THANK YOU BRENDA & A NEW CLASS

Good morning

I just wanted to take a minute to say thank you to Brenda of Becoming HIS Tapestry for her recent post. You all should definitely check out her site for a good read. I enjoy it, and you will too.

This goes back to my last post for thanking you all for following me, reading my posts, and engaging with me through the comments. Click here to check it out. It’s helping me stay consistent with blogging and wanting to share with you all the things I learned, new things that I’m working on and trying out, and just wanting to let you all in the loop on how I live my life while managing my mental illness.

Speaking of trying new things, my next class talks about visual communication, which means I’m going to learn how to record videos. I remember telling you all in the past that the world of YouTube intrigued me into wanting to start vlogging. Maybe this is a sign that it’s time for me to learn so I can use different platforms to share β€œThe Gabby Diaries.”

Only one problem…. I’m a little shy when it comes to recording myself on video. 😬😳😬😳😬

I guess this class also means I need to try and get over my stage fright. Wish me luck, I start my new class next week, but it’s crunch time now. Week 5 of Media Writing for Communication, and I have to work on my final paper. 😳

Again, thank you Brenda for joining me on this journey. Today is Day 5 so I’ll be back with another post later on today.

Until next time…

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ROAD TO 200- DAY 4

Hey everyone

Hope you all are enjoying this lovely Thursday evening.

Just stopping by to announced that Day 4 is complete. 😊

Another day of the 30 minute Walk Away The Pounds video. This time, my energy level was maybe at 80 percent, which is not bad. But you know how you feel energized one day working out, and then the following day like you’re going to pass out? It was like that, like my body was ready to give out any minute.

Not to mention that at the time I’m writing this post, I haven’t eaten anything yet. So, I think I’ll make myself a light snack before bed or make myself some tea.

But, yep, four days down… so many more to go. And this is just the beginning.

For now, time for bed.

Until next time…

ROAD TO 200- DAY 3

Good morning

Well I’m a little late with this post so my apologies. Long story short, yesterday was an intense 30 minutes.

I got off of work, from 3:30 until 4, I was locked in a 30 minute Walk Away the Pounds sequence. I was a little nervous at first because I was just starting back and I was only doing 10- 20 minute videos.

Finally, I got up and I said:

“Gabby, you can do this. Push yourself a little bit.”

So… I started off great. Then about the 20 minute mark, I could start to feel myself getting tired. Instead of stopping (like I used to do), I kept it up for the full 30 minutes. Sweating, and breathing hard, I did my victory dance, drank my water, and took a relaxing shower.

That’s when my body was telling me that I needed sleep. The game plan was to complete my assignments for the week, that I have time to focus on my paper (this is how I normally do things for Week 05) of class. Well, let’s just say that once I sat down in my comfy chair, I was yawning more than I was reading. So today I will complete my assignments.

The rest of the day, Dad and I watched movies, and had a small daddy-daughter moment. Unfortunately, he giggled when he caught me dozing off in the chair. That was my cue to go to bed.

This is how tired I was:

  • 9:10PM- Jared texts me to do a zoom call
  • 9:25PM- Missed duo call from Jared
  • 11:10PM- Jared texts me back again to call him

I missed them all. πŸ˜–πŸ˜–πŸ˜– So, later on, I got to call Jared to let him know I’m ok and that I’m alive, and see what’s going on with him. Sorry Jared πŸ€—.

Lesson for yesterday: Exercise can improve your sleep. I got seven hours and did not wake up until my alarm went off. So one reason I now enjoy working out: I get better sleep 😴😴😴😴

Alright y’all, I’ll check in with you all later on. We’re on Day 4, let’s keep up the good work. 😊

Until next time…

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ROAD TO 200- DAY 2

Good evening

Another workout day in the books 😊

Woke up, and had all intentions of an early morning workout. But due to a rough night’s sleep, I slept in and decided to do another Walk Away The Pounds video after work.

So I had a moment earlier today, where I felt like I had a setback. For lunch, I ordered Doordash, and got myself a Grilled Chicken Adobe Bowl. The original plan was to only eat half of the bowl and save the rest for dinner.

Yep, that didn’t work at all. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

On my break, I was making sure I had things for work, I was checking things out for school, and putting some things together for my passion projects. Long story short, I gobbled every bite of the bowl, feeling a tad bit stuffed.

I was beginning to beat myself up over what happened. That’s when I turned to Fitbit and see this:

I was happy to see this because I was going to get caught in the rabbit hole of blame and shame. I’m just starting out, it’s going to take time for me to get use to this new routine. Let’s do this.

After reading, and once I finished work and voting, I put on my sneakers, my Sweat Band, and started my workout. I could feel a slight difference in energy while I was moving.

I must be doing something right. I kept a mental note of this moment to remind myself that if something works, stick with it. It’s helping you. So Day 2 down, more days to go until I reach 200. πŸ₯°

Ok, time for me to do schoolwork. It’s Week 05, and I need to start working on my paper early.

Until next time…

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ROAD TO 200- DAY 1

Hey everyone

Today is the first day of “Road to 200,” a mini blog series where I’ll share my progress with weight loss, and improving my overall health. Thank you to Olivia for the inspiration. Check out her blog and show her some love:

Olivia Lucie Blake- How To Stay Motivated: 5 Tips for Bloggers

So, let’s begin…

Today was off to a little bit of a groggy start. I had a lot on my mind (read the last blog post here). So, started off the day journaling. And, let’s just say I have some more self-discovering to do. But that’s ok, more on that later on.

Worked my normal hours from six to three. Part of the day, Dad came home from work, changed and went for a jog. I paused and on a sticky note, wrote down:

Workout with Dad when he comes home from work.

After I finished for the day, I went into my room, found a 20-minute Walk Away The Pounds video, put on my Sweat Band, and started putting in work. Then, I stretched, and then I took screenshots of my info. from Fitbit for motivation.

Currently thinking of workouts to start off this week, as well as meal-prepping tonight so I can have some yummy, healthy treats to indulge in. But, that was my news, I’m kicking off August with a mini series.

Hope you all enjoy as you travel on this journey with me.

I also hope this is motivation and inspiration to anyone that wants to start back working out again, or has a fallen off track and is trying to start it up again.

Alright, I have to go take a shower now. I will talk to you lovely people tomorrow.

Until next time…

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FINALLY LETTING GO OF THE PAIN

Good morning

So woke up this morning and journaled for an hour. I wrote down about everything from my past. The bad thing, most of those things I realized that I was carrying with me as I got older.

Some of you may not know, but I was bullied growing up. From elementary school to high school, I was the main target of bullying. I had past relationships were toxic relationships filled with nothing but mental and verbal abuse.

Long story short, after writing four pages of what was bothering me and holding in these emotions, I felt better and then asked myself these questions:

  • Are these experiences and emotions the root of my physical and mental health issues?
  • Am I eating my emotions?
  • Why is it easy for me to walk around like nothing is wrong and hard for me to express these emotions when they occur?

I’m shocked that’s it’s taken me to get to my late 20’s to realize that feeling these emotions and holding them in for so long is the cause for my overall health. I guess my weight was screaming the answer to me the whole time, I just didn’t understand back then.

Now I know, I need to continue to work on practicing my coping methods and learn how to check my emotions. I don’t think to ask myself:

  • How are you?
  • What are you thinking about?
  • Are you drinking water?
  • Are you sleeping well?
  • How’s your diet?
  • Are you taking your medicine?

I don’t stop and check on myself to make sure I’m ok. So I just wanted to post this to say take time to check your emotions so they don’t spiral out of control. Learn how to express them so you’re not holding them in. If you don’t know how to do that, try journaling or talk to a professional that can help you and guide you in the right direction.

Don’t worry, I’ll be ok. I just wanted to get that off my chest and share this with you all.

I’ll check in with you guys later on. 😊

Until next time…

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MONTHLY REFLECTIONS: AUG. 2020

Good evening

Hope everyone is enjoying this Sunday. Just wanted to share today’s Verse of the Day as well as what my goals are for the new month.

So what will August have in store for me?

PHYSICAL HEALTH πŸ’ͺ🏾- Dad and I are starting our week off right, and taking time during the week to workout together. Mom said she’ll still come over so we can all workout together. Still researching to see what’s the ideal weight for me after I reach 200 pounds. Project Road to 200 starts now.

MENTAL HEALTH πŸ§˜πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ- I’m improving on taking time to listen to my body. But August, I want to work on checking my emotions. Through journaling and writing, I think I’ll be able to have a better understanding of why certain triggers occur or why do I find myself stuck in a never-ending cycle. It’s time for me to really start the healing process.

BLOGGING πŸ’»- I’m proud of myself for sticking with my blogging. Currently planning and creating content, all while taking in special notes from my current class. I’m acing this class at the end of this week. “The Gabby Diaries” is still going strong, let’s keep it up!

FINANCIAL πŸ’°- NO SPENDING CHALLENGE has started. Only buy what I need, not what I want. Ultimate goal is to create an emergency fund for a rainy day, or a tropical storm. Plus, it’s better to learn how to live on less and save more right?

CREATIVE PROJECTS 🎨- Blogging was the start of it, but 2020 is still a year of learning and improving on my crafts. I love art and I love learning new things. So August, I’ve got some projects I want to share with you. More to come on “The Gabby Diaries.”

Well, that’s what August looks like for me. So let me take some time to take care of myself and prepare for all the wonderful things I have in store.

Until next time …

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YOU ARE GOD’S TEMPLE

Hey everyone πŸ‘‹πŸΎ

I’m back. Earlier this morning, I had my quiet time. But due to my migraine earlier, I rushed through it. But I was able get some takeaway from it. The verse of the day is from 1 Corinthians 3:16:

“Do you not know that you are a temple of God and that the Spirit of God dwells in you?
-1 Corinthians 3:16 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/1co.3.16.NASB

After reading that verse, it gave me time to reflect over how I view my body and the changes it went through this past year.

The summer of 2018 was when I was notified I developed Type 2 Diabetes. For that was a wake-up call so I got on it. I cut out soda and sugar completely, I cut back on eating a lot of dairy, I was working out three to four times a week, and increased it to six days a week. I lost 12 pounds last year, and I had more energy, and less stress. I was happy.

October 2019, I got sick and then January of this year, I got sick again (chronic seasonal allergies back to back). I fell off track, and then March, I adapted to a new lifestyle of working from home (still love working from home by the way).

It’s was a struggle at first from March until now, but I’m making slow steady progress. But the verse reminded me that my body is a temple, it’s God’s temple and I need to take better care of it because God loves me and cares for me.

Lesson for today: Your body is important to God, your health is important to God, YOU are important to God because you are God’s Temple, His spirit dwells in you. πŸ’–

Until next time…

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WHAT DOES BIPOLAR 2 LOOK LIKE?

Good morning

So some of you may know this, and some may not, but I suffer from Bipolar 2 Disorder. Now before I go any further on this post, you’re asking yourself this question:

What is Bipolar 2?

Well, according to WebMd, Bipolar 2 is a disorder that has more depressive episodes than manic episodes.

β€œHowever, in bipolar II disorder, the “up” moods never reach full-blown mania. The less-intense elevated moods in bipolar II disorder are called hypomanic episodes, or hypomania. A person affected by bipolar II disorder has had at least one hypomanic episode in his or her life. Most people with bipolar II disorder suffer more often from episodes of depression. This is where the term “manic depression” comes from” (2020)

Now that I’ve given the verbal definition, let me give you a visual. Let’s take today as an example. I had a migraine yesterday due to my “monthly gift 🎁” arriving, so I took medicine. But from that evening until now, my migraine lingered.

It’s subsided now, but during that time, I was moving slower because I didn’t feel good. It was like I woke up like a zombie. And to be honest, these are the times when my depressive episodes kick off, because I get migraines, I sometimes get cramps, I’m tired for the entire weekend, and not because I didn’t get enough sleep.

If you ever seen “Inside Out”, I’m the little blue woman, minus the tears, for like 4-5 days during my cycle. I’m sighing, and I zone out… a lot!

Thank goodness I keep a journal and a blog because the thoughts that go on in my mind on days like this will shock you. It would probably be easier if I can draw it…

Future art project in the making???

We shall see. ✨

Just wanted to share this little tidbit with you so you all can get to know me better.

Until next time…

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Reference:

Bipolar II Disorder (2020, Apr 14). WebMd. Retrieved from https://www.webmd.com/bipolar-disorder/guide/bipolar-2-disorder#1

BACK IN THE GROOVE- UPDATE

Good morning

So earlier this month, my new starting weight was… 286!

Well…

As of today, thanks to cutting out sodas, changing up eating habits, more sleep and exercise, I’m down eight pounds. I’m back where I was last year of 278. πŸ₯³πŸ˜ŠπŸ₯³πŸ˜ŠπŸ₯³πŸ˜ŠπŸ₯³

KEEP IT UP!!!

Mom said she’ll come over and we’ll walk around the complex, and Dad said we’re going to start jumping rope. I was a little thrown off at first because I would expect this coming from Mom, but he’s been supportive of me getting healthy again and also getting back into his routine even though the gyms are still closed due to COVID.

For Mom and I, it’s been the same struggle. One of the local community centers is still closed until further notice since the pandemic started. The other one, has opened up the water park and skatepark, but not the main building where the gym and workout equipment is.

So, it’s been a struggle for everyone, but we’re making it work. I’m going to continue to keep you all updated on my journey. I still have a long way to go, but I’m going to keep it up to stay healthy.

Until next time…

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MENTAL HEALTH & FRIENDS

Good morning

This weekend, I’ve spent most of my time talking to my friends, checking up on them, as well as checking in to let them know that I’m ok. Out of my group of friends, only three of them understand that I have a busy schedule due to work and school. And I understand they have busy schedules as well.

However, the last friend, feels that I have been avoiding him because I haven’t been calling him as much. If I can’t call him, I do try to text him. Now, he’s made the decision that texting doesn’t work for him anymore.

I guess he was trying to make me feel upset because he was making more of an effort to call me and I wasn’t due to my schedule. It took my friend, Jared to remind me to not let the little things stress me out:

“If he doesn’t understand that you are doing all of this to better yourself, achieve your goals, and turn those goals into a vision of helping others, than he doesn’t get it. Don’t let his negative energy drain you. I’m so proud of you, keep doing your best to pursue your dreams.”

In the past, people that I would call my friends would either take advantage of me or would always think negative about ideas that I had, to the point I would be scared to take the risk. Now, I have a close-knit circle of friends that not only inspire me, but I also inspire and encourage them to pursue their dreams and become better versions of themselves.

I write all of this to say, people will reveal to you if they’re your true friends or not. If so, hang onto them and help each other grow and win together. If not, get out of that toxic relationship before it starts to consume you, physically and mentally.

Well, back to creating and brainstorming. I’ll shall return.

Until later…

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MAKING PROGRESS

Good evening

It is late here in the STL, so I just wanted to give you guys an update.

“Project Move Room & Declutter” was off to a great start. After going grocery shopping with Mom, I came back home and started clearing out items and pieces from my room, and moved my bed in the spot I wanted it. Then, the big challenge, going through my wardrobe and keeping, donating, and throwing away pieces of clothes that I did not need anymore or I never wore.

Good news, I got a lot done and have a nice pile going. Bad news, I did not get around to working on my Week 04 outline or spent time to pamper myself with some self-care.

Note to self: Make time for Gabby because she is important!!!

So, fast forward to today. I spent the morning watching InTouch, tagged along with Mom to help Nana activate her new smartphone. Spent time with Mom and Dad, and for the past two hours, I was able to finish my outline for my paper.

I’ll write the paper tomorrow so I’ll have to in full tunnel vision mode to knock it out before 11PM tomorrow night. I’m doing so well in the class and I don’t want to lose that momentum. So, I’m going to be okay and I’m going to ace this class with an A at the end of week 05.

Well, time for bed, it’s back to grinding tomorrow.

Until next time…

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