I’M ONLY A STUDENT

Good morning

So I thought I would talk about what I learned listening to this morning’s story on the Bible app. The scripture comes from 2 Timothy 2:15.

Be diligent to present yourself approved to God as a workman who does not need to be ashamed, accurately handling the word of truth.
2 Timothy 2:15 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/2ti.2.15.NASB


The reading talked about how we should present ourselves to God. It also talked about how we should practice to work in excellence in everything that we do. But the most important thing I took away from the reading, for me, was the reminder that I must be a student before I become a teacher.


During my time blogging, I have enlightened you all with my morning Quiet Time posts. I don’t have a problem sharing my Bible Study insight with you all. It is a problem when I second guess myself on what I got out of the lesson and if I shared with you the right information. Yes, I have scripture to back up my findings, but if I don’t have faith in what I’m telling my audience, then what does that say about me?


Again, I’m still learning so I hope you all don’t mind a small change starting today that I will be posting my Quiet Time entries in the evening. I think it’s better not only because of my schedule, but it gives me the much needed time I need to spend with God, and really take the time to read and understand the scripture, as well as practice memorizing scripture and meditating on the Word and prayer daily.


Sorry for making this sound so dramatic. But I said I share nothing but my honest truth on this blog. So before I can teach you all about the Word and the meaning behind it, I still need to learn and study the Word for myself. I hope that’s ok with you.
Hope everyone enjoyed today’s reading. I’ll check in with you all later on.

Until next time…

PERSISTENT PRAYER

Good morning.

It is now Tuesday, and I’m back with another morning Quiet Time for you all. Today’s reading comes from the Verse of the Day, which is Mark 11: 24.

Therefore I say to you, all things for which you pray and ask, believe that you have received them, and they will be granted you.
Mark 11:24 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/mrk.11.24.NASB

THE READING: Today’s lesson talks about persistent prayer and pray by faith. The lesson starts off by saying the things that God wants to do for us. The first thing is that He wants to fulfill our desires. We pray over the different areas of our life that we want to grow and flourish in. But the other thing that God wants for us is for us to lean on Him, and build a relationship with Him. Today’s lesson really hit home for me because this is an area in my faith walk that I’m still improving on, and that is prayer. I have moments where I do pray every day, and then I fall off track. I forget to come back to my prayer journal or just say a prayer before I go to sleep.

The lesson continues on to say that Christ promised us that we will receive whatever we ask for in prayer, as long as we believe. Our faith is the only condition to our prayer. We should never base our prayers on the circumstances around us, but that we need to base them on the power and character of God. The scripture tells us that we should “walk by faith, not by sight” (2 Cor. 5:7). When praying for difficult situations, we should not be discouraged by what we see. The answer may take longer than we expect.

REFLECTION: For me, I think this is where my anxiety kicks in at times, because I’ll pray for something that I want to happen in my life, only to see the negative results. A great example of this was when I was playing the comparison game with my blog. After I finished writing a post, I went straight over to my stats section, only to find that I had 1 or 2 visitors since the post went up. After checking throughout the day, I only got a small number of views. Now, I just write my blog posts because I enjoy writing, and I enjoy helping my audience. Most times, I write my posts because I enjoy writing. I think for me, not checking the stats and caring about them was my way of walking by faith, not by sight. I prayed to God about my blog a while back, and now, I’m going to do my part and just write.

CONCLUSION: The reading goes on to say that we need to persevere in prayer. Jesus says to pray persistently, day and night. By doing this, God will answer us as long as we do not lose faith. We can pray about anything that is consistent with the character and will of God. If we pray due to our selfish ambitions, then that contradicts God’s character. When praying, we need to surrender our will to God.

And there you have it, another morning Quiet Time to go with your cup of coffee or tea. I hope you all enjoyed today’s post. Let me know how these Quiet Time posts are working out for you. If you have any ideas, feel free to share them with me in the comments down below. I’ll return to check in with you all later.

Until next time…

GOD’S LOVE DRIVES OUT FEAR

Good morning

We’re back in the groove of another work week. What better way to kick it off than with a bit of encouragement from my AM Quiet Time. Today’s lesson talks about the power of God’s Love. The scripture and the Verse of the Day comes from 1 John 4:18.

There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves punishment, and the one who fears is not perfected in love.
1 John 4:18 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/1jn.4.18.NASB

GOD’S LOVE: The lesson begins by comparing God’s love to fear and pain, and that it is bigger than the two. When encountering God’s love, we become more aware of His desire to be with us and that He pours out His love on us. Also, God’s love melts away our fears and insecurities. The presence of God is important to have in our lives and our desire will be to abide with God and have His love and presence abide with us. The lesson continues with John, and his confidence in the Love of God. He had so much confidence that deep down, he knew God loved him personally and wanted to be with Him.

AVAILABLE & AWARE: When we stop saying that we’re too busy to make time for God, the more confident we become in who God is, the more intentional we become with spending time with Him and listening to His voice. If we make ourselves more available and aware of His presence, the more secure we become in who we are and there’s nothing more or less we can do to attain or separate us from the Love of God. This part resonated with me because I used to always tell myself that I need to make Quiet Time a priority again, only to look up and it was pushed on the back-burner or I would have Quiet Time, only to rush through it and not gain any insight out of it. If I just wake up, and pick up my Bible in the morning, then I’m not feeling worried or anxious about things, I’m not being passive on things that can affect my life.

FEAR: Fear is one of the greatest hindrances to a relationship with God. Fear of not being worthy of love, not measuring up, fear of punishment, and fear of being exposed, all of these insecurities keep us from being who we are truly meant to be. This really stood out to me because this goes back to me working on my passion projects. I have great ideas and goals in life to help individuals with mental health. I’m taking a leap with this blog, but at first I was scared of not being the best blogger, scared that I wasn’t going to turn it into a career, scared that I was going to fail miserably at it. Once I got started, and started praying over it, those fears went away. I still remind myself to not play the comparison game, but I’m proud that I didn’t let my fear take over or else I wouldn’t have met so many new people through this blog.

CONCLUSION: If you let fear consume you, then you’ll never know how great you can truly be in this world. Let God help you overcome your fears and insecurities and allow His love and presence to enter into your life so that you can be something great, so that you can be the light that He wants you to be. Well, hope you all are inspired and motivated to get your work week started on this lovely Monday. I’ll check in with you all later on.

Until next time…

❤️

A HAPPY ANXIETY ATTACK?

Good afternoon

Well, endured another night of a horrible migraine, which means only one thing… “Monthly Gift!” 

Now that I got that bit of awkwardness out of the way, just thought I come on here and talk about how comfortable I’m getting in my new class.

So, my instructor asked me questions regarding the topic of race in America and the Black Lives Matter movement. I was a little nervous when I first read the response yesterday because I wasn’t sure how to approach answering the post, let alone making sure that I was making sense answering those questions. As time went on, I thought it’s best to just answer based on what I’ve witnessed and my personal opinion. 

I think I made myself so nervous, that I became ill a little bit. Idk if it was nerves or a combination of what I had for breakfast. I think it was breakfast this morning, it happened so fast. I know, too much information but that’s what was going through my head at the time.

After expressing, finding the right words, and using Grammarly for an hour, I replied back to my instructor. I hope I gave him a good answer and didn’t come across angry, upset, or anything out of the ordinary. It felt good to answer those questions though. I didn’t think I have the courage enough to answer those questions, but I did it. It felt good, to just take that leap and go for it. I really don’t have conversations like that with others, I would like to have more of them with my colleagues, especially at work. But I don’t know how to approach that one yet. It may take me some time. 

Still waiting on my grades from my last class. I forgot, we all did a video project, and it was probably like 30 or more of us in the class, so it will be a while before I hear anything. I just hope I did ok. Wow, all this anxiety, I think I’m going to take a break from looking at my screen and watch something funny. It is Sunday, so Disney classics??? Yes, please.

Anyway, I’ll be back to check in with you all!

Until next time…

❤️

A DAY IN THE LIFE- UPDATE

Good afternoon

Just wanted to share with you all my update for this week. Long story short, it’s been hectic, busy, creative, and peaceful. Let’s get started:

ASHFORD UNIVERSITY: I turned in my video project for my last class and I’m waiting for the grades to come back. I hope I did ok. It was my first time recording and learning how to use iMovie. Last week, I told Jasmine that I was going to start vlogging, at least for practice. Even though I don’t have a vlogging camera yet, I can use my iPod to record, that way I just Airdrop the content and start editing through iMovie. I started my new class this week, and so far, inspired my peers and my professor with my story on mental health and how I’m working on other passion projects to continue to spread awareness of mental health. It made me smile to see my classmates and their interactions when they talked about reading the posts and how my experiences inspired them and motivated them to tell their stories and live in their truth. Only seven months left of school, and I’ll graduate with my BA in Communication Studies. 

HEALTH (PHYSICAL & MENTAL): My mental state has been pretty calm these past months since working from home. I have my moments when things are really high, and then I have my moments when things are really low. But overall, I’m still taking my medication, and still practicing ways to cope with my Bipolar. As far as my physical health, I have a physical coming up this week and I’m nervous. I’ve slowly started back getting active again, and my eating habits are still a work in progress. The last time I was this anxious when my results came back for Type 2 Diabetes, and I had my health scare back in 2018. I just hope they let me continue to work on my health the old fashion way. I go to the doctor on Thursday, so I’ll keep you all posted on what happened. Fingers crossed!

LESS SCREEN TIME: So far, this week has been 50/50 when it comes to me using less screen time. I’m on my workstation for most of the day since I’m working from home now. Then I take an hour break before looking at my laptop screen for another couple hours. Some days, I’ve tried to read my books on break. Other days, if I didn’t sleep well the previous night, I take a 15-30-minute nap instead to feel more rested and have more energy to finish my workday strong. However, I think that’s causes me to stay awake longer when it’s time for me to go to bed. I’m trying to break this cycle and improve on that as well. So, less screen time, more books, journaling, writing, and sleeping.

SPIRITUAL GROWTH: On my blog, I’ve been genuinely and brutally honest with you all. I’ve talked about things this week that I didn’t think I would talk about, but I’m glad I did. I talked about how rest isn’t a top priority in my life, I also talk about how I don’t seek guidance from The Holy Spirit when I’m having my Quiet Time, I’ve shared so many layers of myself this week, it’s been a struggle but also refreshing. I feel like I’m more relatable to you all if I just continue to be honest and share my story, even the ugly parts that most people don’t want to share. I’m growing and learning more about God and His love and mercy, how He wants us to be more God-like in a world full of evil, and how we must stay obedient to Him and practice applying His teachings to my life.

PERSONAL GROWTH: So, I started reading “Eat. Pray. Love” by Elizabeth Gilbert. It’s still a struggle to continue reading the book every day. I set a goal to read 25 pages a day, I think I’ll keep that as a goal until I become faster at reading. It feels like it takes me half an hour to read through the pages when really, it’s probably a few minutes. But I read slow, especially when it’s an adventure book like this one. I’m still writing and journaling, and it’s helped me with my blogging. So there will be more posts coming up in the next few weeks. I learned not to beat myself up over little things and trying not to let EVERYTHING stress me out. I’m also learning to build my relationships with my friends. I’m doing more texting and calling now, which is better than it was before.

Overall, everything is everything. Things are going ok, but I think that could be better. And it will get better. For now, I’m going to zone out for a few hours and work on writing this paper for class and respond back to my peers in the discussion boards.

Until next time…

❤️

IS REST YOUR FRIEND?

Good evening

So, after work was over, I was going to tackle the task of cleaning the apartment. Well, that did not happen. Instead, I took a day off. But, after reading my devotional for the evening, I think I need to incorporate rest into my routine more.

The plan I’m reading talks about finding rest, and day 1 talked about making rest your friend. During the week, reflect over the past few days. Did you include rest during those times?

I took time to think and write down how each day has been this week. Everyday was the same, I was scattered, my mind was all over the place, I wasn’t focused on work like I should have been, little things kept bothering throughout the day. And when I was feeling tired, I fought the feeling instead of taking that time to rest.

My sleep pattern was decent for three days out the week, I only worked out for one day this week, and my eating patterns…I’m not going into depth with that. But, I can say that these past days were…blah. Other than working on school and the blog, I think I’m feeling the affect everyone felt when they started working from home, when the days feel like they’re meshing together.

I think I’ll take some time to practice resting this weekend, and create a new schedule to make it effective. I can’t keep having days or weeks like this. And rest is important, so I need to prioritize it into my life. That’s one of the reasons why my health level isn’t where it should be, because I’m not getting enough rest.

Starting tonight, I’m going to get more rest. 😴😴😴😴😴. Here are the scriptures from the reading: Gen. 2-3 & Matt. 11: 28-30:

By the seventh day God completed His work which He had done, and He rested on the seventh day from all His work which He had done. Then God blessed the seventh day and sanctified it, because in it He rested from all His work which God had created and made.
Genesis 2:2‭-‬3 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/gen.2.2-3.NASB

“Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls . For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”
Matthew 11:28‭-‬30 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/mat.11.28-30.NASB

Well, it’s late and it’s time for me to hit the sack. Hope you all are staying safe and taking care of yourselves during these times. I’ll check in with you tomorrow.

Until next time…

❤️

SEEKING GUIDANCE FROM THE HOLY SPIRIT

Good morning.

Happy Friday!

For today’s post, I want to talk to you about asking the Holy Spirit to guide you during your Quiet Time. I’m not only sharing this post for you, but the conversation I had with my best friend Jasmine, that opened my eyes and made me understand things even more.

So Wednesday, I was so excited to see some of peers in my classes saying that they’ve been reading the blog, they think it’s helpful and brave that I’m sharing my mental health and other adventures through an online diary. Jasmine called me, and I told her the good news, and I mentioned that I post entries about my Quiet Times, with the help of scriptures. I also went into detail saying that I share my insight on the reading and what I learned.

There was a moment when I told her how I interpret the readings and then she asked me “When you’re unsure about the reading, do you seek guidance from the Holy Spirit?” I paused, and then responded “No.” She then went on to say that she’ll have moments where she can feel the Holy Spirit talking to her. At times, she mentioned that she’ll hear someone calling her name and that it’s the Holy Spirit.

At first, my initial response was panic because I’ve been sharing my Quiet Time with you all, not thinking to include this step. Then, the anxiety kicked in. I thinking about what the audience would think or say if I share this experience with them. I then felt bad that I wasn’t doing this because I am a Christian. I felt like I should already be doing things like this on my journey. And then, after talking to Jasmine about it, she helped me realize that I’m still learning, and that learning is a part of the journey.

Then, I remember one of my latest posts, Let Me Be Honest, where I explain that I’m sharing my truth with the world. Well, this is part of my truth, if I’m going to share my Quiet Times with you all, I want to make sure I’m not giving you any false information. Starting today, when I go through my reading, I’ll be sure to keep that in mind and ask the Holy Spirit to give me clarity on what I’m reading. Good thing I have friends like Jasmine to help me keep things in check, and that they are honest with me. These are friends you need to have in your corner, and in your support group. Thank you Jasmine for helping me realize this truth so that I can apply it to my life.

Here are is a scripture that ties in with today’s topic, John 14: 26:

But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all that I said to you.
John 14:26 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/jhn.14.26.NASB

Well, I hope you all enjoy today’s post. I’ll be back later on to check in.

Until next time…

❤️

PRIORITIZING GOD’S LOVE

Good morning

I’m back with another quiet time post for you all! So sit back, open up your Bibles or your Bible app if you have it, and let’s get into it this morning. Today’s sermon focuses on the topic of prioritizing God’s love. The scriptures to read are:

  • 1 Cor. 13: 1- the Verse of the Day
  • Matt. 22: 40
  • 1 Cor. 12-14
  • 1 John 4:8

If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but do not have love, I have become a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.
1 Corinthians 13:1 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/1co.13.1.NASB

THE READING: The lesson starts off saying that Jesus says that love for God and your neighbor are the most important commandments on them the Law and Prophet depend. In 1 Corinthians 13, the love described is based on the love of our Creator Himself, which is NEVER anything other than perfect. Then, the sermon goes on to say that God’s love is ALWAYS kind, patient, truthful, and so on, and that it demonstrates these characteristics flawlessly. Our attempts to love in this manner never measure up. We do not make love the priority it should be. We often ignore Love and use our gifts destructively in the body of Christ, and that jealousy consumes us and we continually put ourselves ahead of others.

MY FINDINGS & UNDERSTANDING: This part stuck out to me because I’m that person who is kind-hearted, and if I see that you are good and have good intentions, I can call you my friend. When I was younger, that was the case for everyone I came across with in high school. Senior year, I realized the harsh reality that everyone is not meant to be your friend. I was bullied, and constantly taken advantage of, and was soft-spoken because I kept this belief ever since I was little. My parents tried to protect me from certain kids that they saw take advantage of me by reminding me that there are friends for a reason and there are friends for a season. Now, I have a small circle of friends because I’ve been hurt so much throughout my childhood, even early adulthood, my past relationship got to a point where I felt like I was putting in all the effort and getting nothing back in return. All these events led me to develop trust issues, I now sit back and watch peoples’ actions and determine from there if they are good people to be around.

We have moments where there are interesting people that cause us to look at them a little sideways. Did I say that right? It’s the truth, whether it’s work, school, even that one family member that you can’t stand or you have to keep an eye on them when they come over. Other times, we become jealous when we see others doing better than we’re doing. I’ll admit, that’s how I get caught up in the comparison game, because I get a little green with envy when I see someone moving further up the ladder in life than me. But, I have to stop and think, why am I acting this way? I’m a Christian, we’re not supposed to think or act this way. But it all goes back to being human and having humility. Ok, seriously, did I say that part right? If not, please let me know.

CONCLUSION: To sum everything up, if we do not make love a top priority in our lives, then we’re not acting like Christians. That’s something I definitely need to work on and include in my Godly goals for living a Godly life.

I hope you all enjoyed this morning’s quiet time with me. I’m trying my best to learn more about God, and reading the Word, and I hope I’m inspiring you all to do the same. I’m still learning so it’s important for you to do the reading on your own, you may get different insight on the readings than I did. If so, please feel free to share those findings with me and with other readers so that they can be inspired too.

Until next time…

❤️

JUST WAIT

Good morning

Hope everyone had a good night’s sleep last night. Still a little groggy after staying up late from finishing up my video project, but I was able to turn everything and it is complete. I’m back with my morning Quiet Time segment. Today’s lesson talks about waiting. The Verse of the Day, and the scripture for the lesson comes from Phil. 2:13.

“for it is God who is at work in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure.”
-Philippians 2:13 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/php.2.13.NASB

MAKE THE BEST OF IT: The reading went more in depth, saying that a time of waiting is a part of transformation. It made me think, Mom came by and asked me how work was going. I told it was going ok. Then she asked me “Do you love what you do?” Let’s just say my answer was not the one that she was looking for, and based on my response, you’ll understand why I’m working hard learning and studying all that my classes have to offer. Mom shook her head (like any mother would) and said “Try to make the best of it.”

BURNOUT: During this time of the pandemic, I have been putting in effort with my schoolwork because it’s what I LOVE to do, I have been putting in effort with my blog and other passions because it’s what I LOVE to do, but when it comes to work, I guess I’m only putting in half the effort. Maybe because I’m experiencing burnout after working with the company for eight years. Maybe it’s because I feel like I’m not really helping anyone there like I am on the blog. My friend Jasmine and I had this conversation on Friday about how we’re living paycheck to paycheck, that our jobs no longer fulfill us like we thought they would.

JUST WAIT: This is where the waiting comes in. I have so many goals and dreams I want to accomplish once I get my BA in Communication Studies. I want to turn my passion of blogging into a full-time career. I’m reading the articles, I’m taking notes, I even purchased my domain last year to be more serious. As I look back on all of that now, I think God is still telling me to wait. I feel like I’m ramble to Him constantly, and He places his hands firmly on my shoulders and whispers “Wait, I have something better for you.” And the truth is…it’s hard to wait. Right now, I’m trying hard to wait for something to happen or wait for Him to tell me what my next move should be before taking another step.

This is still my season of waiting, I’m doing what I need to do as far as doing homework for class, and getting up every morning to work in my living room for eight hours. I’m trying really hard not to complain because after reading the lesson, and taking some time to reflect, I understand that He wants me to wait, and He is working in my favor for better things that will all be worth the wait in the end. So I say all of this to say that this is our time of waiting, waiting for our transformation. We don’t know when these times are going to clear up. But we are going to come out of this changed for the better. It’s going to start small, but over time, the transformation will be so big, you’ll be glad you went through your waiting period.

Let’s enjoy this time of waiting together. Hope you all enjoyed this morning’s Quiet Time, and I’ll check in with you all later.

Until next time…

❤️

WHY I STARTED BLOGGING

Good afternoon

I’m back and thought I give you all another interesting read for the day. Today’s post is all about why I started blogging. So, let’s get started shall we?

MY GAURDIAN ANGEL

Let’s go back to Tumblr, where I had a blog from 2010, until 2016. It was more of a collage of things, a virtual art journal in a way, where I posted my journal entries, favorite music, photos, quotes, artwork, and different kinds of things that represented me. But, I loved to write, and I remember researching on blogging and how to turn that into my career. Sadly, while I was working my full-time job, and learning about freelancing, my grandmother, Gennett Beverly, was going through health issues. In December of 2016, she passed away. It was hard for me to process it because you think your grandparents, or any of your loved ones would live forever. I remember that my Grandma and my Aunt Jasmine were the only family members at the time that I talked about my plans on writing and blogging as a future career. My Aunt inspired me to start it while I had the time. During that week, after saying our final goodbyes to my Grandma, I created an account on WordPress and decided to document every moment of my life, in a different way.

THE PURPOSE

Over time, I was blogging about my everyday life. From what I did for the day, to the random thoughts that would fill my mind. Then, when I talked about my blog to my friend Jasmine, she asked me if I ever talked about my mental health. I told her that I didn’t think about doing that since I was a quiet person. But, I remember when I was doing my research about my mental health, I read about how in physical and mental health are not discussed among African Americans and People of Color. We don’t talk about it because we don’t want to be seen as weak or of a burden to others. After getting use to blogging for a few years, I made my blog official, and took the leap of purchasing my domain. It felt great because I was investing into something I’m passionate about. That moment out, I said I would try my best to invest in the blog, and any other passion project I’m working on in the future.

WRITING IS MY PASSION

I’ve been journaling ever since I was a little girl. Blogging is like a step up from that for me. I’ve learned so much over the past five years of blogging. I’m still learning, and that’s ok. I know it takes patience, and I’m enjoying the process. I’m meeting new bloggers, and engaging with new faces. I’m getting more comfortable sharing my life with people, whereas before, I used to be terrified to share anything over the internet (don’t worry, I’m still careful with most of my personal information). Growing up, I loved staying in the stationary aisle, and always purchased notebooks, pens, and pencils for writing and taking notes. People use to discourage me by saying that you can’t making a living writing. I don’t pay them any attention, I just get on here and write for you all to my heart’s content.

And I’m going to continue to do just that.

So, that’s why I started blogging, I created the blog as a dedication to my grandmother, to help other individuals like myself with mental health learn that you can overcome many obstacles in life, and that I just love to write.

Well, hope you all enjoyed today’s entry. I’ll check back in on another day.

Until next time…

❤️

P.S. Wish me luck on Week 05, I have to turn in a video as part of my final project. Fingers crossed!

SURRENDER YOURSELF TO GOD

Good morning.

We’re back to Monday.

Hope everyone enjoyed their weekend. Mines was filled with the sounds of lo-fi music from ChillHop on YouTube, and spending time with Mom at her house. Today, I wanted to share with you what I learned during my Quiet Time today. This morning, the sermon from the Bible App talked about surrendering yourself to God. The Verse of the Day, comes from Proverbs 3: 5-6.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5‭-‬6 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/pro.3.5-6.NASB

I smile because when I started my faith walk, that was the first scripture I memorized. Not to mention, growing up I remember my late grandmother, Grandma Beverly, loved reading the book of Proverbs, and that we would have our conversations about reading the bible so that scripture will always be special to me. But, it’s special to me now because the topic talked about surrendering yourself to God. This is something that I feel like I’m still struggling with or that I’m not doing right.

I guess it goes back to my anxiety about certain areas in my life. I’ll pray to God about the issues, only to sit up and worry about them a few weeks later. When it comes to a bad habit I’m trying to kick or making a difficult decision, I go to a different source instead of seeking the Word. For a while now, I notice when I sleep, I become restless for most of my sleep. At first, I just thought I was trying to get comfortable. But over time, I learned after watching a sermon from Dr. Charles Stanely, that being restless is God’s way of trying to speak to me.

The only problem with that, I’m still not sure at times what it is He is trying to tell me. Friday, last night, and this morning, I’ve been dealing with a little pain in my body. I’ve been asking Him to heal me, but I understand He is trying to tell me to focus on my health. This is His way of speaking to me, through restlessness and through pain. I know the pain won’t last forever, but I know that He’s telling me that He loves me and cares about me enough to want me to do something about it. Not only that, I think this is way of telling me to surrender everything in my life to Him.

I’m trying not to overthink it, but maybe I need to write these things down, pray over it, and leave them to Him. I keep having anxiety about these certain areas in my life that they are affecting my health and wellbeing. When I was at Mom’s house, I wasn’t too stressed, but I wasn’t comfortable either. Most of it due to sleeping on the futon I gave to her when she moved. Important fact to you all: do not invest in a leather futon- THEY ARE NOT COMFORTABLE AT ALL!!!!

But to sum everything up, if there are things that are weighing you down or you need to get off your chest, surrender yourself to God, trust in Him, and He will take care of everything in your favor. Just watch Him work, I know I will.

Well, time to get the day started, and prepare to finish off Week 05 strong later on. Check in with you all later.

Until next time…

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DAY IN THE LIFE- WEEKLY UPDATE

Good evening

So, good news, I’m almost done with my final project for Week 05 of my Visual Communications class.

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Bad news? Due to Mom braiding my hair today, and getting a late start into my morning, I’ll have to rewrite some things in my broadcast script for the video portion of the final project. But it’s ok, I’m going to pass this class.

So, I was away from home this weekend. I spent the weekend at Mom’s house for the first time since she’s moved in. The first night was great, my friend Jasmine stopped by and we sat up and talked for hours until it was time for her to go home.

It was great having her there, it was like Mom had two daughters visiting instead one. But, Saturday was off to a rocky start. Due to no moisture in the guest room I stayed in, the overhead fan dried me out, causing me to develop a painful migraine. So Mom gave me some medicine and well… I fell back asleep for another four hours.

Oops 😏😂😏😂😏

The rest of the day went great. Earlier this year, I did some deep cleaning and gave my clothes to Mom for her to create a garage sale. But lucky for me, she had her friends over for brunch, and let’s just say there are no more clothes in Mom’s garage. They were all sent to a good home. 😊😊😊

Saturday night until the wee-hours of this morning, I stayed glued to my laptop, and cranked out half of my final project for class this week. The written portion is done, all that’s left is the video segments and I can do that tomorrow throughout parts of the day before turning it in. And I’ll be done. Then Tuesday, I start my next class.

Well, let finish getting ready for tomorrow.

Until next time…

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