FINALLY LETTING GO OF THE PAIN

Good morning

So woke up this morning and journaled for an hour. I wrote down about everything from my past. The bad thing, most of those things I realized that I was carrying with me as I got older.

Some of you may not know, but I was bullied growing up. From elementary school to high school, I was the main target of bullying. I had past relationships were toxic relationships filled with nothing but mental and verbal abuse.

Long story short, after writing four pages of what was bothering me and holding in these emotions, I felt better and then asked myself these questions:

  • Are these experiences and emotions the root of my physical and mental health issues?
  • Am I eating my emotions?
  • Why is it easy for me to walk around like nothing is wrong and hard for me to express these emotions when they occur?

I’m shocked that’s it’s taken me to get to my late 20’s to realize that feeling these emotions and holding them in for so long is the cause for my overall health. I guess my weight was screaming the answer to me the whole time, I just didn’t understand back then.

Now I know, I need to continue to work on practicing my coping methods and learn how to check my emotions. I don’t think to ask myself:

  • How are you?
  • What are you thinking about?
  • Are you drinking water?
  • Are you sleeping well?
  • How’s your diet?
  • Are you taking your medicine?

I don’t stop and check on myself to make sure I’m ok. So I just wanted to post this to say take time to check your emotions so they don’t spiral out of control. Learn how to express them so you’re not holding them in. If you don’t know how to do that, try journaling or talk to a professional that can help you and guide you in the right direction.

Don’t worry, I’ll be ok. I just wanted to get that off my chest and share this with you all.

I’ll check in with you guys later on. 😊

Until next time…

❤️

JOURNALING

Good morning

Just wanted to share with you all my progress of journaling. Back in June, I told myself that I would start back healthy habits that I used to do in the past.

I decided to journal for 30 days. As you can see, we are on the last day of July. So I think I hit past the 30 day mark.

This yellow leuchttrum 1917 has been my best friend since June 17th. Inside, the pages are filled with orange or red colored ink (I lost some good pens during this journey). Also, she enjoys Lisa Frank stickers and Yogi tea quotes.

It made me smile when I first started writing and decorating it because it brought back memories of when I was little, picking up a plain notebook, and creating a collage cover for the front.

Now that I’m older, I enjoy treating myself to more nicer journals like this one. I think journals will be the only thing I’ll continue to invest in for myself since I enjoy writing so much.

I think I’ll pick up practicing Bullet Journaling again. Last year, I kept a journal filled with designs for layouts and trackers. Now, I want to create one for the year of 2021.

I guess that’s the good thing about “the monthly gift 🎁.” I may get tired, but I notice that’s when I have the most creativity. Crazy right?

Let me know in the comments if any of you keep a journal, and what you guys like to write in your journal.

Happy Journaling (or BuJo-ing)

Until next time…

❤️

BACK IN THE GROOVE- UPDATE

Good morning

So earlier this month, my new starting weight was… 286!

Well…

As of today, thanks to cutting out sodas, changing up eating habits, more sleep and exercise, I’m down eight pounds. I’m back where I was last year of 278. 🥳😊🥳😊🥳😊🥳

KEEP IT UP!!!

Mom said she’ll come over and we’ll walk around the complex, and Dad said we’re going to start jumping rope. I was a little thrown off at first because I would expect this coming from Mom, but he’s been supportive of me getting healthy again and also getting back into his routine even though the gyms are still closed due to COVID.

For Mom and I, it’s been the same struggle. One of the local community centers is still closed until further notice since the pandemic started. The other one, has opened up the water park and skatepark, but not the main building where the gym and workout equipment is.

So, it’s been a struggle for everyone, but we’re making it work. I’m going to continue to keep you all updated on my journey. I still have a long way to go, but I’m going to keep it up to stay healthy.

Until next time…

❤️

GAURDING YOUR HEART

Good morning

So today, I just wanted to share what I learned in my moment of Quiet Time. The topic talked about “Gaurding Your Heart” and the verse of the day was Proverbs 4: 23:

“Watch over your heart with all diligence, For from it flow the springs of life. -Proverbs 4:23 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/pro.4.23.NASB

The pastor directing the sermon for the morning, asking the question “What are we consuming?” Thinking about it, most times, I’m consuming things that make me feel good and that’s ok. But, I’m learning that I need to consume more of God. I watch a lot of YouTube and social media and Netflix, but I don’t consume enough of God’s Word, time with Him, and time in prayer.

Starting today, I made a reminder for myself to consume in the Word, and in good things. 2020 is still a year of learning for me. And I’m learning so much about myself everyday. I’m not perfect, I have flaws, and that’s what makes me special. 🥰

Ok, it’s time for me to go. I’ll leave with you this scripture as well as Phil. 4:8 and Matt. 6:33 for you to indulge in:

“Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.”
‭‭-Philippians‬ ‭4:8‬ ‭NASB‬‬
https://www.bible.com/100/php.4.8.nasb

“But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.”
‭‭-Matthew‬ ‭6:33‬ ‭NASB‬‬
https://www.bible.com/100/mat.6.33.nasb

Until next time…

❤️

MENTAL HEALTH & FRIENDS

Good morning

This weekend, I’ve spent most of my time talking to my friends, checking up on them, as well as checking in to let them know that I’m ok. Out of my group of friends, only three of them understand that I have a busy schedule due to work and school. And I understand they have busy schedules as well.

However, the last friend, feels that I have been avoiding him because I haven’t been calling him as much. If I can’t call him, I do try to text him. Now, he’s made the decision that texting doesn’t work for him anymore.

I guess he was trying to make me feel upset because he was making more of an effort to call me and I wasn’t due to my schedule. It took my friend, Jared to remind me to not let the little things stress me out:

“If he doesn’t understand that you are doing all of this to better yourself, achieve your goals, and turn those goals into a vision of helping others, than he doesn’t get it. Don’t let his negative energy drain you. I’m so proud of you, keep doing your best to pursue your dreams.”

In the past, people that I would call my friends would either take advantage of me or would always think negative about ideas that I had, to the point I would be scared to take the risk. Now, I have a close-knit circle of friends that not only inspire me, but I also inspire and encourage them to pursue their dreams and become better versions of themselves.

I write all of this to say, people will reveal to you if they’re your true friends or not. If so, hang onto them and help each other grow and win together. If not, get out of that toxic relationship before it starts to consume you, physically and mentally.

Well, back to creating and brainstorming. I’ll shall return.

Until later…

💖

MENTAL HEALTH & TAKING BREAKS

Good evening!

I hope everyone had a great Fourth of July weekend. I know I did, I took today and yesterday off from work. With that being said, I thought this would be a great post.

So, Gabby, why did you decide to extend your three day weekend to a five day weekend?

To be honest… I needed a break!

It all started last Monday, I woke up later due to a rough night of sleeping with an intense migraine that did not subside until 3AM. Yes, I suffer from chronic migraines, but they only get severe when it’s “My Monthly Gift” (I know, T.M.I- my apologies). This was one of those moments.

So, after suffering from a migraine, trying to balance a HUGE workload, and wrapping up my final week of my previous class, I started feeling overwhelmed, to the point that I walked away from my workstation for five minutes, rubbed my eyes and my face, screamed in a pillow, and started back working again- yes, IT WAS INTENSE!

On Tuesday, I requested the time off. At first, I was questioning my decision: Should I do this? Do I deserve it? It took an hour phone conversation with my friend Jasmine to help me realize that I needed to do it:

“Gabby, you’re one of the most creative people I know. You’re working a job, and taking classes to pursue something bigger and better. You’ve reached a point where you’ve done nothing but work, work, work, that you forgot to take time for yourself. It’s ok, you deserve this time off. Enjoy it!”

And that’s what I did.

Friday started off with journaling, reading, and spending the rest of the day with Mom as we enjoyed “Hamilton” on DisneyPlus (IT WAS AWESOME!!!). Not to mention, I received the IDEAL INSPIRATION BLOGGER AWARD, which was not only a highlight to my day but the inspiration I needed to keep blogging. Saturday and Sunday were spent cleaning and decluttering parts of my life, while Monday and today were spent trying to recharge and rest after a weekend of “My Gift”- migraine is slowly starting to subside now.

Long story short, this taught me that it’s ok to take breaks, whether it’s an extra two days to a three day weekend, or a week to just get away from it all. It’s a reminder for me that I still need to slow down sometimes. I should write a mantra or manifesto for myself involving BALANCE and SLOWING DOWN.

Question for the evening: Have you had days or weeks that overwhelmed you to the point that you needed to take a break? If so, what did you do?

Ok, sorry for rambling. Just thought I put this out there and share this with you all. I’m going to try and read or listen to an audiobook to help ease my migraine…. or just sleep 😴

Until next time…

❤️

AN EVENING OF SELF-CARE

Good evening

I’m back from spending the remainder of the evening at my brother’s house. It started off going over to Mom’s to do our evening walk. Unfortunately, I had deal with some adulting issues that involved a stern talk with Mom about my spending. Long story short, July is NO SPENDING MONTH!!!

Anyway, we arrived at my brother’s apartment, and the three of us took a family stroll around the block. We stayed and ate Chipotle while watching “Becoming” on Netflix. After it went off, Mom and I returned home, and after I said good night to her, I opened the door to find my Dad asleep on the couch until it’s time for him to go to work.

I smiled because the weekends, for me at the moment, are spent with family. During these times, we need to just surround ourselves with family and friends right now. Even though we can’t do it physically, we have time to be creative and come up with a way to make it happen. Note to self: text Jasmine and Paris tomorrow and check in on them to make sure everyone is ok.

So, I’ll add spending more time with family, texting and calling friends, and indulging on uplifting documentaries to my list of good intentions for the weekend, and for the remainder of this year. But for now, the other thing that I need to add to the list is get some much-needed rest. After the week I’ve had, I deserve some good sleep.

I’ll check in with you guys in the morning.

Stay safe and sweet dreams!

Until next time…

❤️

INTENTIONS FOR A SELF-CARE WEEKEND

Happy Friday!

Before I get started into my work day, I just felt like blogging about some things that have been on my mind this week.

I don’t know why, but every time a new week starts, I used to feel like we’re never getting to Friday and the weekend. Now, I realize I just need to enjoy the moment, and take this time to work on myself, and teach myself something new everyday.

Note to self: Keep Passion Planner and pens close by when watching insightful YouTube videos, and always set good intentions for the week, and set good intentions for each day.

Here are my intentions for the day and for the weekend:

  • Start/End each day with Meditation and Quiet Times🧘🏾‍♀️
  • Watch Marie Kondo series on Netflix- if you haven’t seen it yet, watch it!!!! (Great to binge watch 😊😊😊)
  • Declutter- clothes, bath/body products, electronics, and accessories
  • Start tracking physical and mental health- mood, habits, weight loss, meditation
  • Practice self-care routine- still a work in progress, and that’s ok 🥰
  • Continue to focus on school- work on paper for Week 04 and prepare for Week 05
  • Continue working on passions- especially this blog
  • Finishing copying files for work

It feels good starting the day off writing and blogging. When I started working from home, I would have a million thoughts in my mind, and never took the time to write them down or do a brain dump. Now, whether it’s a few minutes before work or during my lunch break, I make sure to journal, brain dump, and make notes so that I can clear my head, but also save any creative ideas that pop up at random so I can come back to them for reference.

I have a question: do you guys think that any form of writing is a good way to start the day? Do you all have your own creative routine to be more productive during the day and throughout the week, especially during these uncertain times?

Just some things to think about. But, it’s time to me to put on my game face for work.

Talk later…

😘

AN EVENING OF SELF-CARE

Good evening

So, I’ve been taking it easy for the past couple of days. I’m still keeping up with school, as well as improving on my passions. Today was just one of those days where even though I tell myself that things are going to get done, I end up taking things slow.

After work was over, I walked over to Mom’s apartment to enjoy dinner with her, followed by browsing on Zillow for houses. She has her boxes ready for packing so the process will be starting soon. She’s so excited, and I can’t wait for touring some of the homes with her tomorrow. After driving around to the different locations, we grabbed ice cream from Doozles and came back to my apartment to hang out, watching YouTube, playing Candy Crush Jelly, and informing my aunt in California the news.

I ended my day with a little self-care by cooking myself a B.E.L.T (Bacon, Egg, Lettuce, and Tomato), curled up on the couch with my snack and iced water, and just finished watching Ratatouille on Disney+. Its quiet since Dad is at work right now, but tomorrow, I’ll find him right here on the couch in the morning.

Well, time for sleep. Tomorrow will be a busy day and I need all the rest I can get.

Until next time…

MENTAL HEALTH & FRIDAYS

Hey guys and gals!

Happy Friday and all that comes with it. And I know we’re all excited for the 3 day weekend coming up. If any of you are off to a head start, congrats to you. 👏🏾🥳✨💖

So, started my morning off right and made me my favorite breakfast: Oatmeal patties with Avacado spread, and an egg sunny-side up. Instead of a nice cup of coffee, I brewed a nice cup of TAZO passion tea ( if you haven’t tried this flavor, I recommend it- so yummy). Then, I turned on the Bible app, and listened to today’s message.

All this week, I have a routine of applying anything positive to start my day off right. Even if things don’t go well at first, I’m still in an upbeat mood to do the things I love later on as well as my schoolwork after the work day is done. The other thing I’m going to do a little later is take me a quick nap so I can feel refreshed for tonight and for the weekend.

Alright, let me get back to my day. Talk to you guys later…

💖

#SELF-CARE 101: GIVING 50% IS OK 👌

Good evening 🌙

Happy Friday, hope everyone is staying healthy during this time of quarantine. Today’s post is about self-care and work. Let’s rewind back to earlier this morning…

  • Time: 5:30AM
  • Mood: Irritable, Nauseated, and Tired- all due to an upset stomach, followed by a migraine that felt like my head was going to explode, NOT A GOOD START ON A FRIDAY, OR A WORK DAY!!!!😖😡🤬🤯

Got up and took medicine, and laid on the left side, while putting ice cubes on the right side of my face. I woke up to the buzzing of my alarm on my Fitbit, washed my face, brushed my teeth, got my morning started for work, and my head slowly started to subside…until I started on my work, my migraine comes back with a vengeance. 😈😈😈

I feel my mind being my cheerleader, as I try to push through and do my work. But my body was giving me the signs to throw in the towel. I broke out in a sweat, my stomach was still upset, and I squinting at my screen trying to do simple tasks, only to look away, rubbing my temples for relief. My co-worker even could tell that I wasn’t my cheerful self through texting her, so when I explained what was wrong, she told me to get some rest, and feel better.

Most situations like this, I’m fighting through an entire day with a throbbing headache at work, only to feel drained at the end of the day. Today, I worked for 5 hours, and called it a day. And… that’s ok. For the first time, it felt good to just remind myself of that. After I finished what I could, I sat in my comfy chair across from Dad, ate a little food, and the next thing I knew, I woke up with him giggling at me:

  • Me: What happened?
  • Dad: You fell asleep 😴
  • Me: What did I miss?
  • Dad: You didn’t miss anything, I didn’t bother you
  • Me: How long was I asleep?
  • Dad: About an hour, you looked like you needed it 😂

In the past, if I had a migraine at work, I felt like I was weak for wanting to call it a day if I knew I couldn’t function. Now, if my body is showing me that I’m not feeling good, I’m going with my gut and giving my body the rest it needs. My last therapy session, my doctor told me that days like that, it’s ok to have those days. Whether you work for a half day or you call in, don’t beat yourself over not getting work done because you don’t feel well.

So, Self-Care 101- it’s ok to give 50% for the day. If you don’t feel well, just relax and get some rest. Good news, my migraine is gone and I’m going to make myself some tea, drink some water, and have a peaceful evening.

Hope everyone has a good night’s sleep 😴 and enjoy your weekend. Stay safe and stay healthy.

Until next time…

❤️

#SELF-CARE 101: HAIR DYE STAINS & ADULTING IS 50/50

Good evening 🌙

So woke up thus morning around 8, relieved to learn that I took vacation from work. Today was going to be a day of slow and steady relaxation, productivity of spring cleaning, and just sitting back thinking about…. Things. Woke and got into the groove of binge watching Criminal Minds on Netflix. After taking care of errands, I deep cleaned my living room, disinfecting everything, wipe down surfaces, and putting things away.

Then, it was time to take care of me. I decided to try out Overtone, an all natural hair coloring system. I got the color Ginger, and started the process. I wore my gloves, took out a glob, and went to town on my hair, saturating it with the beautiful reddish-brown hue. In the midst of equally distributing the color, my glove broke on my left middle finger, causing the color to stain it. Then, I played the waiting game of letting the color sit for 15-20 minutes. Once I let it sit, it was time to rinse. Cue the OH SHIT!!!!!

As I’m standing in the shower, slowly rinsing the color out of my hair, I look to see my hands turn orange, and almost 1/2 of my bathtub turns a light yellow 😨😨😨. I go through my hair, seeing the issue, that maybe I put a tad too much color in my hair. Taking my time and enjoying the rest of my shower, I got out and dried my hair, only to see it turn to a deep burgundy. That’s a start…

Then I continued binge watching Criminal Minds until Dad came home. We hung out for a little while, had a little heart to heart, until it was time for him to go to work.

So here is what I learned from today…

  • Dying your hair will ALWAYS require gloves- the good ones
  • Wash/Rinse color out in KITCHEN sink to prevent stains
  • Ask Mom to assist in hair coloring process
  • It’s ok, you’re learning and trying new things
  • I DID IT BY MYSELF FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!

Well I hope everyone is still staying safe and healthy through these times. Hopefully you got a few laughs from this one. Time to call it a night.

Until next time…