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So, recapping the last week. I completed four out of six days of working out. Today was my original rest day, but due to being sick and last night’s storm, today was a MAJOR recharge day.
I slept until 10 and Mom came over. Turns out, we’ve been suffering from sinus headaches this week. And we both slept horrible last night. For most of the day, I hung out with her since I had to get my hair braided, and I hadn’t seen her house since she moved.
Week 05 of school ends tomorrow, and I have to post my introduction for my new class by Tuesday. The pressure is on because I’ll be using the camera more in my new class. Wish me luck, I hope I do well.
This week, I’m going to create a yoga session as well as start jumping rope with Dad. Our jump ropes came today so I think I’ll kick off my week with that and alternate with other workouts. Mom and I had our heart-to-heart about my health. She’s proud to see me get back on my feet.
Day 6 will be tomorrow since I’m on crunch time for this class. Not to mention preparing for my new class. Ugh, the pressure. But next year, I’ll graduate so it will all be worth it. 😊🥰😊🥰😊
Ok, I’m going to chill with Dad for a bit before going into tunnel vision. I’ll see you all in the morning.
I know yesterday was supposed to be Day 5 of “Road to 200.” Well… here’s what happened.
After I got off of work, I developed a migraine so I took some medicine for it and took a nap. When I woke up, I was ok. Mom called and asked if I wanted to tag along with her to my brother’s house. To get out the apartment, I said yes.
We stopped at this BBQ joint because she hadn’t eaten anything. Here is what we ordered: 2 Shrimp Taco Meals (3 tacos for me and my brother each) and a BBQ dinner combo for Mom. Long story short, we watched HGTV and ate our food until it was time to go.
Late last night, I ate my last taco as a snack. Hours later, I went to bed. Between 1AM to 7AM, I’ve been stuck in the restroom. I think you know where I’m going with this. 🥴🥵🤢😷.
Today would be a redo of Day 5. But due to tummy trouble, today will be a rest day. Don’t worry, I’m still keeping a positive disposition. 😊😊😊 But today, it’s soup, tea, water, and my comfy blanket.
I’ll keep you all posted. Today’s lesson: it’s ok if you have a sick day or two, as long as you get back at it. So tomorrow will be Day 5, and the journey will continue.
So we’re now in August. July, what did you teach me?
Let’s reflect on that shall we:
NO SPENDING JULY– I caved and did not reach the final day of July to use my VISA, but I’m getting a little better at watching my spending now. July might not have been a no spending month, but I took time to prioritize my finances and I can always have a redo, August- BRING IT ON!!!!!
***Financial Discipline is now activated***
HEALTH– Well, I at least accomplished two days of working out, but due to my “Monthly Gift 🎁,” I decided to take things slow until tomorrow, and try to do some yoga in the AM. Baby steps? I’m still taking them, and that’s ok. But, I’m coming up with a special project I’m working on starting Monday. Keep your eyes open people.
WORK– I’M STILL WORKING FROM HOME!!!!! Enough said on that.
SCHOOL– I’m starting my final week of class, and will start a new class the following week. Wow, five weeks go by in every class so fast. April 2021 is right around the corner. I also got invited to “sit in” a roundtable discussion on Wednesday that talks about Delta Alpha Pi (the Honors Society I was invited to), and learn more from others on the issue of students with disabilities attending colleges and universities, and how we’re changing that narrative in a positive way.
Note To Self: read article to prepare for Roundtable discussion.
FRIENDS– My friend Jasmine is doing fine, her wrist is healing and got a new car. I had a deep discussion with my friend Jared about life and working on future projects. We are all working on ourselves, improving on our art, and we’re still figuring out how to be able to hang out once all of this COVID stuff is over. We’re keeping high positive vibes all around.
FAMILY– Mom is settled in her new home, Dad is settled over here with me, keeping me company. Everyone is making sure that I’m ok, and we’re all starting to work on our health together. I need all the motivation and inspiration I need. Project Healthy Family in the works.
Well, I have rambled enough. I’m hungry after staying glued to the computer for hours. Think I’ll make some ramen, and call it a night. Yes, I said Ramen, but hey, I’m a girl… with cramps… and craving ramen.
Just wanted to share with you all my progress of journaling. Back in June, I told myself that I would start back healthy habits that I used to do in the past.
I decided to journal for 30 days. As you can see, we are on the last day of July. So I think I hit past the 30 day mark.
This yellow leuchttrum 1917 has been my best friend since June 17th. Inside, the pages are filled with orange or red colored ink (I lost some good pens during this journey). Also, she enjoys Lisa Frank stickers and Yogi tea quotes.
It made me smile when I first started writing and decorating it because it brought back memories of when I was little, picking up a plain notebook, and creating a collage cover for the front.
Now that I’m older, I enjoy treating myself to more nicer journals like this one. I think journals will be the only thing I’ll continue to invest in for myself since I enjoy writing so much.
I think I’ll pick up practicing Bullet Journaling again. Last year, I kept a journal filled with designs for layouts and trackers. Now, I want to create one for the year of 2021.
I guess that’s the good thing about “the monthly gift 🎁.” I may get tired, but I notice that’s when I have the most creativity. Crazy right?
Let me know in the comments if any of you keep a journal, and what you guys like to write in your journal.
So some of you may know this, and some may not, but I suffer from Bipolar 2 Disorder. Now before I go any further on this post, you’re asking yourself this question:
What is Bipolar 2?
Well, according to WebMd, Bipolar 2 is a disorder that has more depressive episodes than manic episodes.
“However, in bipolar II disorder, the “up” moods never reach full-blown mania. The less-intense elevated moods in bipolar II disorder are called hypomanic episodes, or hypomania. A person affected by bipolar II disorder has had at least one hypomanic episode in his or her life. Most people with bipolar II disorder suffer more often from episodes of depression. This is where the term “manic depression” comes from” (2020)
Now that I’ve given the verbal definition, let me give you a visual. Let’s take today as an example. I had a migraine yesterday due to my “monthly gift 🎁” arriving, so I took medicine. But from that evening until now, my migraine lingered.
It’s subsided now, but during that time, I was moving slower because I didn’t feel good. It was like I woke up like a zombie. And to be honest, these are the times when my depressive episodes kick off, because I get migraines, I sometimes get cramps, I’m tired for the entire weekend, and not because I didn’t get enough sleep.
If you ever seen “Inside Out”, I’m the little blue woman, minus the tears, for like 4-5 days during my cycle. I’m sighing, and I zone out… a lot!
Thank goodness I keep a journal and a blog because the thoughts that go on in my mind on days like this will shock you. It would probably be easier if I can draw it…
Future art project in the making???
We shall see. ✨
Just wanted to share this little tidbit with you so you all can get to know me better.
So earlier this month, my new starting weight was… 286!
As of today, thanks to cutting out sodas, changing up eating habits, more sleep and exercise, I’m down eight pounds. I’m back where I was last year of 278. 🥳😊🥳😊🥳😊🥳
Mom said she’ll come over and we’ll walk around the complex, and Dad said we’re going to start jumping rope. I was a little thrown off at first because I would expect this coming from Mom, but he’s been supportive of me getting healthy again and also getting back into his routine even though the gyms are still closed due to COVID.
For Mom and I, it’s been the same struggle. One of the local community centers is still closed until further notice since the pandemic started. The other one, has opened up the water park and skatepark, but not the main building where the gym and workout equipment is.
So, it’s been a struggle for everyone, but we’re making it work. I’m going to continue to keep you all updated on my journey. I still have a long way to go, but I’m going to keep it up to stay healthy.
Just talked to my friend, Jasmine. Long story short, she is doing fine. She has a sprained wrist, but she is ok. We talked for a while about what happened, and how she’s ready to get a new car.
I was glad to know that she was ok. She made me smile when she said it felt good to know other people were caring and thinking about her.
“That’s why I love y’all. Even though we don’t talk everyday, the fact that we still take time to think about each other and talk to each other is what really matters.”
Even though we’re all busy, we are a family. Later on today, I have to check on Mary and her sister to make sure they’re doing alright. It’s a lot going on in the world that we can’t be isolated for long periods of time. We need to continue to stay connected.
That’s what helps us get through these hard times. 😊
In the midst of all the sadness from yesterday and reading the Word (that is important), I forgot to say thank you to you all for the 102 followers!!!!!
This is motivation and inspiration for me to continue to write and create more posts and stories for “The Gabby Diaries.” I shared my blog with my classmates in the course I’m taking now, and thanks to their words of encouragement, just like you guys, it’s the boost I need to keep doing my best to blog and engage with everyone. So again, a HUGE thank you 😊😊😊😊😊!!!!
Ok, it’s time for me to be productive and brainstorm some more ideas and work on my projects.
Just wanted to come on here and share some exciting news with you all 😊😊😊!!!
Earlier this week, Ashford University emailed me saying that I’m on the Dean’s List for Spring 2020. I couldn’t believe it, so I clicked on the link and clear as day, my name is on the list. And found out I only have 24 credits left until graduation. Who knows, the date may change sooner than expected at the rate that I’m going.
Mom is officially moved in her new house. It was bittersweet this morning because I opened my door and thought I would see her windows open across the way. She came by earlier today to visit and gave us an update on what she has left to do with the apartment. Tomorrow, Dad and I are going to visit her new home.
Remaining positive through these new changes. I felt a little anxious and upset, so I started my morning reading Romans 8. When I was starting my journey of mental health, my therapist gave this to me as homework:
“Whenever you start feeling anxious, depressed, or anything negative bothering you, read this chapter. Take time to study it, take notes, and journal about it. Pray over it. If you do all these things, you’ll start to feel more positive and encouraged. God loves you, even if you had a few hiccups in life. And that’s ok.”
After reading that, my day felt easier, lighter, and clearer. But I know I still have some learning and growing to do on my spiritual walk. I’ve been smiling all day, and just reflecting on things that’s been happening in my life so far. Tomorrow is another day, another chance to try something new, another day to make things right.
Time for me to do some deep soul searching I guess…
So, we’ve completed the first full week of July. Here is just a recap of what’s happened so far and what I’ve learned:
A 5-DAY WEEKEND: After relaxing on Monday and Tuesday of this week, it was back to reality when I returned to work on Wednesday. It was the thing I needed, and I’m glad I did it. Started working, and from Wednesday to Friday, work was stress-free.
MOM’S NEW HOUSE: Friday evening, I spent the remainder of the day with Mom to look at her future home, which is lovely. I can’t for her to start this new chapter in her life. After viewing her new house, we spent the rest of the evening at my brother’s, eating a yummy shrimp salad- SO GOOD!
CREATIVITY & BRAINSTORMING: Came home later that night and spent an hour laughing, talking, and brainstorming new ideas with my friend, Jared. It’s great to have a group of friends that not only have the same interests as you, but they’re also working towards the same goals. In my group, I see all of us being creatives and working on something that makes us happy and creates things that can help other individuals with their problems.
SCHOOL & HEALTH: School is still going great, I’m awaiting my final grade for my previous class, and I’m wrapping up my first week of my media writing class. I’ve never been this excited about school in a long time since going to my community college and taking all art classes back in 2009. Still using this time to focus on personal development. My health is still a top priority, so last night and the past few days, I’ve done some reflecting on my choices, my actions, and I know what I need to do now. If your health is not a top priority, then it’s going to be hard for you to focus on anything else if you have low energy. So today is all about planning and getting things together so that I can be ready for the week and for the remainder of 2020.
I know to take baby steps so don’t worry, I’m going to pace myself and track my progress as I go.
I hope everyone had a great Fourth of July weekend. I know I did, I took today and yesterday off from work. With that being said, I thought this would be a great post.
So, Gabby, why did you decide to extend your three day weekend to a five day weekend?
To be honest… I needed a break!
It all started last Monday, I woke up later due to a rough night of sleeping with an intense migraine that did not subside until 3AM. Yes, I suffer from chronic migraines, but they only get severe when it’s “My Monthly Gift” (I know, T.M.I- my apologies). This was one of those moments.
So, after suffering from a migraine, trying to balance a HUGE workload, and wrapping up my final week of my previous class, I started feeling overwhelmed, to the point that I walked away from my workstation for five minutes, rubbed my eyes and my face, screamed in a pillow, and started back working again- yes, IT WAS INTENSE!
On Tuesday, I requested the time off. At first, I was questioning my decision: Should I do this? Do I deserve it? It took an hour phone conversation with my friend Jasmine to help me realize that I needed to do it:
“Gabby, you’re one of the most creative people I know. You’re working a job, and taking classes to pursue something bigger and better. You’ve reached a point where you’ve done nothing but work, work, work, that you forgot to take time for yourself. It’s ok, you deserve this time off. Enjoy it!”
And that’s what I did.
Friday started off with journaling, reading, and spending the rest of the day with Mom as we enjoyed “Hamilton” on DisneyPlus (IT WAS AWESOME!!!). Not to mention, I received the IDEAL INSPIRATION BLOGGER AWARD, which was not only a highlight to my day but the inspiration I needed to keep blogging. Saturday and Sunday were spent cleaning and decluttering parts of my life, while Monday and today were spent trying to recharge and rest after a weekend of “My Gift”- migraine is slowly starting to subside now.
Long story short, this taught me that it’s ok to take breaks, whether it’s an extra two days to a three day weekend, or a week to just get away from it all. It’s a reminder for me that I still need to slow down sometimes. I should write a mantra or manifesto for myself involving BALANCE and SLOWING DOWN.
Question for the evening: Have you had days or weeks that overwhelmed you to the point that you needed to take a break? If so, what did you do?
Ok, sorry for rambling. Just thought I put this out there and share this with you all. I’m going to try and read or listen to an audiobook to help ease my migraine…. or just sleep 😴
Tonight’s post is a great one. I want to give a HUGE thank you to Princess, author of “The Mindful Modus.” 😍🥳😍🥳😍 I read her posts and I get a feeling of calmness and peace when I visit her blog. So thank you Princess for the nomination, this really made me smile. You are a sweetheart! Here is one of her posts that I keep on my “blogging playlist”: 5 Easy Tricks To Get Productive
I also want to say thank you to the people that follow me. I’m still trying to “find my groove” with posting content and everything that comes with the blogging territory, but this motivates me even more to continue working at it, and try to help readers with my content. So thank you so much! So, let’s get started, shall we?
QUESTIONS FROM THE MINDFUL MODUS:
Which of your blog posts is your favorite?
I have so many, but my favorite posts are the ones where I talk about my self-care and my health journeys. I enjoy reading them because I have days where I may have setbacks, and reading those posts are daily reminders for me to brush my shoulders off, get back at it, do the best you can, and stick with it.
What’s keeping you busy these days?
At the moment, I am pursuing my BA in Communication Studies from Ashford University, as well as doing my job while working from home since March. Other times, working on my passions like writing, blogging, and art.
What’s something that recently made you happy?
Seeing this nomination 😍😍😍 and spending time with Mom watching Hamilton on DisneyPlus, awesome musical!!!
What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?
My friend told me that I’m a unique person that is creative, a free-spirit, and someone that is very loyal. Even though I may seem shy and quiet at first, I’ll warm up to you once you get to know me. My family will tell you that I’m goofy, and that I have a laid back personality, and that I am such a big kid at heart.
If you could teach one subject in school what would it be?
Journaling, I’ve always kept a journal ever since I was little. I just started back journaling a few weeks ago, and during that time, I’m learning more and more about myself as a person. I love it because it helps me see what triggers my depression, how I’ve grown as a person, crazy thoughts that run through my head, it’s like reading a good novel for me.
Here are the nine bloggers that I picked for this award.
Ok nominees, here are my questions for you all to answer.
QUESTIONS FOR THE NOMINEES:
What are your passions in life?
Would you consider yourself a tea or a coffee person?
Do you have any books that you would recommend for someone else?
Do you stick to a routine or do you change things up during the week?
Can you share with others any advice that was given to you when you started blogging?
Again, thank you all so much for this! I’m still smiling about this award. But, it’s time for me to say good night. I need to plan out my week, and do some journaling. Hope you all enjoy reading this post, I know I did!