SPIRITUAL GROWTH: MY STORY

Hello again.

I thought I’d take the time to share with you all my story on how my faith walk started. It’s a big part of who I am on this blog, and also a part of uplifting you all, my readers. I hope you enjoy reading this post and that it inspires you on your faith walk or to start your faith walk today.

UNIQUE, SPECIAL, AND BULLIED
Growing up, I was always the shy girl. I was quiet, and didn’t talk much. When it came to making friends, I would be shy at first, but once I opened up more, I was goofy, bubbly, kind, and friendly. I got along with everyone. I made friends with kids of different backgrounds, but that made me a victim for bullying. Some kids thought I was weird for hanging out with certain people. I was made fun of because I spoke proper English, and was called all kinds of names, names that followed me into high school. I was super nice, which led to a bully constantly and viciously bullying me until the fourth grade. My escape was writing and art, I loved watching cartoons, and to this day, I don’t think I rushing to grow up, I’m still a big kid at heart.

NOT ALL BOYS ARE GOOD
Once I got into high school, I had my first real boyfriend. At the time, it was real love. Unfortunately, that was ruined by the world of “He Said, She Said.” Due to poor decisions, I no longer had a boyfriend, but had a reputation that I never wanted to associate myself with. Senior year was the year that I got diagnosed with Bipolar 2 with Depression. Certain guys came around me for the wrong reasons, and if they didn’t get what they wanted, they threatened to tell the whole school of the things I did. Long story short, bad decisions caught up with me, and I got in trouble for it. Luckily, I was never a troublemaker in school so I never had a record. But the words and stares were like daggers towards me throughout the hallways. After senior year, I was ready to leave!

A CRY FOR HELP IS ANSWERED
After high school, some of the guys continued dealing with me. At this point, I was going to college, and working part-time at a daycare with a friend of the family. This was also the time where my relationship with my mother was going downhill. There were good days, and there were bad days. More bad days than good between us, and looking back on it, I can say that I put her through it. Then, on April. 22, 2012, I went to church with Mom, and I remember a girl sharing her testimony of how she was trying to turn her life around. The pastor asked “If anyone wants to turn their lives over to God, please come up and do it today!” With a face full of tears, I walked up to the front of the church, Mom came down and we hugged and that Sunday, I got saved.

WHAT NOW?
Once I entered the world of “Adulting,” I started having issues and setbacks. But I always find my way back and trying to stick with it. It hasn’t been easy, we live in a World that want us to have certain things. Instead, we need to live for God. I have come a very long way from where I was my senior year in high school, and during my early 20’s. I’m not the same girl I was back then. I’m working on loving God first and loving myself first in the process. I’m learning not to conform to this world, which is still a struggle. But, with His help, I’ll get through it. I’ve come this far, there’s no turning back now…

Until next time…

❤️

A DAY IN THE LIFE- UPDATE

Good evening.


Hope everyone had a peaceful weekend, and are still enjoying this lovely Sunday.


I’m back in the comfort of my apartment, after spending the weekend with Mom and my niece, Haley.


It was fun, hanging out with the girls when I can, but I didn’t get anything done for school this weekend. Tomorrow will definitely be a hectic study session after I get off of work.


At least I got responses from both Mom and Dad to help me with my final project. But I don’t even have my outline finished for my paper. Crunch time!!!! But it felt good hanging out with Mom and Haley during my breaks. Tomorrow, I’ll get as much done for work as I can so I can get off and spend the rest of my day working on school and my other projects.


One of them, I took suggestions from my classmates in my previous courses. I can’t wait for you all to see it! Health has been ok, I didn’t do any workouts Friday, yesterday, or today. So Monday, I’ll try some new routines that can help me get my day started.


Well, time for me to plan my day out tomorrow so I can get things done. I’ll keep you posted.


Until next time…

❤️

HOW I STUDY THE BIBLE

Good morning.


What day is it. It’s Hump day, and in today’s post, I thought I share with you all how I study the Bible.

Here is a list of things I use during my Quiet Times:
• My Bible
• The YouVersion Bible App
• InTouch Ministries App
• Faith Church App
• A notebook
• Pens- Black, blue, and red
• A Devotional

Once I have everything I need, I close my door to my bedroom, and start my Quiet Time.


OPENING PRAYER: The first step I’ve been practicing is starting with prayer, asking God to help me understand the reading. Sometimes, I’ll just sit in quiet a few minutes longer because my mind may try to wonder, and at times, other things will come up.


YOUVERSION APP: Next, I’ll open the Bible app. The app starts off with a story section. You open it, and it talks about the topic for the day, the verse, and you’ll have a speaker go in depth on how the passage ties in with the topic. Then, they find a devotional that ties in with the topic as well. During this time, I’ll read and re-read the scripture, and I’ll listen to everything again to get better understanding. I’ll go through everything one last time to take notes in my notebook.

NOTE-TAKING: In my notebook, everything is simple. Black is for basic wording, blue is for positive words and messages, and red is for warnings and anything about the Devil. I’llgo on Pinterest and see there are so many different color codes for Bible studying, but since I’m just getting back into a routine, I’ll create a system that works for me overtime.


JOURNALING: After I’ve read and taken my notes, I’ll journal on my Journey app how the Quiet Time went, and how it made me feel. Other times, I’ll just sit in silence while I’ll listen to my praise music. Lately, I’ll go on InTouch Ministries or Faith Church and watch a sermon before going about my day.


If you don’t know what to use during your Quiet Time, just start simple with your Bible a Devotional, and a journal. That’s how my spiritual walk started, I’ve always kept a notebook every time I had Bible study or went to church and listened to a sermon.
I hope today’s post helped you get started with your Bible Study. Let me know how you spend your Quiet Time. Do you follow a plan, read a devotional, or do you just read and listen to what God is telling you? All of these are fine, as long as your spending this time with God.


I’ll check in with you all later.


Until next time…

A DAY IN THE LIFE- UPDATE

Good evening


I’m ending the night with another weekly update. Hope everyone enjoyed their weekend, I know I did.


HEALTH: As you all know, my latest visit to the doctor was a major wake-up call. In case you missed it, here is my post about my visit, just click here. I finally told both Mom and Dad about what really happened. They’re both on board at making sure I’m top of my health this go round. I pulled out my health binder when I started my Diabetic Class back in 2018, to use as a guideline for improving my health for the remainder of 2020.


SCHOOL: ONLY 7 MONTHS!!! I love my new class, our instructor gives us questions that really cause us to do some critical thinking. On my last discussion posts, he encouraged me to continue writing the way I’ve been doing. I guess writing really is in my future. I’m doing something right.


PERSONAL GROWTH: So, good news I started reading this month. The bad news, I haven’t finished the book. I’ve come to the conclusion that I am a very slow reader. So my goal of 25 pages a day, I’m still going to keep and work at it, even if it means I finish only one book for the whole month. Also, I downloaded the Fabulous app, and have started practicing small habits. It works, I bought a stainless steel water bottle and have been drinking water in the mornings for the past few days now. Then, due to my health, I went grocery shopping for all healthy items and I’m practicing meal prep and healthy snacking this week. So be on the lookout for some posts about that.


SPIRITUAL GROWTH: I’ve been having Quiet Time in the mornings, but after listening to the reading on Thursday, and listening to InTouch Ministries and Faith Church, God has been speaking to me to change my life around. We had outside service at church today, and even though we couldn’t be in contact with one another, it was powerful to see everyone show up in their cars, and still be able to participate. I’ll have to share the experience with you the next time we do it.


MENTAL: Overall, these past few days have been calm. I had severe headaches this weekend due to my “Monthly Gift” so my original plans for working on my Passion Projects, were replaced with much needed rest. I can’t believe how fast September went by. We only have a few days left, and I’m looking forward to October.


No change in the leaves yet, but it’s coming. Well, time for me to get some rest and call it a night. I’ll see y’all in the morning.


Until next time…

❤️

I’M ONLY A STUDENT

Good morning

So I thought I would talk about what I learned listening to this morning’s story on the Bible app. The scripture comes from 2 Timothy 2:15.

Be diligent to present yourself approved to God as a workman who does not need to be ashamed, accurately handling the word of truth.
2 Timothy 2:15 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/2ti.2.15.NASB


The reading talked about how we should present ourselves to God. It also talked about how we should practice to work in excellence in everything that we do. But the most important thing I took away from the reading, for me, was the reminder that I must be a student before I become a teacher.


During my time blogging, I have enlightened you all with my morning Quiet Time posts. I don’t have a problem sharing my Bible Study insight with you all. It is a problem when I second guess myself on what I got out of the lesson and if I shared with you the right information. Yes, I have scripture to back up my findings, but if I don’t have faith in what I’m telling my audience, then what does that say about me?


Again, I’m still learning so I hope you all don’t mind a small change starting today that I will be posting my Quiet Time entries in the evening. I think it’s better not only because of my schedule, but it gives me the much needed time I need to spend with God, and really take the time to read and understand the scripture, as well as practice memorizing scripture and meditating on the Word and prayer daily.


Sorry for making this sound so dramatic. But I said I share nothing but my honest truth on this blog. So before I can teach you all about the Word and the meaning behind it, I still need to learn and study the Word for myself. I hope that’s ok with you.
Hope everyone enjoyed today’s reading. I’ll check in with you all later on.

Until next time…

PERSISTENT PRAYER

Good morning.

It is now Tuesday, and I’m back with another morning Quiet Time for you all. Today’s reading comes from the Verse of the Day, which is Mark 11: 24.

Therefore I say to you, all things for which you pray and ask, believe that you have received them, and they will be granted you.
Mark 11:24 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/mrk.11.24.NASB

THE READING: Today’s lesson talks about persistent prayer and pray by faith. The lesson starts off by saying the things that God wants to do for us. The first thing is that He wants to fulfill our desires. We pray over the different areas of our life that we want to grow and flourish in. But the other thing that God wants for us is for us to lean on Him, and build a relationship with Him. Today’s lesson really hit home for me because this is an area in my faith walk that I’m still improving on, and that is prayer. I have moments where I do pray every day, and then I fall off track. I forget to come back to my prayer journal or just say a prayer before I go to sleep.

The lesson continues on to say that Christ promised us that we will receive whatever we ask for in prayer, as long as we believe. Our faith is the only condition to our prayer. We should never base our prayers on the circumstances around us, but that we need to base them on the power and character of God. The scripture tells us that we should “walk by faith, not by sight” (2 Cor. 5:7). When praying for difficult situations, we should not be discouraged by what we see. The answer may take longer than we expect.

REFLECTION: For me, I think this is where my anxiety kicks in at times, because I’ll pray for something that I want to happen in my life, only to see the negative results. A great example of this was when I was playing the comparison game with my blog. After I finished writing a post, I went straight over to my stats section, only to find that I had 1 or 2 visitors since the post went up. After checking throughout the day, I only got a small number of views. Now, I just write my blog posts because I enjoy writing, and I enjoy helping my audience. Most times, I write my posts because I enjoy writing. I think for me, not checking the stats and caring about them was my way of walking by faith, not by sight. I prayed to God about my blog a while back, and now, I’m going to do my part and just write.

CONCLUSION: The reading goes on to say that we need to persevere in prayer. Jesus says to pray persistently, day and night. By doing this, God will answer us as long as we do not lose faith. We can pray about anything that is consistent with the character and will of God. If we pray due to our selfish ambitions, then that contradicts God’s character. When praying, we need to surrender our will to God.

And there you have it, another morning Quiet Time to go with your cup of coffee or tea. I hope you all enjoyed today’s post. Let me know how these Quiet Time posts are working out for you. If you have any ideas, feel free to share them with me in the comments down below. I’ll return to check in with you all later.

Until next time…

GOD’S LOVE DRIVES OUT FEAR

Good morning

We’re back in the groove of another work week. What better way to kick it off than with a bit of encouragement from my AM Quiet Time. Today’s lesson talks about the power of God’s Love. The scripture and the Verse of the Day comes from 1 John 4:18.

There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves punishment, and the one who fears is not perfected in love.
1 John 4:18 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/1jn.4.18.NASB

GOD’S LOVE: The lesson begins by comparing God’s love to fear and pain, and that it is bigger than the two. When encountering God’s love, we become more aware of His desire to be with us and that He pours out His love on us. Also, God’s love melts away our fears and insecurities. The presence of God is important to have in our lives and our desire will be to abide with God and have His love and presence abide with us. The lesson continues with John, and his confidence in the Love of God. He had so much confidence that deep down, he knew God loved him personally and wanted to be with Him.

AVAILABLE & AWARE: When we stop saying that we’re too busy to make time for God, the more confident we become in who God is, the more intentional we become with spending time with Him and listening to His voice. If we make ourselves more available and aware of His presence, the more secure we become in who we are and there’s nothing more or less we can do to attain or separate us from the Love of God. This part resonated with me because I used to always tell myself that I need to make Quiet Time a priority again, only to look up and it was pushed on the back-burner or I would have Quiet Time, only to rush through it and not gain any insight out of it. If I just wake up, and pick up my Bible in the morning, then I’m not feeling worried or anxious about things, I’m not being passive on things that can affect my life.

FEAR: Fear is one of the greatest hindrances to a relationship with God. Fear of not being worthy of love, not measuring up, fear of punishment, and fear of being exposed, all of these insecurities keep us from being who we are truly meant to be. This really stood out to me because this goes back to me working on my passion projects. I have great ideas and goals in life to help individuals with mental health. I’m taking a leap with this blog, but at first I was scared of not being the best blogger, scared that I wasn’t going to turn it into a career, scared that I was going to fail miserably at it. Once I got started, and started praying over it, those fears went away. I still remind myself to not play the comparison game, but I’m proud that I didn’t let my fear take over or else I wouldn’t have met so many new people through this blog.

CONCLUSION: If you let fear consume you, then you’ll never know how great you can truly be in this world. Let God help you overcome your fears and insecurities and allow His love and presence to enter into your life so that you can be something great, so that you can be the light that He wants you to be. Well, hope you all are inspired and motivated to get your work week started on this lovely Monday. I’ll check in with you all later on.

Until next time…

❤️

IS REST YOUR FRIEND?

Good evening

So, after work was over, I was going to tackle the task of cleaning the apartment. Well, that did not happen. Instead, I took a day off. But, after reading my devotional for the evening, I think I need to incorporate rest into my routine more.

The plan I’m reading talks about finding rest, and day 1 talked about making rest your friend. During the week, reflect over the past few days. Did you include rest during those times?

I took time to think and write down how each day has been this week. Everyday was the same, I was scattered, my mind was all over the place, I wasn’t focused on work like I should have been, little things kept bothering throughout the day. And when I was feeling tired, I fought the feeling instead of taking that time to rest.

My sleep pattern was decent for three days out the week, I only worked out for one day this week, and my eating patterns…I’m not going into depth with that. But, I can say that these past days were…blah. Other than working on school and the blog, I think I’m feeling the affect everyone felt when they started working from home, when the days feel like they’re meshing together.

I think I’ll take some time to practice resting this weekend, and create a new schedule to make it effective. I can’t keep having days or weeks like this. And rest is important, so I need to prioritize it into my life. That’s one of the reasons why my health level isn’t where it should be, because I’m not getting enough rest.

Starting tonight, I’m going to get more rest. 😴😴😴😴😴. Here are the scriptures from the reading: Gen. 2-3 & Matt. 11: 28-30:

By the seventh day God completed His work which He had done, and He rested on the seventh day from all His work which He had done. Then God blessed the seventh day and sanctified it, because in it He rested from all His work which God had created and made.
Genesis 2:2‭-‬3 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/gen.2.2-3.NASB

“Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls . For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”
Matthew 11:28‭-‬30 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/mat.11.28-30.NASB

Well, it’s late and it’s time for me to hit the sack. Hope you all are staying safe and taking care of yourselves during these times. I’ll check in with you tomorrow.

Until next time…

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SEEKING GUIDANCE FROM THE HOLY SPIRIT

Good morning.

Happy Friday!

For today’s post, I want to talk to you about asking the Holy Spirit to guide you during your Quiet Time. I’m not only sharing this post for you, but the conversation I had with my best friend Jasmine, that opened my eyes and made me understand things even more.

So Wednesday, I was so excited to see some of peers in my classes saying that they’ve been reading the blog, they think it’s helpful and brave that I’m sharing my mental health and other adventures through an online diary. Jasmine called me, and I told her the good news, and I mentioned that I post entries about my Quiet Times, with the help of scriptures. I also went into detail saying that I share my insight on the reading and what I learned.

There was a moment when I told her how I interpret the readings and then she asked me “When you’re unsure about the reading, do you seek guidance from the Holy Spirit?” I paused, and then responded “No.” She then went on to say that she’ll have moments where she can feel the Holy Spirit talking to her. At times, she mentioned that she’ll hear someone calling her name and that it’s the Holy Spirit.

At first, my initial response was panic because I’ve been sharing my Quiet Time with you all, not thinking to include this step. Then, the anxiety kicked in. I thinking about what the audience would think or say if I share this experience with them. I then felt bad that I wasn’t doing this because I am a Christian. I felt like I should already be doing things like this on my journey. And then, after talking to Jasmine about it, she helped me realize that I’m still learning, and that learning is a part of the journey.

Then, I remember one of my latest posts, Let Me Be Honest, where I explain that I’m sharing my truth with the world. Well, this is part of my truth, if I’m going to share my Quiet Times with you all, I want to make sure I’m not giving you any false information. Starting today, when I go through my reading, I’ll be sure to keep that in mind and ask the Holy Spirit to give me clarity on what I’m reading. Good thing I have friends like Jasmine to help me keep things in check, and that they are honest with me. These are friends you need to have in your corner, and in your support group. Thank you Jasmine for helping me realize this truth so that I can apply it to my life.

Here are is a scripture that ties in with today’s topic, John 14: 26:

But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all that I said to you.
John 14:26 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/jhn.14.26.NASB

Well, I hope you all enjoy today’s post. I’ll be back later on to check in.

Until next time…

❤️

PRIORITIZING GOD’S LOVE

Good morning

I’m back with another quiet time post for you all! So sit back, open up your Bibles or your Bible app if you have it, and let’s get into it this morning. Today’s sermon focuses on the topic of prioritizing God’s love. The scriptures to read are:

  • 1 Cor. 13: 1- the Verse of the Day
  • Matt. 22: 40
  • 1 Cor. 12-14
  • 1 John 4:8

If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but do not have love, I have become a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.
1 Corinthians 13:1 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/1co.13.1.NASB

THE READING: The lesson starts off saying that Jesus says that love for God and your neighbor are the most important commandments on them the Law and Prophet depend. In 1 Corinthians 13, the love described is based on the love of our Creator Himself, which is NEVER anything other than perfect. Then, the sermon goes on to say that God’s love is ALWAYS kind, patient, truthful, and so on, and that it demonstrates these characteristics flawlessly. Our attempts to love in this manner never measure up. We do not make love the priority it should be. We often ignore Love and use our gifts destructively in the body of Christ, and that jealousy consumes us and we continually put ourselves ahead of others.

MY FINDINGS & UNDERSTANDING: This part stuck out to me because I’m that person who is kind-hearted, and if I see that you are good and have good intentions, I can call you my friend. When I was younger, that was the case for everyone I came across with in high school. Senior year, I realized the harsh reality that everyone is not meant to be your friend. I was bullied, and constantly taken advantage of, and was soft-spoken because I kept this belief ever since I was little. My parents tried to protect me from certain kids that they saw take advantage of me by reminding me that there are friends for a reason and there are friends for a season. Now, I have a small circle of friends because I’ve been hurt so much throughout my childhood, even early adulthood, my past relationship got to a point where I felt like I was putting in all the effort and getting nothing back in return. All these events led me to develop trust issues, I now sit back and watch peoples’ actions and determine from there if they are good people to be around.

We have moments where there are interesting people that cause us to look at them a little sideways. Did I say that right? It’s the truth, whether it’s work, school, even that one family member that you can’t stand or you have to keep an eye on them when they come over. Other times, we become jealous when we see others doing better than we’re doing. I’ll admit, that’s how I get caught up in the comparison game, because I get a little green with envy when I see someone moving further up the ladder in life than me. But, I have to stop and think, why am I acting this way? I’m a Christian, we’re not supposed to think or act this way. But it all goes back to being human and having humility. Ok, seriously, did I say that part right? If not, please let me know.

CONCLUSION: To sum everything up, if we do not make love a top priority in our lives, then we’re not acting like Christians. That’s something I definitely need to work on and include in my Godly goals for living a Godly life.

I hope you all enjoyed this morning’s quiet time with me. I’m trying my best to learn more about God, and reading the Word, and I hope I’m inspiring you all to do the same. I’m still learning so it’s important for you to do the reading on your own, you may get different insight on the readings than I did. If so, please feel free to share those findings with me and with other readers so that they can be inspired too.

Until next time…

❤️

JUST WAIT

Good morning

Hope everyone had a good night’s sleep last night. Still a little groggy after staying up late from finishing up my video project, but I was able to turn everything and it is complete. I’m back with my morning Quiet Time segment. Today’s lesson talks about waiting. The Verse of the Day, and the scripture for the lesson comes from Phil. 2:13.

“for it is God who is at work in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure.”
-Philippians 2:13 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/php.2.13.NASB

MAKE THE BEST OF IT: The reading went more in depth, saying that a time of waiting is a part of transformation. It made me think, Mom came by and asked me how work was going. I told it was going ok. Then she asked me “Do you love what you do?” Let’s just say my answer was not the one that she was looking for, and based on my response, you’ll understand why I’m working hard learning and studying all that my classes have to offer. Mom shook her head (like any mother would) and said “Try to make the best of it.”

BURNOUT: During this time of the pandemic, I have been putting in effort with my schoolwork because it’s what I LOVE to do, I have been putting in effort with my blog and other passions because it’s what I LOVE to do, but when it comes to work, I guess I’m only putting in half the effort. Maybe because I’m experiencing burnout after working with the company for eight years. Maybe it’s because I feel like I’m not really helping anyone there like I am on the blog. My friend Jasmine and I had this conversation on Friday about how we’re living paycheck to paycheck, that our jobs no longer fulfill us like we thought they would.

JUST WAIT: This is where the waiting comes in. I have so many goals and dreams I want to accomplish once I get my BA in Communication Studies. I want to turn my passion of blogging into a full-time career. I’m reading the articles, I’m taking notes, I even purchased my domain last year to be more serious. As I look back on all of that now, I think God is still telling me to wait. I feel like I’m ramble to Him constantly, and He places his hands firmly on my shoulders and whispers “Wait, I have something better for you.” And the truth is…it’s hard to wait. Right now, I’m trying hard to wait for something to happen or wait for Him to tell me what my next move should be before taking another step.

This is still my season of waiting, I’m doing what I need to do as far as doing homework for class, and getting up every morning to work in my living room for eight hours. I’m trying really hard not to complain because after reading the lesson, and taking some time to reflect, I understand that He wants me to wait, and He is working in my favor for better things that will all be worth the wait in the end. So I say all of this to say that this is our time of waiting, waiting for our transformation. We don’t know when these times are going to clear up. But we are going to come out of this changed for the better. It’s going to start small, but over time, the transformation will be so big, you’ll be glad you went through your waiting period.

Let’s enjoy this time of waiting together. Hope you all enjoyed this morning’s Quiet Time, and I’ll check in with you all later.

Until next time…

❤️

SURRENDER YOURSELF TO GOD

Good morning.

We’re back to Monday.

Hope everyone enjoyed their weekend. Mines was filled with the sounds of lo-fi music from ChillHop on YouTube, and spending time with Mom at her house. Today, I wanted to share with you what I learned during my Quiet Time today. This morning, the sermon from the Bible App talked about surrendering yourself to God. The Verse of the Day, comes from Proverbs 3: 5-6.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5‭-‬6 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/pro.3.5-6.NASB

I smile because when I started my faith walk, that was the first scripture I memorized. Not to mention, growing up I remember my late grandmother, Grandma Beverly, loved reading the book of Proverbs, and that we would have our conversations about reading the bible so that scripture will always be special to me. But, it’s special to me now because the topic talked about surrendering yourself to God. This is something that I feel like I’m still struggling with or that I’m not doing right.

I guess it goes back to my anxiety about certain areas in my life. I’ll pray to God about the issues, only to sit up and worry about them a few weeks later. When it comes to a bad habit I’m trying to kick or making a difficult decision, I go to a different source instead of seeking the Word. For a while now, I notice when I sleep, I become restless for most of my sleep. At first, I just thought I was trying to get comfortable. But over time, I learned after watching a sermon from Dr. Charles Stanely, that being restless is God’s way of trying to speak to me.

The only problem with that, I’m still not sure at times what it is He is trying to tell me. Friday, last night, and this morning, I’ve been dealing with a little pain in my body. I’ve been asking Him to heal me, but I understand He is trying to tell me to focus on my health. This is His way of speaking to me, through restlessness and through pain. I know the pain won’t last forever, but I know that He’s telling me that He loves me and cares about me enough to want me to do something about it. Not only that, I think this is way of telling me to surrender everything in my life to Him.

I’m trying not to overthink it, but maybe I need to write these things down, pray over it, and leave them to Him. I keep having anxiety about these certain areas in my life that they are affecting my health and wellbeing. When I was at Mom’s house, I wasn’t too stressed, but I wasn’t comfortable either. Most of it due to sleeping on the futon I gave to her when she moved. Important fact to you all: do not invest in a leather futon- THEY ARE NOT COMFORTABLE AT ALL!!!!

But to sum everything up, if there are things that are weighing you down or you need to get off your chest, surrender yourself to God, trust in Him, and He will take care of everything in your favor. Just watch Him work, I know I will.

Well, time to get the day started, and prepare to finish off Week 05 strong later on. Check in with you all later.

Until next time…

❤️