with you all today.

If you haven’t read the post, click here to check it out. Earlier this month, I wrote a blog post, talking about the goals that I wanted to accomplish. Some of them, I’m still working on, others I haven’t started on yet so I’ll transfer them over to next month for November.

Here were the goals that I established for October 2020:
• Create a vision board
• Have a fall outing with friends
• Document Fitober- blog series
• Read two books: one for personal development and one for fun
• Declutter each room in the apartment
• Sketch
• Keep a dream journal
• Have a Halloween Night with friends

Out of the eight goals I’ve written, I’m working on or accomplished four. Not bad right? Allow me to explain. Let’s start with the blog series.

DOCUMENT FITOBER
Even though I no longer have a category that says fitober, I’m still sharing with you all my health updates through the weekly updates. But, looking through my blog, I’ve decided that starting next month, I’ll give you all two posts in this subject: the first sharing where I am since I started September the 24th (click here to read that post), and then the second post will be an overall update on how I’ve progress over the month of November. It will be a challenge since we have the holidays coming up soon. And you know Thanksgiving offers yummy food and treats, so I’ll have to strategize on how to fight the temptation.

READ TWO BOOKS
My reading speed is still at the speed of a tortoise, but that’s ok. I’m learning from both “The Power of Habit” & “Living by the Book.” For next month, I think I’ll read one book. I probably aimed a little too high with two books for this month, so next month, we’ll take baby steps again, and focus on one book. But, I’ll share my insights with you all on the two soon before October ends.

DECLUTTER MY APARTMENT
I’m proud to announce that I’m almost finished with this goal. Saturday and Sunday, my family and I got the job done. They helped me out tremendously, and I’m not stressed, I don’t feel overwhelmed, I feel like this huge weight is lifted, and I just need to keep up my end of things, and maintain a clean apartment. With less stuff, I think that will be simple to do.

HAVE A HALLOWEEN NIGHT
On the 30th, I’m hosting a Hocus Pocus night with a few friends. I’ll keep you all in the loop on what movies we’re watching, the tricks and treats we’re having, and how you can host your own Hocus Pocus party for next year.

Well, that’s all for this morning. The remaining goals I will transfer over into November. So, look out for a November Reflections coming soon. I’ll check in with you all later on.

Happy reading!

Until next time…

❤️

START LIVING YOUR LIFE

Good morning.


We’re halfway through the work week.


Today’s post is inspired by a friend of mines.


After I got off of work yesterday, I had plans of working on one of my passion projects (be on the lookout for another blog post). Unfortunately, after working and brainstorming for half an hour, my stomach yet again had other plans for me, and I took things easy for the rest of the evening. Around seven, I left the front room after hearing the sound of my phone ringing. My friend Jared was calling me, so I grabbed my headphones, and resided in my bedroom. We talked about how things in our lives were going, and I mentioned how I wanted to work on transforming my other bedroom into my dream home office. But that I was waiting for the right time to work on it.


He told me that I could start working on it now. We talked for hours, with me leaving the conversation taking away the message that I needed to start living in the now. Jared helped me realize that night that I was playing things safe. If I continue to play things safe with my dream life, I’m never going to get where I want to be. I laid down in bed last night, smiling, because I felt like God was using Jared to talk to me. God sees that I’m trying, but maybe He’s showing me that I was wasting my life and playing it safe in everything, instead of taking a leap of faith and starting to live the life that I want.


This is where prayer comes in…


In my post yesterday (click here to read), I said I was giving God a year. That’s one way I’m giving Him a year. My prayer life hasn’t been great, I don’t pray every day like I should, and that’s why my stress flares up, I worry too much, I complain too much, I filled myself with so much negativity, that I wasn’t allowing positivity to come and override the negativity. It goes back to my other post, I’M ONLY A STUDENT, if I’m going to talk the talk, and I have to walk the walk. Yeah, I can read the Bible, but if I don’t take time to study it, and pray to God and ask Him to help me understand it so that I can receive guidance and apply those teachings to my life, how can I move forward in my spiritual walk? How can I move forward in my life?


Jared said that he had faith in God, and that he trusted in the process that everything will continue to fall into place in his life. If he can do that, and things are working out in his favor for his good, why can’t it do the same for me? If I put more faith and trust in God, than I do in the books I read or the podcasts I listen to, I know that everything in my life will fall into place, I have to stay consistent with it. If I’m consistent in blogging, I can be consistent in my faith walk. If I’m consistent in working out and eating right, I can be consistent in my faith walk. If I’m consistent in school, I can be consistent in my faith walk. I need to stop wasting my life, step out on faith, trust in God, and start living!
From now on, I’m giving God a year through:


• My Happiness
• My Quiet Time
• My Prayer Life

So, I thank God for placing friends like Jared in my life, friends that call you out when they see you off you’re A-game. But, they do it because they care. Thank you, Jared! I needed that. I’ll keep you all updated through this journey, and let me know your thoughts on this. I’d love to hear!
Ok you all, I have to go for now. Time to get the day started, but I will return with an excited blog post for you.


Until next time…

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I’M GIVING GOD A YEAR

Good morning.


It’s another start to the work week.
I know some of your are looking at the title of this post and are already scratching your head. But, let me explain.


In Mid-September, I created my Monthly Predictions on what October was going to bring me. If you want to read that post, click here. Well, let’s just say things were off to a rocky start over the last week’s of September and I started my transformation right then and there. But this past weekend, something changed.


It started on Friday morning. I was watching a sermon on Faith Church that talked about “The Immense Value of Not Quitting” and the takeaway for me was that I could either give up or that I can get up. Friday, I finished my work day to the best of my ability and completed another workout. Saturday came and I explained to Mom how even though I was on Trulicity for 3 months, I wasn’t going to let it become a permanent lifestyle.


I also have been listening to some of my favorite Christian influencers and the messages have been revolving around the same words: get up, breakthrough, consistent. Then last night, I looked over my Passion Projects on Notion, and thought if I can commit to these things, I can commit my time to God, which is something I still struggle with.


One of the things I want to work on is accountability. After this weekend, and last night, I decided that I was going to give God a year. From learning to be content in my season of singleness, to reading and studying the Word, to continue to work on my prayer life. I know it’s going to be a challenge, but I’ve dealt with a lot of challenges this year so what’s one more. The things that produce my negative thoughts are my mouth and mind, so during this time, I’m going to talk to God and ask Him to change my mindset. I say it’s changed, but it’s caught in a loop cycle, and I’ve made that my comfort zone, which is not good.


I’m not going to let my challenges limit me, I have to stay committed, and what better way than to give my attention to God. Only faith, trust, and discipline from here on out.

I hope you all enjoyed today’s post today. I’ll be back with another post later on.


Until next time…

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SPIRITUAL GROWTH: MY STORY

Hello again.

I thought I’d take the time to share with you all my story on how my faith walk started. It’s a big part of who I am on this blog, and also a part of uplifting you all, my readers. I hope you enjoy reading this post and that it inspires you on your faith walk or to start your faith walk today.

UNIQUE, SPECIAL, AND BULLIED
Growing up, I was always the shy girl. I was quiet, and didn’t talk much. When it came to making friends, I would be shy at first, but once I opened up more, I was goofy, bubbly, kind, and friendly. I got along with everyone. I made friends with kids of different backgrounds, but that made me a victim for bullying. Some kids thought I was weird for hanging out with certain people. I was made fun of because I spoke proper English, and was called all kinds of names, names that followed me into high school. I was super nice, which led to a bully constantly and viciously bullying me until the fourth grade. My escape was writing and art, I loved watching cartoons, and to this day, I don’t think I rushing to grow up, I’m still a big kid at heart.

NOT ALL BOYS ARE GOOD
Once I got into high school, I had my first real boyfriend. At the time, it was real love. Unfortunately, that was ruined by the world of “He Said, She Said.” Due to poor decisions, I no longer had a boyfriend, but had a reputation that I never wanted to associate myself with. Senior year was the year that I got diagnosed with Bipolar 2 with Depression. Certain guys came around me for the wrong reasons, and if they didn’t get what they wanted, they threatened to tell the whole school of the things I did. Long story short, bad decisions caught up with me, and I got in trouble for it. Luckily, I was never a troublemaker in school so I never had a record. But the words and stares were like daggers towards me throughout the hallways. After senior year, I was ready to leave!

A CRY FOR HELP IS ANSWERED
After high school, some of the guys continued dealing with me. At this point, I was going to college, and working part-time at a daycare with a friend of the family. This was also the time where my relationship with my mother was going downhill. There were good days, and there were bad days. More bad days than good between us, and looking back on it, I can say that I put her through it. Then, on April. 22, 2012, I went to church with Mom, and I remember a girl sharing her testimony of how she was trying to turn her life around. The pastor asked “If anyone wants to turn their lives over to God, please come up and do it today!” With a face full of tears, I walked up to the front of the church, Mom came down and we hugged and that Sunday, I got saved.

WHAT NOW?
Once I entered the world of “Adulting,” I started having issues and setbacks. But I always find my way back and trying to stick with it. It hasn’t been easy, we live in a World that want us to have certain things. Instead, we need to live for God. I have come a very long way from where I was my senior year in high school, and during my early 20’s. I’m not the same girl I was back then. I’m working on loving God first and loving myself first in the process. I’m learning not to conform to this world, which is still a struggle. But, with His help, I’ll get through it. I’ve come this far, there’s no turning back now…

Until next time…

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LIVING BY THE BOOK

Good afternoon.


It is Thursday already? These weeks are going by so fast.


As I mentioned in my last post, I was working on my goal to read more books for the year of 2020. Even though we only have three months left, I decided to start now, and carry my goal out into the following year. On my last entry, I mentioned that I was reading the book “The Power of Habit.” If you haven’t read that post, click here to check it out. I started reading it to help me improve my skills of keeping track of healthier habits, as well as improve on my personal development skills. Well, I have another book that I’ve been reading for my Quiet Time, and it is called “Living by the Book” by Howard G. Hendricks & William D. Hendricks.


Another thing I talk to you all about on this blog is my journey with my spiritual growth. Lately, I have improved on my Quiet Time, however I was have moments where I wasn’t sure I was grasping the lesson discussed during the reading. I heard about the book originally from the channel, Coffee and Bible Time on YouTube. One of the girls mentions that she uses the book as a guide during her Quiet Time sessions. She went into detail explaining how she would read the Bible, but wasn’t sure if she was full understanding the lesson and getting anything out of it. I started the book yesterday. Chapter 1 helped me understand where I was when it came to studying the Bible for myself. Let’s just say, I still have a long way to go on where I want to be and where God wants me to be on my faith walk.


After reading Chapters 1 and 2, it made me feel better that I made the decision to getting this book. I’m also going to be working on a special project for this month that I will share you all soon. I think you’ll enjoy it, and I hope it will help you as much as it helped me. I’ll keep you guys updated on how this book is going, what I’m learning from it, as well as my findings in “The Power of Habit.”


I’ll check in with you all later.


Until next time…

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YOUR HEALTH AFFECTS OTHERS

Good morning.


Happy Friday!


I just took my second Trulicity pen treatment for the week. I called Mom and told her about my experience. So the first pen, it left me feeling sore due to injecting the solution in my thigh- NO GO FOR ME!!!!

This round, I did the next injection in my belly (where there is more meat- 😂😂😂) and it didn’t hurt, and it was a lot easier for me to handle. Further in the conversation, she brought up that she told Nana about my news. Long story short, my health is impacting my grandmother.


It had me thinking, wow, I’m not the only one affected by my current health issues and decisions. How I take care of myself affects everyone. The last person I ever wanted to be affected by this was my grandmother because she’s a diabetic. It’s bittersweet because I’m glad to know that she’s concerned, but now I feel like that’s another person I’ve let down.


Don’t worry Nana, I’ll make you proud. I say all of this to say that your overall health is not just a personal matter, it’s a family matter as well. If you don’t have that support group within your family, start today. Sit down with your parents and loved ones, let them know how your health is, and figure out ways to keep each other positive and encouraged.


If you’re just starting on your health journey, create a plan. Write down your struggles, your goals, and what you want to get out of this experience. Do it together as a family so you can keep each other accountable.

Well, time for me to get work done. I’ll check in with you later.

Until next time…

HOW I STUDY THE BIBLE

Good morning.


What day is it. It’s Hump day, and in today’s post, I thought I share with you all how I study the Bible.

Here is a list of things I use during my Quiet Times:
• My Bible
• The YouVersion Bible App
• InTouch Ministries App
• Faith Church App
• A notebook
• Pens- Black, blue, and red
• A Devotional

Once I have everything I need, I close my door to my bedroom, and start my Quiet Time.


OPENING PRAYER: The first step I’ve been practicing is starting with prayer, asking God to help me understand the reading. Sometimes, I’ll just sit in quiet a few minutes longer because my mind may try to wonder, and at times, other things will come up.


YOUVERSION APP: Next, I’ll open the Bible app. The app starts off with a story section. You open it, and it talks about the topic for the day, the verse, and you’ll have a speaker go in depth on how the passage ties in with the topic. Then, they find a devotional that ties in with the topic as well. During this time, I’ll read and re-read the scripture, and I’ll listen to everything again to get better understanding. I’ll go through everything one last time to take notes in my notebook.

NOTE-TAKING: In my notebook, everything is simple. Black is for basic wording, blue is for positive words and messages, and red is for warnings and anything about the Devil. I’llgo on Pinterest and see there are so many different color codes for Bible studying, but since I’m just getting back into a routine, I’ll create a system that works for me overtime.


JOURNALING: After I’ve read and taken my notes, I’ll journal on my Journey app how the Quiet Time went, and how it made me feel. Other times, I’ll just sit in silence while I’ll listen to my praise music. Lately, I’ll go on InTouch Ministries or Faith Church and watch a sermon before going about my day.


If you don’t know what to use during your Quiet Time, just start simple with your Bible a Devotional, and a journal. That’s how my spiritual walk started, I’ve always kept a notebook every time I had Bible study or went to church and listened to a sermon.
I hope today’s post helped you get started with your Bible Study. Let me know how you spend your Quiet Time. Do you follow a plan, read a devotional, or do you just read and listen to what God is telling you? All of these are fine, as long as your spending this time with God.


I’ll check in with you all later.


Until next time…

MONTHLY REFLECTIONS: SEPTEMBER 2020

Good morning.


We’re back to another work week, and like always, I want to start you off with a little inspiration.


Today’s post is going to talk about what I learned during the month of September. We only have a few days left, and then we’ll roll right into October. Crazy, only a few months left of 2020.


Let’s get started.


LET’S GET PHYSICAL: I created a plan for my physical health over the next three months. My A1C and blood pressure were impacted the most during my last visit, so I have 3 months to turn things around for the better. Like I mentioned in my last post, I downloaded the app Fabulous, which is like a habit tracker app. So far, so good, the app is helping with drinking more water and changing my eating habits. I’ll give you all a full update later on this week.


FOCUS ON THE MENTAL: Mentally, I’m doing better than I was Thursday. After the doctor’s visit, my mind went to a different place and I couldn’t focus on anything, I took the rest of that day to reflect and let everything sink in. Then, I used the rest of the day to journal and get out of the rut I created. The next few days were good, I took things easy since it was “That Time.” Then, last night, I spent the evening listening to InTouch and texted a good friend of mine about my day.


CLOSER TO THE FINISH LINE: Classes are going great. I passed my Visual Communications, and starting off strong in my Intercultural Communications class. My peers and instructor continue to inspire me to keep up with blogging, and my teacher really enjoys my writing. Only a few more months left, and I’ll have that degree.


READ MORE BOOKS: I’m still making it a goal to read more books. “Eat. Pray. Love” is still in rotation, and I decided to add another book to read for my personal growth. I bought a finance book to help me learn more about financing and how I can be more disciplined with my spending.


PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT: Besides reading more books, I’ve created a list of things that I felt can help me with my personal growth. From learning more about productivity to learning more about minimalism so I can reduce stress for my mental health.
Overall, September was a wake-up call. The rest of 2020 is the time for me to put these plans into actions and make things happen. I’m still smiling at my future. It’s looking bright.


Ok, time for me to get back to work. Check in on you all later.


Until next time…

❤️

A DAY IN THE LIFE- UPDATE

Good evening


I’m ending the night with another weekly update. Hope everyone enjoyed their weekend, I know I did.


HEALTH: As you all know, my latest visit to the doctor was a major wake-up call. In case you missed it, here is my post about my visit, just click here. I finally told both Mom and Dad about what really happened. They’re both on board at making sure I’m top of my health this go round. I pulled out my health binder when I started my Diabetic Class back in 2018, to use as a guideline for improving my health for the remainder of 2020.


SCHOOL: ONLY 7 MONTHS!!! I love my new class, our instructor gives us questions that really cause us to do some critical thinking. On my last discussion posts, he encouraged me to continue writing the way I’ve been doing. I guess writing really is in my future. I’m doing something right.


PERSONAL GROWTH: So, good news I started reading this month. The bad news, I haven’t finished the book. I’ve come to the conclusion that I am a very slow reader. So my goal of 25 pages a day, I’m still going to keep and work at it, even if it means I finish only one book for the whole month. Also, I downloaded the Fabulous app, and have started practicing small habits. It works, I bought a stainless steel water bottle and have been drinking water in the mornings for the past few days now. Then, due to my health, I went grocery shopping for all healthy items and I’m practicing meal prep and healthy snacking this week. So be on the lookout for some posts about that.


SPIRITUAL GROWTH: I’ve been having Quiet Time in the mornings, but after listening to the reading on Thursday, and listening to InTouch Ministries and Faith Church, God has been speaking to me to change my life around. We had outside service at church today, and even though we couldn’t be in contact with one another, it was powerful to see everyone show up in their cars, and still be able to participate. I’ll have to share the experience with you the next time we do it.


MENTAL: Overall, these past few days have been calm. I had severe headaches this weekend due to my “Monthly Gift” so my original plans for working on my Passion Projects, were replaced with much needed rest. I can’t believe how fast September went by. We only have a few days left, and I’m looking forward to October.


No change in the leaves yet, but it’s coming. Well, time for me to get some rest and call it a night. I’ll see y’all in the morning.


Until next time…

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WE’RE GONNA BE ALRIGHT

Good morning.


Happy Friday!


I know yesterday’s post was a bit much to handle. If you haven’t, check out the post here. It was a lot for me to handle too. But I wanted to share this post with you all to let you know I’m ok, and that things are going to be alright.


Thursday was a day that I didn’t expect to have an unexpected outcome. After finishing the remainder of my homework, and crying some more. I sat in the front room and put on something to make me happy.


That was “The Incredible Dr. Pol.”
Now, I’m probably getting confused looks like “Gabby, why are you watching that?” Well to answer your question, aside from the usual operating on cows, horses, and farm animals, my favorite parts are puppies. Puppies are cute, fluffy, and adorable.


After watching that for a few hours, I ended my night with a sermon from Faith Church that talk about people that plan and people that do. For some reason, Ariana Grande’s song, “Be Alright.” I sat there and started singing it, belting it out.


It seems that by doing all of these things, it calmed me down, and made me feel better. But during the small time of Quiet Time, I realized what I need to do to change. Here’s what I’ve done so far:

  • I started my first Trulicity pen for my blood sugar- next one will be next Friday. I’ll give you all an update soon.
  • I checked my blood pressure and unfortunately, it’s still a work in progress.
  • I woke up this morning, reminded that God gave me a second chance and that things could be a lot worst. So I’m grateful for my current situation, but I know I need to do better.

Overall, I’m in good spirits and it’s “Shark Week” so time for slowing down and relaxing. I’ll check in with you later.

Until next time…

I’M ONLY A STUDENT

Good morning

So I thought I would talk about what I learned listening to this morning’s story on the Bible app. The scripture comes from 2 Timothy 2:15.

Be diligent to present yourself approved to God as a workman who does not need to be ashamed, accurately handling the word of truth.
2 Timothy 2:15 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/2ti.2.15.NASB


The reading talked about how we should present ourselves to God. It also talked about how we should practice to work in excellence in everything that we do. But the most important thing I took away from the reading, for me, was the reminder that I must be a student before I become a teacher.


During my time blogging, I have enlightened you all with my morning Quiet Time posts. I don’t have a problem sharing my Bible Study insight with you all. It is a problem when I second guess myself on what I got out of the lesson and if I shared with you the right information. Yes, I have scripture to back up my findings, but if I don’t have faith in what I’m telling my audience, then what does that say about me?


Again, I’m still learning so I hope you all don’t mind a small change starting today that I will be posting my Quiet Time entries in the evening. I think it’s better not only because of my schedule, but it gives me the much needed time I need to spend with God, and really take the time to read and understand the scripture, as well as practice memorizing scripture and meditating on the Word and prayer daily.


Sorry for making this sound so dramatic. But I said I share nothing but my honest truth on this blog. So before I can teach you all about the Word and the meaning behind it, I still need to learn and study the Word for myself. I hope that’s ok with you.
Hope everyone enjoyed today’s reading. I’ll check in with you all later on.

Until next time…

GOD’S LOVE DRIVES OUT FEAR

Good morning

We’re back in the groove of another work week. What better way to kick it off than with a bit of encouragement from my AM Quiet Time. Today’s lesson talks about the power of God’s Love. The scripture and the Verse of the Day comes from 1 John 4:18.

There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves punishment, and the one who fears is not perfected in love.
1 John 4:18 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/1jn.4.18.NASB

GOD’S LOVE: The lesson begins by comparing God’s love to fear and pain, and that it is bigger than the two. When encountering God’s love, we become more aware of His desire to be with us and that He pours out His love on us. Also, God’s love melts away our fears and insecurities. The presence of God is important to have in our lives and our desire will be to abide with God and have His love and presence abide with us. The lesson continues with John, and his confidence in the Love of God. He had so much confidence that deep down, he knew God loved him personally and wanted to be with Him.

AVAILABLE & AWARE: When we stop saying that we’re too busy to make time for God, the more confident we become in who God is, the more intentional we become with spending time with Him and listening to His voice. If we make ourselves more available and aware of His presence, the more secure we become in who we are and there’s nothing more or less we can do to attain or separate us from the Love of God. This part resonated with me because I used to always tell myself that I need to make Quiet Time a priority again, only to look up and it was pushed on the back-burner or I would have Quiet Time, only to rush through it and not gain any insight out of it. If I just wake up, and pick up my Bible in the morning, then I’m not feeling worried or anxious about things, I’m not being passive on things that can affect my life.

FEAR: Fear is one of the greatest hindrances to a relationship with God. Fear of not being worthy of love, not measuring up, fear of punishment, and fear of being exposed, all of these insecurities keep us from being who we are truly meant to be. This really stood out to me because this goes back to me working on my passion projects. I have great ideas and goals in life to help individuals with mental health. I’m taking a leap with this blog, but at first I was scared of not being the best blogger, scared that I wasn’t going to turn it into a career, scared that I was going to fail miserably at it. Once I got started, and started praying over it, those fears went away. I still remind myself to not play the comparison game, but I’m proud that I didn’t let my fear take over or else I wouldn’t have met so many new people through this blog.

CONCLUSION: If you let fear consume you, then you’ll never know how great you can truly be in this world. Let God help you overcome your fears and insecurities and allow His love and presence to enter into your life so that you can be something great, so that you can be the light that He wants you to be. Well, hope you all are inspired and motivated to get your work week started on this lovely Monday. I’ll check in with you all later on.

Until next time…

❤️