So woke up this morning and journaled for an hour. I wrote down about everything from my past. The bad thing, most of those things I realized that I was carrying with me as I got older.
Some of you may not know, but I was bullied growing up. From elementary school to high school, I was the main target of bullying. I had past relationships were toxic relationships filled with nothing but mental and verbal abuse.
Long story short, after writing four pages of what was bothering me and holding in these emotions, I felt better and then asked myself these questions:
- Are these experiences and emotions the root of my physical and mental health issues?
- Am I eating my emotions?
- Why is it easy for me to walk around like nothing is wrong and hard for me to express these emotions when they occur?
I’m shocked that’s it’s taken me to get to my late 20’s to realize that feeling these emotions and holding them in for so long is the cause for my overall health. I guess my weight was screaming the answer to me the whole time, I just didn’t understand back then.
Now I know, I need to continue to work on practicing my coping methods and learn how to check my emotions. I don’t think to ask myself:
- How are you?
- What are you thinking about?
- Are you drinking water?
- Are you sleeping well?
- How’s your diet?
- Are you taking your medicine?
I don’t stop and check on myself to make sure I’m ok. So I just wanted to post this to say take time to check your emotions so they don’t spiral out of control. Learn how to express them so you’re not holding them in. If you don’t know how to do that, try journaling or talk to a professional that can help you and guide you in the right direction.
Don’t worry, I’ll be ok. I just wanted to get that off my chest and share this with you all.
I’ll check in with you guys later on. 😊
Until next time…