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I just wanted to take a minute to say thank you to Brenda of Becoming HIS Tapestry for her recent post. You all should definitely check out her site for a good read. I enjoy it, and you will too.
This goes back to my last post for thanking you all for following me, reading my posts, and engaging with me through the comments. Click here to check it out. It’s helping me stay consistent with blogging and wanting to share with you all the things I learned, new things that I’m working on and trying out, and just wanting to let you all in the loop on how I live my life while managing my mental illness.
Speaking of trying new things, my next class talks about visual communication, which means I’m going to learn how to record videos. I remember telling you all in the past that the world of YouTube intrigued me into wanting to start vlogging. Maybe this is a sign that it’s time for me to learn so I can use different platforms to share “The Gabby Diaries.”
Only one problem…. I’m a little shy when it comes to recording myself on video. 😬😳😬😳😬
I guess this class also means I need to try and get over my stage fright. Wish me luck, I start my new class next week, but it’s crunch time now. Week 5 of Media Writing for Communication, and I have to work on my final paper. 😳
Again, thank you Brenda for joining me on this journey. Today is Day 5 so I’ll be back with another post later on today.
So woke up this morning and journaled for an hour. I wrote down about everything from my past. The bad thing, most of those things I realized that I was carrying with me as I got older.
Some of you may not know, but I was bullied growing up. From elementary school to high school, I was the main target of bullying. I had past relationships were toxic relationships filled with nothing but mental and verbal abuse.
Long story short, after writing four pages of what was bothering me and holding in these emotions, I felt better and then asked myself these questions:
Are these experiences and emotions the root of my physical and mental health issues?
Am I eating my emotions?
Why is it easy for me to walk around like nothing is wrong and hard for me to express these emotions when they occur?
I’m shocked that’s it’s taken me to get to my late 20’s to realize that feeling these emotions and holding them in for so long is the cause for my overall health. I guess my weight was screaming the answer to me the whole time, I just didn’t understand back then.
Now I know, I need to continue to work on practicing my coping methods and learn how to check my emotions. I don’t think to ask myself:
How are you?
What are you thinking about?
Are you drinking water?
Are you sleeping well?
How’s your diet?
Are you taking your medicine?
I don’t stop and check on myself to make sure I’m ok. So I just wanted to post this to say take time to check your emotions so they don’t spiral out of control. Learn how to express them so you’re not holding them in. If you don’t know how to do that, try journaling or talk to a professional that can help you and guide you in the right direction.
Don’t worry, I’ll be ok. I just wanted to get that off my chest and share this with you all.
After reading that verse, it gave me time to reflect over how I view my body and the changes it went through this past year.
The summer of 2018 was when I was notified I developed Type 2 Diabetes. For that was a wake-up call so I got on it. I cut out soda and sugar completely, I cut back on eating a lot of dairy, I was working out three to four times a week, and increased it to six days a week. I lost 12 pounds last year, and I had more energy, and less stress. I was happy.
October 2019, I got sick and then January of this year, I got sick again (chronic seasonal allergies back to back). I fell off track, and then March, I adapted to a new lifestyle of working from home (still love working from home by the way).
It’s was a struggle at first from March until now, but I’m making slow steady progress. But the verse reminded me that my body is a temple, it’s God’s temple and I need to take better care of it because God loves me and cares for me.
Lesson for today: Your body is important to God, your health is important to God, YOU are important to God because you are God’s Temple, His spirit dwells in you. 💖
So earlier this month, my new starting weight was… 286!
As of today, thanks to cutting out sodas, changing up eating habits, more sleep and exercise, I’m down eight pounds. I’m back where I was last year of 278. 🥳😊🥳😊🥳😊🥳
Mom said she’ll come over and we’ll walk around the complex, and Dad said we’re going to start jumping rope. I was a little thrown off at first because I would expect this coming from Mom, but he’s been supportive of me getting healthy again and also getting back into his routine even though the gyms are still closed due to COVID.
For Mom and I, it’s been the same struggle. One of the local community centers is still closed until further notice since the pandemic started. The other one, has opened up the water park and skatepark, but not the main building where the gym and workout equipment is.
So, it’s been a struggle for everyone, but we’re making it work. I’m going to continue to keep you all updated on my journey. I still have a long way to go, but I’m going to keep it up to stay healthy.
The pastor directing the sermon for the morning, asking the question “What are we consuming?” Thinking about it, most times, I’m consuming things that make me feel good and that’s ok. But, I’m learning that I need to consume more of God. I watch a lot of YouTube and social media and Netflix, but I don’t consume enough of God’s Word, time with Him, and time in prayer.
Starting today, I made a reminder for myself to consume in the Word, and in good things. 2020 is still a year of learning for me. And I’m learning so much about myself everyday. I’m not perfect, I have flaws, and that’s what makes me special. 🥰
Ok, it’s time for me to go. I’ll leave with you this scripture as well as Phil. 4:8 and Matt. 6:33 for you to indulge in:
“Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.” -Philippians 4:8 NASB https://www.bible.com/100/php.4.8.nasb
In the midst of all the sadness from yesterday and reading the Word (that is important), I forgot to say thank you to you all for the 102 followers!!!!!
This is motivation and inspiration for me to continue to write and create more posts and stories for “The Gabby Diaries.” I shared my blog with my classmates in the course I’m taking now, and thanks to their words of encouragement, just like you guys, it’s the boost I need to keep doing my best to blog and engage with everyone. So again, a HUGE thank you 😊😊😊😊😊!!!!
Ok, it’s time for me to be productive and brainstorm some more ideas and work on my projects.
It is late here in the STL, so I just wanted to give you guys an update.
“Project Move Room & Declutter” was off to a great start. After going grocery shopping with Mom, I came back home and started clearing out items and pieces from my room, and moved my bed in the spot I wanted it. Then, the big challenge, going through my wardrobe and keeping, donating, and throwing away pieces of clothes that I did not need anymore or I never wore.
Good news, I got a lot done and have a nice pile going. Bad news, I did not get around to working on my Week 04 outline or spent time to pamper myself with some self-care.
Note to self: Make time for Gabby because she is important!!!
So, fast forward to today. I spent the morning watching InTouch, tagged along with Mom to help Nana activate her new smartphone. Spent time with Mom and Dad, and for the past two hours, I was able to finish my outline for my paper.
I’ll write the paper tomorrow so I’ll have to in full tunnel vision mode to knock it out before 11PM tomorrow night. I’m doing so well in the class and I don’t want to lose that momentum. So, I’m going to be okay and I’m going to ace this class with an A at the end of week 05.
Well, time for bed, it’s back to grinding tomorrow.
So we have come to the last day in May. Another month of working from home and other things. Here are my words for May:
I’ve been persistent with my meditation. This morning, the scriptures taught me some things about myself and the times we are living in. Then, I tuned into InTouch Ministries where today’s message talked about meditation on courage. Here are my notes from this morning:
Finished my final paper for Week 05, and posted my introduction for my fifth class. I’m still on a roll with school, I have a feeling that I’ll continue to pass each class with an A or A- until graduation. I can’t wait and my date could change at the rate that I’m going.
One thing that I’ve indulged for the entire month is California roll and potstickers. Drunken Fish has been my friend at least five times this week alone. But I can’t help it, I love sushi, and it’s so delicious. But I need to start back on my health journey.
Time to get down, no pain, no gain.
Well, time for me to change some things around in the apartment. Hope everyone enjoys the rest of this beautiful Sunday.
For the past few nights, I’ve been getting back into my reading. The first night was amazing because it was like God was guiding my hand where to start reading in the Bible. This was Monday night.
Tuesday night was a little bit of a struggle because I was easily distracted. But even last night, He showed me what I needed to read. I wanted to post this on Monday, but fell asleep, and then when I went to post it yesterday, I didn’t know what to say. But here I am. Here are the scriptures I read if you all want to do some reading on your own:
2 Chron. 34: 29-31
Matt. 14: 21-23
Psalm 119: 97-105
1 Peter 5: 7-8
James 5: 16
Phil. 2: 13
Prov. 13: 3
Prov. 15: 28
Prov. 25: 18
1 Cor. 13: 4
Psalm 101: 3
2 Tim. 3: 12-15
Deut. 2: 7
Luke 11: 1
Deut. 30: 15-20
Matt. 25: 14-30
Luke 12: 48
Prov. 23: 18
Phil. 4: 6-7
Another thing I started doing is intermittent fasting. I started at 8PM on Monday night and finished at 12PM the next day on Tuesday. I drank tea and water for most of the day, but it felt good that I wasn’t in a rush to make a meal or eat. I took my time eating and I was satisfied. So, I did it again last night, starting at 8PM, and just counting down until noon today.
Since I’ve been working from home, I imagine myself, spending my mornings in my War Room (still need to get on that), drinking my fresh cup of coffee or tea, and just spending my entire morning, having quiet time with God, until I’m ready to start working. The more I imagine it, the more I feel it will become a reality.
I’m still practicing my other passions too like writing and sketching. If I keep this up, I’ll be closer to becoming a freelancer in no time.
Well, time to get the day going. Happy Wednesday or “Windsday” in my Winnie the Pooh voice 😂😂😂
Happy Friday and all that comes with it. And I know we’re all excited for the 3 day weekend coming up. If any of you are off to a head start, congrats to you. 👏🏾🥳✨💖
So, started my morning off right and made me my favorite breakfast: Oatmeal patties with Avacado spread, and an egg sunny-side up. Instead of a nice cup of coffee, I brewed a nice cup of TAZO passion tea ( if you haven’t tried this flavor, I recommend it- so yummy). Then, I turned on the Bible app, and listened to today’s message.
All this week, I have a routine of applying anything positive to start my day off right. Even if things don’t go well at first, I’m still in an upbeat mood to do the things I love later on as well as my schoolwork after the work day is done. The other thing I’m going to do a little later is take me a quick nap so I can feel refreshed for tonight and for the weekend.
Alright, let me get back to my day. Talk to you guys later…
So April is gone, and May is here. Let me recap how April went for me:
APR. 2020: For the entire month, my home life and work life come together in harmony. My experience working from home has been overall positive. I’m getting more sleep, I’m not as stressed as I used to be, I have a flexible schedule, and I’m around family throughout the week so we all check on each other. We’ve also been getting back into the swing of working out thanks to my folks. Unfortunately, that’s the one thing that has affected my mood…and my waistline 😂😂😂. But my mental health has been more positive than negative about the whole situation. I’ve gotten back into my creative side with sketching, writing, and blogging. So I’m sticking with 2 words for the remainder of 2020 and that is:
MAY 2020: Since those are my words for the rest of the year, here are my goals for this month:
✨Continue to work on my workout routine
✨Stick to my routine with online classes (kicking ass in my classes 😊😊😊)
✨Continue practicing sketching skills
✨Remain positive through these hard times 😇
Well you guys, my meds have kicked in so that’s another thing I’m working on: more sleep 😪😪😪