THANK YOU BRENDA & A NEW CLASS

Good morning

I just wanted to take a minute to say thank you to Brenda of Becoming HIS Tapestry for her recent post. You all should definitely check out her site for a good read. I enjoy it, and you will too.

This goes back to my last post for thanking you all for following me, reading my posts, and engaging with me through the comments. Click here to check it out. It’s helping me stay consistent with blogging and wanting to share with you all the things I learned, new things that I’m working on and trying out, and just wanting to let you all in the loop on how I live my life while managing my mental illness.

Speaking of trying new things, my next class talks about visual communication, which means I’m going to learn how to record videos. I remember telling you all in the past that the world of YouTube intrigued me into wanting to start vlogging. Maybe this is a sign that it’s time for me to learn so I can use different platforms to share “The Gabby Diaries.”

Only one problem…. I’m a little shy when it comes to recording myself on video. 😬😳😬😳😬

I guess this class also means I need to try and get over my stage fright. Wish me luck, I start my new class next week, but it’s crunch time now. Week 5 of Media Writing for Communication, and I have to work on my final paper. 😳

Again, thank you Brenda for joining me on this journey. Today is Day 5 so I’ll be back with another post later on today.

Until next time…

❤️

FINALLY LETTING GO OF THE PAIN

Good morning

So woke up this morning and journaled for an hour. I wrote down about everything from my past. The bad thing, most of those things I realized that I was carrying with me as I got older.

Some of you may not know, but I was bullied growing up. From elementary school to high school, I was the main target of bullying. I had past relationships were toxic relationships filled with nothing but mental and verbal abuse.

Long story short, after writing four pages of what was bothering me and holding in these emotions, I felt better and then asked myself these questions:

  • Are these experiences and emotions the root of my physical and mental health issues?
  • Am I eating my emotions?
  • Why is it easy for me to walk around like nothing is wrong and hard for me to express these emotions when they occur?

I’m shocked that’s it’s taken me to get to my late 20’s to realize that feeling these emotions and holding them in for so long is the cause for my overall health. I guess my weight was screaming the answer to me the whole time, I just didn’t understand back then.

Now I know, I need to continue to work on practicing my coping methods and learn how to check my emotions. I don’t think to ask myself:

  • How are you?
  • What are you thinking about?
  • Are you drinking water?
  • Are you sleeping well?
  • How’s your diet?
  • Are you taking your medicine?

I don’t stop and check on myself to make sure I’m ok. So I just wanted to post this to say take time to check your emotions so they don’t spiral out of control. Learn how to express them so you’re not holding them in. If you don’t know how to do that, try journaling or talk to a professional that can help you and guide you in the right direction.

Don’t worry, I’ll be ok. I just wanted to get that off my chest and share this with you all.

I’ll check in with you guys later on. 😊

Until next time…

❤️

MONTHLY REFLECTIONS: AUG. 2020

Good evening

Hope everyone is enjoying this Sunday. Just wanted to share today’s Verse of the Day as well as what my goals are for the new month.

So what will August have in store for me?

PHYSICAL HEALTH 💪🏾- Dad and I are starting our week off right, and taking time during the week to workout together. Mom said she’ll still come over so we can all workout together. Still researching to see what’s the ideal weight for me after I reach 200 pounds. Project Road to 200 starts now.

MENTAL HEALTH 🧘🏾‍♀️- I’m improving on taking time to listen to my body. But August, I want to work on checking my emotions. Through journaling and writing, I think I’ll be able to have a better understanding of why certain triggers occur or why do I find myself stuck in a never-ending cycle. It’s time for me to really start the healing process.

BLOGGING 💻- I’m proud of myself for sticking with my blogging. Currently planning and creating content, all while taking in special notes from my current class. I’m acing this class at the end of this week. “The Gabby Diaries” is still going strong, let’s keep it up!

FINANCIAL 💰- NO SPENDING CHALLENGE has started. Only buy what I need, not what I want. Ultimate goal is to create an emergency fund for a rainy day, or a tropical storm. Plus, it’s better to learn how to live on less and save more right?

CREATIVE PROJECTS 🎨- Blogging was the start of it, but 2020 is still a year of learning and improving on my crafts. I love art and I love learning new things. So August, I’ve got some projects I want to share with you. More to come on “The Gabby Diaries.”

Well, that’s what August looks like for me. So let me take some time to take care of myself and prepare for all the wonderful things I have in store.

Until next time …

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JOURNALING

Good morning

Just wanted to share with you all my progress of journaling. Back in June, I told myself that I would start back healthy habits that I used to do in the past.

I decided to journal for 30 days. As you can see, we are on the last day of July. So I think I hit past the 30 day mark.

This yellow leuchttrum 1917 has been my best friend since June 17th. Inside, the pages are filled with orange or red colored ink (I lost some good pens during this journey). Also, she enjoys Lisa Frank stickers and Yogi tea quotes.

It made me smile when I first started writing and decorating it because it brought back memories of when I was little, picking up a plain notebook, and creating a collage cover for the front.

Now that I’m older, I enjoy treating myself to more nicer journals like this one. I think journals will be the only thing I’ll continue to invest in for myself since I enjoy writing so much.

I think I’ll pick up practicing Bullet Journaling again. Last year, I kept a journal filled with designs for layouts and trackers. Now, I want to create one for the year of 2021.

I guess that’s the good thing about “the monthly gift 🎁.” I may get tired, but I notice that’s when I have the most creativity. Crazy right?

Let me know in the comments if any of you keep a journal, and what you guys like to write in your journal.

Happy Journaling (or BuJo-ing)

Until next time…

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WHAT DOES BIPOLAR 2 LOOK LIKE?

Good morning

So some of you may know this, and some may not, but I suffer from Bipolar 2 Disorder. Now before I go any further on this post, you’re asking yourself this question:

What is Bipolar 2?

Well, according to WebMd, Bipolar 2 is a disorder that has more depressive episodes than manic episodes.

“However, in bipolar II disorder, the “up” moods never reach full-blown mania. The less-intense elevated moods in bipolar II disorder are called hypomanic episodes, or hypomania. A person affected by bipolar II disorder has had at least one hypomanic episode in his or her life. Most people with bipolar II disorder suffer more often from episodes of depression. This is where the term “manic depression” comes from” (2020)

Now that I’ve given the verbal definition, let me give you a visual. Let’s take today as an example. I had a migraine yesterday due to my “monthly gift 🎁” arriving, so I took medicine. But from that evening until now, my migraine lingered.

It’s subsided now, but during that time, I was moving slower because I didn’t feel good. It was like I woke up like a zombie. And to be honest, these are the times when my depressive episodes kick off, because I get migraines, I sometimes get cramps, I’m tired for the entire weekend, and not because I didn’t get enough sleep.

If you ever seen “Inside Out”, I’m the little blue woman, minus the tears, for like 4-5 days during my cycle. I’m sighing, and I zone out… a lot!

Thank goodness I keep a journal and a blog because the thoughts that go on in my mind on days like this will shock you. It would probably be easier if I can draw it…

Future art project in the making???

We shall see. ✨

Just wanted to share this little tidbit with you so you all can get to know me better.

Until next time…

❤️

Reference:

Bipolar II Disorder (2020, Apr 14). WebMd. Retrieved from https://www.webmd.com/bipolar-disorder/guide/bipolar-2-disorder#1

THANK YOU SO MUCH

Good morning

In the midst of all the sadness from yesterday and reading the Word (that is important), I forgot to say thank you to you all for the 102 followers!!!!!

This is motivation and inspiration for me to continue to write and create more posts and stories for “The Gabby Diaries.” I shared my blog with my classmates in the course I’m taking now, and thanks to their words of encouragement, just like you guys, it’s the boost I need to keep doing my best to blog and engage with everyone. So again, a HUGE thank you 😊😊😊😊😊!!!!

Ok, it’s time for me to be productive and brainstorm some more ideas and work on my projects.

Until next time…

❤️

DAY IN THE LIFE- UPDATE

Good evening

So, we’ve completed the first full week of July. Here is just a recap of what’s happened so far and what I’ve learned:

A 5-DAY WEEKEND: After relaxing on Monday and Tuesday of this week, it was back to reality when I returned to work on Wednesday. It was the thing I needed, and I’m glad I did it. Started working, and from Wednesday to Friday, work was stress-free.

MOM’S NEW HOUSE: Friday evening, I spent the remainder of the day with Mom to look at her future home, which is lovely. I can’t for her to start this new chapter in her life. After viewing her new house, we spent the rest of the evening at my brother’s, eating a yummy shrimp salad- SO GOOD!

CREATIVITY & BRAINSTORMING: Came home later that night and spent an hour laughing, talking, and brainstorming new ideas with my friend, Jared. It’s great to have a group of friends that not only have the same interests as you, but they’re also working towards the same goals. In my group, I see all of us being creatives and working on something that makes us happy and creates things that can help other individuals with their problems.

SCHOOL & HEALTH: School is still going great, I’m awaiting my final grade for my previous class, and I’m wrapping up my first week of my media writing class. I’ve never been this excited about school in a long time since going to my community college and taking all art classes back in 2009. Still using this time to focus on personal development. My health is still a top priority, so last night and the past few days, I’ve done some reflecting on my choices, my actions, and I know what I need to do now. If your health is not a top priority, then it’s going to be hard for you to focus on anything else if you have low energy. So today is all about planning and getting things together so that I can be ready for the week and for the remainder of 2020.

I know to take baby steps so don’t worry, I’m going to pace myself and track my progress as I go.

Until next time…

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MENTAL HEALTH & TAKING BREAKS

Good evening!

I hope everyone had a great Fourth of July weekend. I know I did, I took today and yesterday off from work. With that being said, I thought this would be a great post.

So, Gabby, why did you decide to extend your three day weekend to a five day weekend?

To be honest… I needed a break!

It all started last Monday, I woke up later due to a rough night of sleeping with an intense migraine that did not subside until 3AM. Yes, I suffer from chronic migraines, but they only get severe when it’s “My Monthly Gift” (I know, T.M.I- my apologies). This was one of those moments.

So, after suffering from a migraine, trying to balance a HUGE workload, and wrapping up my final week of my previous class, I started feeling overwhelmed, to the point that I walked away from my workstation for five minutes, rubbed my eyes and my face, screamed in a pillow, and started back working again- yes, IT WAS INTENSE!

On Tuesday, I requested the time off. At first, I was questioning my decision: Should I do this? Do I deserve it? It took an hour phone conversation with my friend Jasmine to help me realize that I needed to do it:

“Gabby, you’re one of the most creative people I know. You’re working a job, and taking classes to pursue something bigger and better. You’ve reached a point where you’ve done nothing but work, work, work, that you forgot to take time for yourself. It’s ok, you deserve this time off. Enjoy it!”

And that’s what I did.

Friday started off with journaling, reading, and spending the rest of the day with Mom as we enjoyed “Hamilton” on DisneyPlus (IT WAS AWESOME!!!). Not to mention, I received the IDEAL INSPIRATION BLOGGER AWARD, which was not only a highlight to my day but the inspiration I needed to keep blogging. Saturday and Sunday were spent cleaning and decluttering parts of my life, while Monday and today were spent trying to recharge and rest after a weekend of “My Gift”- migraine is slowly starting to subside now.

Long story short, this taught me that it’s ok to take breaks, whether it’s an extra two days to a three day weekend, or a week to just get away from it all. It’s a reminder for me that I still need to slow down sometimes. I should write a mantra or manifesto for myself involving BALANCE and SLOWING DOWN.

Question for the evening: Have you had days or weeks that overwhelmed you to the point that you needed to take a break? If so, what did you do?

Ok, sorry for rambling. Just thought I put this out there and share this with you all. I’m going to try and read or listen to an audiobook to help ease my migraine…. or just sleep 😴

Until next time…

❤️

IDEAL INSPIRATION BLOGGER AWARD 2020

Good evening all!

Tonight’s post is a great one. I want to give a HUGE thank you to Princess, author of “The Mindful Modus.” 😍🥳😍🥳😍 I read her posts and I get a feeling of calmness and peace when I visit her blog. So thank you Princess for the nomination, this really made me smile. You are a sweetheart! Here is one of her posts that I keep on my “blogging playlist”: 5 Easy Tricks To Get Productive

For more good reading, check out her blog here: The Mindful Modus

I also want to say thank you to the people that follow me. I’m still trying to “find my groove” with posting content and everything that comes with the blogging territory, but this motivates me even more to continue working at it, and try to help readers with my content. So thank you so much! So, let’s get started, shall we? 

QUESTIONS FROM THE MINDFUL MODUS:

Which of your blog posts is your favorite?

I have so many, but my favorite posts are the ones where I talk about my self-care and my health journeys. I enjoy reading them because I have days where I may have setbacks, and reading those posts are daily reminders for me to brush my shoulders off, get back at it, do the best you can, and stick with it.

What’s keeping you busy these days?

At the moment, I am pursuing my BA in Communication Studies from Ashford University, as well as doing my job while working from home since March. Other times, working on my passions like writing, blogging, and art.

What’s something that recently made you happy?

Seeing this nomination 😍😍😍 and spending time with Mom watching Hamilton on DisneyPlus, awesome musical!!!

What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?

My friend told me that I’m a unique person that is creative, a free-spirit, and someone that is very loyal. Even though I may seem shy and quiet at first, I’ll warm up to you once you get to know me. My family will tell you that I’m goofy, and that I have a laid back personality, and that I am such a big kid at heart.

If you could teach one subject in school what would it be?

Journaling, I’ve always kept a journal ever since I was little. I just started back journaling a few weeks ago, and during that time, I’m learning more and more about myself as a person. I love it because it helps me see what triggers my depression, how I’ve grown as a person, crazy thoughts that run through my head, it’s like reading a good novel for me.

Here are the nine bloggers that I picked for this award.

NOMINEES:

Hopelessslystrong- I h a t e confrontation.

The Strong Traveller- 10 Ways to Look After Your Mental Health

Inner Peace- Power of Concentration

BriN- A Day in My Life during Lockdown|2020

Becoming HIS Tapestry- 2020…WHO KNEW?

Ron Tamir Nehr- How to Cope with Being an Introvert in an Extroverted World

Natural Skin Care Love- Beauty on a Budget- 5 Affordable Tips for Great Skin on a Tight Budget

The Bipolar Writer Mental Health Blog- The Bipolar Writer Doubts

Girl With A Blog- Keep Calm, Stay Cool

Ok, so now it’s your tune guys and gals. Just follow the rules and pass it on.

RULES:

1. Thank the person who have nominated you and provide a link back to his/her blog.

2. Answer their questions.

3. Nominate up to 9 other bloggers and ask them 5 new questions.

4. Notify the nominees through their blog by visiting and commenting on their blog.

5. List the rules and display the “Ideal Inspiration Blogger Award” logo.

6. Provide the link of the Award creator of ideal inspiration blogger award as Rising Star from https://idealinspiration.blog 

Ok nominees, here are my questions for you all to answer.

QUESTIONS FOR THE NOMINEES:

  1. What are your passions in life?
  2. Would you consider yourself a tea or a coffee person?
  3. Do you have any books that you would recommend for someone else?
  4. Do you stick to a routine or do you change things up during the week?
  5. Can you share with others any advice that was given to you when you started blogging?

Again, thank you all so much for this! I’m still smiling about this award. But, it’s time for me to say good night. I need to plan out my week, and do some journaling. Hope you all enjoy reading this post, I know I did!

Until next time…

❤️

MAKING PROGRESS

Good evening

It is late here in the STL, so I just wanted to give you guys an update.

“Project Move Room & Declutter” was off to a great start. After going grocery shopping with Mom, I came back home and started clearing out items and pieces from my room, and moved my bed in the spot I wanted it. Then, the big challenge, going through my wardrobe and keeping, donating, and throwing away pieces of clothes that I did not need anymore or I never wore.

Good news, I got a lot done and have a nice pile going. Bad news, I did not get around to working on my Week 04 outline or spent time to pamper myself with some self-care.

Note to self: Make time for Gabby because she is important!!!

So, fast forward to today. I spent the morning watching InTouch, tagged along with Mom to help Nana activate her new smartphone. Spent time with Mom and Dad, and for the past two hours, I was able to finish my outline for my paper.

I’ll write the paper tomorrow so I’ll have to in full tunnel vision mode to knock it out before 11PM tomorrow night. I’m doing so well in the class and I don’t want to lose that momentum. So, I’m going to be okay and I’m going to ace this class with an A at the end of week 05.

Well, time for bed, it’s back to grinding tomorrow.

Until next time…

❤️

BABY STEPS

Good evening

So, I’m slowly getting back into the groove. I woke up, wrote in my journal, got work done, and went walking with Mom a few hours ago.

I know its going to take me some time to get back to the old me from last year. But I can do it.

Legs are sore, sweated a bit, and drank a ton of water today. Now, I’m going to get ready to wind down soon. I’m teaching myself no electronics after 8:30. And…its 8:35.

Just wanted to let you guys know I’m ok. And I’m working hard on starting some projects.

Until next time…

LIFE UPDATE- A WAKE UP CALL

Good evening

Don’t worry, I’m alive

This thing called life is just…

Where do I start. First let me continue to promote that I LOVE WORKING FROM HOME!!!! However, I’ve come to the permanent conclusion that Uber Eats is my friend… and my enemy.

I think for maybe 5 weeks straight, Uber Eats was my best friend, especially Starbucks. Oh the joy of trying my first Matcha Green Tea, a new experience, but a delicious one. And their cake pops?!?!?!? The Unicorn and Birthday Cake have been my best friends. And as delicious as these treats were, my weight and blood sugar numbers showed me the ugly truth.

CURSE YOU STARBUCKS, I LOVE YOU AND I ENVY YOU

*cue the dramatic violin music*

And Amazon???? I dare not dive into the deep rabbit hole of purchases I’ve made over the period of Mid-May to Mid June.

Long story short, June has been a VERY rocky start.

But that’s ok…

There’s always a comeback story right? Lately, I’ve been binge watching YouTube videos of how to create videos, and how to edit videos. From Monday until this morning, Shameless Maya has been my go-to for those videos. And it got me thinking the big question… Should I take a leap?

My sister-in-law has a channel (unfortunately, I do not know the name, I just found out this information like a minute ago), but I had the conversation with my Mom, and she asked me if I became a influencer, what would I create or what sponsors would I have?

I told her my honest truth, before the sponsors come, it starts with me. If I go down that path, my niche would be mental health and the things that come with it- lifestyle, self-care, self-love, journaling, medication and meditation, my journey, etc. And for me, it’s going to take practice, just like I’m learning with blogging, it’s still taking me practice to be consistent.

I figure if I can browse on Amazon and UberEats for a HUGE chunk of my day, I can put forth the same effort with my passions. So, ending the night on a positive note, I’m not giving up.

I’m going to keep working at it until I get it right

Until next time…

❤️